Tahajud Love
Chapter 23

”I won't give up just like that to get your heart, Khadijah.” Yulian shouted at Khadijah's ears.

Khadijah's footsteps halted after hearing Yulian's voice that seemed to expect love. Then, Khadijah turned to look at Yulian who was looking at him. So that the gazes between them locked onto each other.

’Do you really want that love, Yulian? It is impossible if ... you forget your love for Aisyah just like that.’ Inner Khadijah.

’Khadija, maybe ... indeed I can't forget my feelings towards Aisyah just like that, but I will try to open my heart and love you.’ Inner Yulian.

Under the cloudy sky were two people who were staring, expressing their hearts in a signal. The hearts that are adrift as if giving instructions to unite with each other. But the self that still has the nature of the ego has mastered both.

Black clouds began to billow up there, as if inviting drizzle to attend and wet the city of Edinburgh that afternoon. The rain slowly fell, but Yulian still faithfully stood staring at Khadijah who was now lost in his sight.

’Yulian, you must endure here waiting for his love. As Kyai Hasyim said. Let's just say this is the beginning to start love.’ Julian said in his heart.

Thousands of raindrops had managed to drench Yulian's body. Fifteen minutes later, Yulian was under the rain, so the cold had hit his body. However, that sense was not ignored by him, because on the basis of sacrifice he did so for Khadijah.

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Behind the window Khadijah was looking at Yulian who was still standing under the torrent of rain. Concern and anxiety have combined into one, making Khadija just walking back and forth in there. And his thoughts were filled with Yulian, his eyes were filled with a shadow of Yulian dancing there.

”If you feel worried, then you should go to Him.” Khadijah looked at Rahma.

”Do what I come to Him? Let it go,”

”Do not murmur so, Khadija. Your eyes shine saying that there is love there. Love for that man. Look at! Are you sure if you're not worried about Him who's rained like that?”

”I ... I don't love her, Rahma. And He also does not love me, only one woman he loves, Aisyah.” Khadijah shuddered as he spoke the truth he had known.

”But Aisyah is dead, Khadijah. Who knows, he wants to open his heart and love you. There's no harm in you seeing him. Follow your heart, Khadijah.” Khadijah lowered his head, thinking of the worry in his heart.

Yulian's body had already begun to shiver, feeling a piercing chill run down to his ribs. His view was blurred, so he was unable to catch the face of Khadijah who was present to meet him. And slowly Yulian's body fell down. Khadijah who saw it also felt tremendous worry. However, no one was able to ask for help to lift Yulian's body. Because the rain is so heavy that everyone is lazing to do activities out there. Abdullah, however, chose to take shelter in the car. So don't know what's going on out there with Yulian.

”Yulian, wake up!”

Khadijah's voice trembled, but he could do nothing. The worry was so sharp that Khadija had no choice but to get Yulian to enter her house. It certainly seemed difficult for Khadijah, because Yulian's body was taller than His.

”Rahma..”.

”Rahma..”.

Several times Khadijah shouted to the name of Rahma who was in the kitchen. With all the taste that shook Khadijah's chest had to do something to help Yulian wake up from his stupor.

”You should undress first, Khadijah. Otherwise, his fever would not have come down and He still felt cold. You can even add to the pain due to colds.” Khadija's eyeballs instantly widened, perfectly rounded.

”Not possible, Rahma. Don't fuck you up! You know, we're not makhram.”

”But this is an emergency, Khadijah. Who's gonna help us? Look at! Out there it still rains so hard.”

”I know, but..”

”But what else?”

”What clothes do you want to change? I just have all the dress, yes I replaced it with a dress.”

Rahma's laughter broke considering that there were no clothes for men. Because they only have a shirt, considering they care too much about the aurat. There are no other clothes besides that. But it is also impossible if, Yulian had to change clothes with a robe. Doesn't..it looks so funny?

After being trapped in a stressful situation, the problem can finally be solved. So that Khadija breathed a sigh of relief, now Yulian fever had begun to decline. However, Yulian was still unconscious. And Khadijah always faithfully waited by his side, occasionally Khadijah also replaced the Yulian compress that had begun to cool.

”I've contacted Arjuna and Ahtar. Maybe .... will be here soon with our doctor.” Khadijah nodded, confirming Abdullah's words.

During heavy rain that battered Edinburgh that afternoon, Khadija had to get out and head to Yulian's car parked across the street to meet Abdullah. Khadijah also explained what happened to Yulian. And with Abdullah's ambush helped Yulian to change the wet clothes with the clothes he was carrying.

A few hours later, Ahtar arrived with a man wearing his full uniform, with a stestoscope around his neck. Then, the doctor examined the condition of Yulian who was still unconscious as well.

”There is nothing to worry about Mr. Yulian's condition. Just being too tired and rushing rainwater spills have made his immunity weaken, that's it.”

”Good, Doc. Thank you.”

Ahtar drove the Doctor back to the hospital, while Abdullah was still waiting for Yulian to wake up. And Khadijah brought two cups of warm coffee to give to Abdullah and Ahtar. But he did not know that Ahtar would not return there, because that night Ahtar would make a flight and return to Korea.

”Revelation .. Everything has changed. Ahtar has grown up, even soon will become a doctor.”

”You're right, everything has changed. And so was Yulian, because He wanted to open his heart to instill love from another woman. And that woman .. you are Khadijah.” Sontak Khadijah was shocked.

The atmosphere felt so quiet, only rainwater could still be heard out there. Khadija was silent in silence. Because he was thinking about what filled his brain, which was the feeling of Yulian as Abdullah had told him.

’I ... feel afraid if I've fallen for you, but that sense is not perfectly reciprocated.’ Inner Khadijah.

Khadija momentarily stared at Yulian's face, still closed. But slowly his two eyes blinked slowly, then opened perfectly. However, Yulian had yet to come to a perfect realization.