Tahajud Love
Chapter 143 “Tahajud Cinta”

“That's not... The humaira? Why are they just the two of them there? Should I go there?” monologue Khadijah.

Khadijah did not want if Ahtar or Humaira could not keep their respective marwah because it remembered from a third party, namely, Satan. And to avoid this Khadijah decided to go down to meet the two.

‘Better I listen to their chat from here first.’ Monologue Khadijah in his heart.

Khadijah did not meet the two and decided to stand behind the white wall.

“That Ahtar was patient with everything that had happened. God willing, Abi will be quiet in His heaven God.” Humaira started a chat that night with Ahtar.

Ahtar did not respond at all to what Humaira said. Even Ahtar did not budge at all, he remained in the same position as before without looking towards Humaira nyang standing beside him.

“Bang Ahtar why? Is bang Ahtar still angry with me with the incident a few months ago?”

“Alright, if that's the case. Can we fix everything from the beginning?”

Humaira turned her head towards Ahtar who still kept her voice tightly. Humaira breathed her heavy breath, she really wanted to be close to Ahtar even though she could not be the companion of the handsome man.

Silent...

“No need to apologize and no need to forgive each other. Because we have nothing wrong. Let's just say that none of us ever happened, forget it! Forget everything and whatever it is assume we're over, totally over.” Ahtar put emphasis on her sentence that had escaped her lips.

After saying that, Ahtar left Humaira who was still standing in the same position. And Ahtar's words struck Humaira's heart to the deepest. Without Ahtar realizing he had already hurt Humaira. So also with Humaira, should be able to maintain his attitude as he keeps his marwah.

“Ahtar, stop!” khadijah mediates.

Ahtar who heard Khadijah's voice immediately stopped his steps.

“Mother?! What is your mother doing there? Did Mommy... hear everything?” tanya Ahtar made sure.

Khadijah nodded, then approached Ahtar and commented on the smile behind his veil.

“I'm sorry about Humaira. Mother knows, you mean to say that so that Humaira away from the life of this Mother's son. But.pronunciation does not have to be that harsh. If his heart is wounded, then you are guilty in. this case.”

“Mother's message is only one, never hurt any woman and anyone it.”

Khadijah gently rubbed Ahtar's arm, making Ahtar realize his mistake after examining every word Khadijah said. Khadijah nodded, a sign that he asked Ahtar to say sorry. Likewise with Ahtar, he returned a nod to Khadijah.

“Mother accompany you, so that there are no demons from third parties. And Mother will ask Humaira to stay away from the life of this Mother's son. How, agree?” tawar Khadija, who was hailed by Ahtar.

Ahtar and Khadijah again approached Humaira who was still haunted near the park. The dim lights made Humaira able to vent her sadness there, even the stifled tears have now poured out, making Humaira cry as much as she could.

Behind the long chair at the edge of the park was Khadija and Ahtar who were watching Humaira crying. Khadijah gave Ahtar a nod code so that Ahtar would immediately apologize to Humaira for the injuries he had received.

“Iya, Humaira. Forgive Ahtar, Mother's son. Perhaps Ahtar meant not to cast you out in his life, but... Mother hope you understand if the feeling of love is not easily forced. Love grows from the deepest of hearts. Love will move on its own without us knowing it. And Mommy hope, you can forget your love for Ahtar. Because, your love is both different and not in line.”

“Mother sure, the soul mate of God will be more beautiful if the time comes. Being patient and trying is our key as a human being in the sense of ‘wait’.”

Khadijah rubbed Humaira's back gently. Khadijah tried to give calm in the heart of Humaira who was potek because Ahtar repeatedly rejected him.

Humaira was completely slapped with every word Khadija spoke. And that is indeed the fact, love will not be easily obtained even though we have a thousand times tried if, love is not a mate chosen from God. And if love is forced then, the relationship that is established can certainly not be longer.

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In the silence of the night Khadijah decided to release the drowsiness he had felt. Khadijah took a position that would hug Abizzar from the side with a thick blanket covering part of his body as well as Abizzar's body. Before really falling asleep in his sleep, Khadija did not forget to read a prayer so that his sleep in the care of God.

“Hopefully you will grow up to be an authoritative man, wise, fair and also. Like your Abi and your two brothers, Arjuna and Ahtar. Aamiin.”

Khadijah kissed Abizzar's sleeping forehead. And before long Khadijah also participated peacefully in the night, releasing the agonizing longing, unwind the burden of the mind and relieve the fatigue that envelops it.

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“Is this really your decision, Zuena? Don't you feel sorry for Abi Yulian family especially, doctor Ahtar?” fred Adam with a question.

Zuena exhaled her rough breath. He felt so tight in his chest as he recalled that night. The night that became the last night of the meeting between himself and Ahtar in a deep atmosphere of grief.

“I know this will be too painful for her who has feelings of love. But, I have no other choice but to get away from her life, Adam. It's too dirty for my life to be juxtaposed with his. We will never be united in the bonds of love.”

“The word of Islam, that soul mate is from Allah, right? Let Allah determine his soul mate. And I, I will forget this feeling ever.”

Zuena got up from the seat which made her feel comfortable. Then he stood in front of the window while staring at the overcast night sky. As if the universe had known how he felt at this moment, it smashed into pieces when he decided to go ‘forever’. But, we also do not know from the word ‘forever’, where it has two meanings. Forever will go away and there will never be another meeting the next day or forever be love.

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As usual, in a third of the night Khadijah woke up from his sleep to perform tahajud prayers. Although Yulian could no longer accompany him and became a priest in the prayer, Khadijah would continue to do so. Because Khadijah felt so close to Allah in prayer, Khadijah used to ask Allah for his wish to be conveyed to Yulian in heaven.

“Yes Allah. If this is the path of destiny that You have determined then, tell my husband there I sincerely accept. Pass this unconditional longing on her, O Allah. Hope you are calm there Hubby.”

Tears dripped back and wet the mucus that Khadijah used to wrap his body. But, after the tahajud prayer he did with ‘cinta’, as if he got the strength and firmness that God gave. In order for his shoulders to return sturdy to accept the ordeal that is somehow shaped, because as humans we can not change if indeed the destiny can be changed by humans themselves.

To calm his heart Khadijah decided to read the mushaf for a moment. Then, continue with other activities. Because, Khadija had to prepare some food and before 07:00 food must have been served on the dining table, considering his friends will return to the city of Edinburgh.

‘May ‘forever’ this love be yours only. Only your name is capable of filling the empty space at this moment. And may I be happy with love alone.’

Seriate...