Tahajud Love
Chapter 68 “TC”

And Yulian calmed Abizzar by reciting sholawat several times, almost making Yulian's legs feel sore because it had been two hours more standing. And at ten o'clock in the night Abizzar finally fell asleep too. After sleeping, Julian laid Abizzar's tiny body on the bed that had been prepared.

“Finally... have slept as well.” Yulian breathed a sigh of relief.

“Does Hubby feel tired?”

“Actually Hubby feet that feel pegel. But nothing, Abizzar also feels comfortable even his crying is lost when read sholawat.” Yulian commented with a smile as her eagle netra was still staring intently at Abizzar's still so small face.

“Yes already, here Neng incandescent her feet.” Khadijah patted her soft mattress.

Yulian headed to where Khadijah asked him to sit on a bed not far from where he was sitting at the time. And when Khadijah was about to massage his feet that felt sore immediately Yulian stopped the hand of Khadijah who was still just holding his leg.

“Do not do that, even though Neng is my wife. Because your husband will always make Neng the queen as long as this soul is still fused with the body and this breath is still blowing in the air.” Light Yulian while smiling.

Slowly Yulian's hand rubbed Khadija's hair and looked at her eyes that were emitting a happy twinkle of an eye. It is undeniable if that night Khadijah was really united by the figure of a man who holds the status of her husband. However, the twinkle of the eye instantly turned into a wistful as a flash of the past shadow danced in his eye peluk.

“Why be sad so his expression, Neng? Is there a problem, hmm?” ask Yulian to make sure.

“Excuse Neng, Hubby. Hiks... hiks... hiks...”.

Khadija wept bitterly after laying her head on Yulian's lap. Khadijah again felt inappropriate when Yulian wanted to make her the queen of her life.

“What's up? Why is Neng crying like that? Has your Hubby hurt your heart, Neng?”

Khadija was silent, only sobs remained there. Not having an answer that explains what happened to Khadija, Yulian cupped Khadijah's face and looked at him closely.

“Tell Neng, don't make your Hubby feel guilty for making you cry for no reason like this. If Hubby makes a mistake, just say.”

“Neng. Neng felt unworthy to be made queen by Hubby. While Neng was once an unholy woman, Neng sinned a lot to not be able to keep the marwah that must be guarded. Hiks... hiks... hiks...” Back Khadijah's cries broke even to the point of being touched.

Yulian stared at Khadijah's pity, which was indeed his past so tragic. Even Yulian also knew how the incident happened to Khadijah after Arumi told him everything with Aisyah's permission when Aisyah was still in critical condition. And at that time Yulian remembered very well that he refused raw Aisha's request asking her to marry Khadija, a woman he had never known.

“Neng, man is the place of guilt. So do not look for the mistakes that exist in humans. Likewise with Neng.. maybe it is true that Neng's past has made Neng lose the purity that Neng should have kept.”

“But... Neng should not continue to look for faults that exist in Neng himself. It is not that Neng has now tried to improve himself and bring Neng closer to God. So, forget everything that hurt Neng in the past. Now remember, we have become parents who must teach good and praiseworthy things to our children.”

Yulian shook her sweet smile, and every word that Yulian said made Khadija's heart feel a little calm. Especially when Yulian grabbed Khadija's body and drowned her in a warm embrace.

And in the warm embrace of Yulian that night made Khadijah sleep in a long sleep. Similarly, with Yulian, he also fell asleep when he felt Khadija was no longer crying.

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“Yes Allah, why is the dream again present in the world of slave illusion? Is not a dream just a flower of sleep, but.. why almost every night the same dream has been present?”

Ahtar woke up dreaming the same thing as the night before. And again Ahtar felt uneasy about the dream. Until he singled out the do'a after performing the tahajud prayer so that God as his Lord was able to provide guidance from recurring dreams.

“Actually who is that girl? Why does he make my heart feel so agitated? Should I feel this excessive anxiety towards a woman who is only present in my dreams, O Allah?” Ahtar wondered about the uncertain feeling.

Ahtar could not close the two eagle netra back when a sense of uneasiness bursting the chest. Just roll to the right and to the left when laying his body on the mattress. Still unable to close his net, Ahtar swept every corner of his room until he found some clothes stacked still in the basket.

“Entaih! Let God decide it. I'd better get my shirt cleaned up.” Ahtar got out of the bed and headed to the side of his closet.

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“Allahu... Allahu akbar..”

“Let him sleep like that. He also has not ended his puerperium.” There was a sense of unbearability in Yulian's heart when he saw Khadijah who was so sound after experiencing chaotic thoughts.

Yulian went to a special room to pray at her house. And there were already his two sons who wanted to do the congregational dawn prayer. Then one by one the women came and lined up to flick the saf. Because in the sense that all family members have gathered Ahtar immediately read the iqomah to start praying two rakaat.

“Ayesha, I miss you here. Calm down there and look up there at the happiness you want.” Suddenly Aisyah's shadow just flashed in Yulian's eye patch.

Yulian immediately ended her longing for Aisyah. Because he must realize that there are hearts and feelings that must be maintained, namely, Khadijah. Now his wife, he has even given birth to a son for her.

“Ahtar and Juna, can you stay here for a while? Abi wants to talk to you.” Julian looked at his two sons who were about to get out of their seats.

Arjuna and Ahtar paced each other for a moment, then they nodded. And after that the two took a seat in front of Yulian by sitting cross-legged.

“What's up, Abi? Does Abi need anything from us?” ask Arjuna as the first child.

“No, Juna. Abi just... want to ask you something as a young boy.” Yulian.

Arjuna and Ahtar looked at each other. And they asked what Yulian would ask.

“Abi wants to ask, what if can make a woman smile happily without a sense of burden in her heart.” Julian looked at his two sons in turn.

“Honest, Ahtar don't know, Bi. But.. bang Juna must know.”

“What yes, Abi. Juna is also not very know, only that Juna once gave a truly sincere love from the bottom of Juna's heart the deepest for one woman, Light. And that's when Juna saw Light smiling happily without burden.” Arjuna to Yulian.

Yulian mangosteen, then he thanked Juna who had given the answer to his question.

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Julian carried Abizzar who had woken up earlier than Khadijah. And when Abizzar cried, perhaps because thirst made Khadija shuffle and blink both eyes.

“Hubby, here let Neng alone the fat Abizzar. He may be thirsty.” Khadijah asked Yulian to divert Abizzar into his arms.

Khadijah took a seat and breastfed Abizzar who was getting stronger while drinking. While Yulian, he prepared a robe, veil and other equipment for Khadijah to change later after bathing. And when Abizzar was full, Julian asked Khadijah to lay Abizzar on the bed.

“Shower there soon, Neng!”

“Alright Hubby, yes already then titip Abizzar for a moment ya!”

Since the bandages in Khadija's stomach had been removed, Yulian allowed Khadijah to bathe himself without his help. And when Khadijah maisih performed the ritual in the bathroom, Yulian tried to bathe Abizzar whose umbilical cord had been removed while still in the hospital a few days ago.

“So once Abi's son, yes! Look baby, Abi's great, right?”

Julian continued to chatter in front of Abizzar. And Abizzar responded to Julian's words with laughter, sometimes with lip movements.

Fifteen minutes have passed, Khadija was already fragrant with the distinctive aroma of detergent fragrance, not perfume and such. Because Khadijah does not want to spray fragrances that will cause tabarruj properties during life in the world. Where women do cover their entire aurat, but it becomes a sin when they spray the fragrances created from perfumes excessively.

“Hopefully the event will be launched tonight, Aamiin!”

Khadijah smiled behind his veil, though not clearly visible but as subtle as Khadijah's eyes narrowed.

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