Tahajud Love
Chapter 88 “Tahajud Cinta”

And as the oppressions progressed, Julian and his sons did not cease to humble themselves to God and plead with Him to facilitate all the affairs of Khadijah in a very gripping room.

“Doctor, how about the operation?” ahtar asked as soon as Jhonson's doctor came out of the operating room.

“Yes, what about my wife's current operation and condition, Doc?” yulian added, who was curious.

“Mrs Khadijah..”

“Dok, nothing happened with my Mother, right?” ask Hafizha.

“Alhamdulillah, the operation is running smoothly. But... Mrs Khadijah is paralyzed. I'm sorry, I know this after operation.”

Yulian's defense had been shattered, like lightning so fierce it had struck him right then and there. Repeatedly Yulian said Istighfar, strengthening his heart again when he was in front of all his children.

‘Yes God, why don't you just punish me? Why should it all happen to Khadijah, the woman who has succeeded in making my heart turn away from Aisyah.’

Yulian clenched his fingers tightly, recalling the moment the car hit Khadijah's body so strongly. And at that time Yulian felt guilty about not being able to take care of Khadijah.

‘Will I continue to fail in protecting my wife? Like Aisha before, I never knew the pain she was suffering. And now, the accident made a new wound.’

“Abi, Juna believes Abi is strong in the face of all this. If Abi is weak, how can we be strong and how can Abi strengthen Mother if she wakes up?”

Yulian looked at Arjuna, Ahtar and Hafizha, and then gave a hug to the three. They strengthen each other and at that moment Yulian decides to reveal everything to Hafizha.

”Abi want to talk to you, Ahtar and Arjuna can come with Abi for a moment?”

Arjuna and Ahtar looked at each other, they were silent for a moment to think. And they think there's only one reason why Yulian wants to talk to them.

Arjuna and Ahtar followed Yulian from behind and stopped after they were in the hospital cafeteria. Because for Yulian it was a place that was not suspicious if the three of them would talk there.

“Abi. Abi already feels sure to have to tell him everything before it's too late.” Yulian broke up who already knew who was behind Khadijah's accident.

“What is it not to hurt Hafizha too much, Bi? His heart is currently broken hearing Mother Khadijah experiencing paralysis,” said Arjuna.

“Iya Abi, we have to think about what Hafizha is currently feeling. We cannot force his heart to accept the reality if He is not Abi and Umi Aisyah.”.

Silent...

Yulian was worried again after feeling confident about saying everything. The three of them again thought to decide the best for the sake of the future and the safety of Hafizha. Yulian was afraid that if Alex knew Hafizha was Khadijah's daughter then Hafizha's safety would be in danger.

“Alright, this privacy back we close tight. Abi hopes you can take care of Hafizha and Abizzar. Alex is already wandering everywhere, afraid he is back to attack considering the case.”

“Good, Abi.” Arjuna and Ahtar nodded.

Yulian, Arjuna and Ahtar return to meet Hafizha who sits alone in front of the ICU house. While the Light was saying goodbye to go home first, because there was a Guard and Abizzar who really needed him.

“Dek, you should go home with bang Juna. Let Bunda bang Ahtar and Abi take care.” Ahtar asked Hafizha to come home with Arjuna.

“But..”.

“Remember, tomorrow you also have to go to school. It is not good to ignore the education that is very important. If there is anything with Mother, bang Ahtar will contact you soon.” Ahtar nodded to convince Hafizha.

For a moment Hafizha sighed, there was a sense of unbearability in her heart if she had to leave the hospital. But what Ahtar said was true as well, so Hafizha came home with Arjuna.

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“I want you to continue protecting Hafizha and Arjuna on the way home. Don't let Alex keep getting close to my family.” Yulian ordered someone on the other side to become Hafizha's personal bodyguard.

Yulian sat down and accompanied Khadijah, if only Khadijah would realize he could immediately comfort Khadijah with his presence. Ahtar prefers to sit outside.

“Neng, quickly wake up. Your hubby is longing, especially Abizzar and Hafizha. Don't you want to see them, huh?”

Yulian grabbed Khadijah's fingers that were still limp, then kissed him and looked at Khadijah's face that was still pale. In Yulian's heart, he condemned his folly that could not protect Khadijah from the accident.

“If that afternoon Neng did not come out, then.. the accident will not happen.”.

“Yes Allah, if Khadijah comes to his senses later may You increase his patience in the face of Your trials.”

There was pain in Yulian's heart given Khadijah's paralysis. He did not know what to say if Khadijah asked for his foot that could not be moved freely. And Yulian did not know how Khadijah would be if he knew about it.

The drowsiness could not be held back by Yulian, the puffy eyes made Yulian close her eyes by leaning her head on the gurney.

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”Yes God what makes my heart feel uneasy? Mate, it is not appropriate for me to think of a mate when Mother Khadijah faces a great calamity.”

Ahtar fell asleep at twelve o'clock at night. But after fifteen minutes he woke up again after having a nightmare that made his heart feel uneasy.

“Ting... Ting..”

A message has been entered into Ahtar's mobile number, and upon viewing it from Hafizha. Ahtar developed a smile after reading the message.

[Assalamu'alaikum, Bang. Not sleeping yet? it must have been yes! Ah no, bang Ahtar must be thinking about the girl. If the soul mate is sure bang, God will facilitate your meeting later.]

[Bang, how's Mother? Has it improved? Tomorrow Izha will go to the hospital early in the morning before leaving for school. Bang Ahtar ready breakfast for Izha huh! Izha kangen bribed Abi.]

[Bangs... Izha can't sleep.]

Ahtar did not feel the heart if he ignored the message of his beloved sister. So he decided to reply to Hafizha's message only once, so that Hafizha immediately fell asleep to remember the clock that had entered after one night.

[Wa'alaikumsalam adek Abang. Why can't you sleep? Mending take water ablution gih, then pray for a while and immediately sleep. Do not get up late and leave the morning prayers!]

A message was sent by Ahtar. But there was no reply from Hafizha, because it can be ascertained if Hafizha did Ahtar's command after reading a message from him.

“Doctor Ahtar why smile alone so?” greet a janitor.

“Ah no, just reply messages from sister only. Why are you still working on nights like this?”

”What's up, Doc. Scavenging a fortune like me that is like this, do not know the exact time can windfall.”

“Better now you sit here and accompany me, because that includes the reward.” Ahtar patted the empty chair beside him.

Even small talk has interspersed the silence of the night. Because Ahtar who could not sleep now accompanied and comforted him. At least Ahtar can forget about the soul mate who still has not been met with by the author. It made Ahtar's heart feel restless.

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The intense sleepiness made Yulian not wake up at all. Even when the dawn Adhan had reverberated, Yulian was reluctant to blink both eyes, he wanted to just laze.

Ahtar went into the ICU to see Khadija. And after being inside Ahtar just stood staring at Yulian who was still soundly asleep.

“Abi... if Ahtar has a family later want to feel like Ahtar like Abi. Loyalty is expensive, which must be maintained and kept by a man.” Ahtar smiled in the hope of soon being met with his soul mate.

Ahtar looked at the clock that was circular on his wrist, because the clock had shown at five o'clock in the morning then Ahtar immediately woke Yulian and asked Yulian to immediately perform prayers that were only two rakaat.

“Excuse Abi, his drowsiness cannot be lost.” Yulian moved from his seat and headed to the mushola.

Ahtar only shook his head when he saw Yulian's behavior, pulmonary lekai middle-aged but still charismatic.

‘I forgot not to bring clothes. I better call bang Juna and ask him to bring my clothes here.’ Ahtar's inner while pressing the phone button.

Tut's... Tut's... Tut's...

Ahtar frowned, astonished that Arjuna had not raised his call. While the clock has shown puk half six in the morning. It was impossible to feel if Arjuna or the others had not woken up.

Ahtar tried to contact Arjuna again, and after the third time Ahtar tried finally the call had been received by Arjuna.

“Assalamu'alaikum, finally. lifted also bang Juna.”.

“Wa'alaikumsalam, what is Dek? Did something happen to Mommy?”

“No, Bang. Ahtar just wanted help bang Juna to bring me a change of clothes. You see.. I forgot not to bring.”

“Alright, later you will be there with Hafizha. Said he wanted to see Mommy first before going to school.”

“Iya, bang. Ahtar wait and don't be late! The smell of his body has stung this, when the doctor did not shower. Kan, unethical later.” Ahtar scratched his nape nyang not itchy.

After Yulian had returned to the ICU room Ahtar said goodbye to his room. Tidied up some messy files on his desk. Can be labeled as a doctor who does not have neatness if it has not been tidied up and the patient will not be interested in it.

“Khadija, I want you to wake up now! I miss your laughter and your laughter. Don't break this heart after settling down to dock only with you. And Allah has given that answer in my tahajud.” Yulian rubbed the top of Khadijah's head, gently stroking her cheek that was not covered with a veil.

“Yes Allah, don't keep Him too long closed. Wake Him up immediately, I don't want to lose him so soon.” In his heart Yulian kept asking God to give a sign of Khadijah consciousness.

Yulian got up from his seat, and took the ablution water to read the mushaf while waiting for the presence of Hafizha and Arjuna.

The chanting of each verse read by Yulian sounded melodious. Make the heart feel peaceful when reading or hearing it. That is what Yulian often does when he feels weak helpless, only surrender to the Creator to be given ease and patience in facing all the Trials of God.

“Fa inna ma'al-'usri yusra'.”.

“Because really after the difficulty there is ease.”

“Inna ma'al-'usri yusra'.”

”Verily after the difficulty there is ease.”

After reading the short letter Yulian continued to read the short dhikr.

“Laa ilaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minadz.

And this dhikr of Jonah was proven to eliminate distress, difficulty and fear. So often Yulian chanted the dhikr of the Prophet Jonah when he felt he was facing anxiety, fear of loss and difficulty in any case. With the earnestness of the Deity of God also eases every affair of Julian.

“Khadijah, I will always remember the golden words of Ali bin Abi Talib. Where the golden words ask us not to stop praying for our loved ones. And I will always pray for your good.” Yulian wanted to be a husband who always prayed for good for his wife.

Smile etched so beautifully, several times Yulian also kissed Khadijah's forehead even though Khadija could not feel the warmth of every kiss or every grip of Yulian's fingers. However, a sincere heart does not make the love of Yulian who will give his affection to Khadijah even though he knows very well how the physical and physical condition of Khadijah.

“Nothing is impossible. Nothing is impossible when God wills. I'm sure, Khadijah is a strong woman.” Tristan patted Yulian on the shoulder.

Yulian did not expect that Tristan would return so soon to Edinburgh after a business trip in America. And only Tristan understood how Yulian's struggle had destroyed Khadija's defenses to receive his sermons.

“When do you return to Edinburgh, Tristan? And ... how do you know I'm here?”

“Hey buddy, we've been friends for a long time. You haven't forgotten Abdullah, have you? He told me everything and Arumi. And He also.. told me about Alex.” Light of Tristan to Yulian.

A small talk about business and the presence of Alex who has returned to undermine the life of the Yulian family has accompanied Tristan and Yulian that morning. But the chatter was stopped after they saw Hafizha walking gontai with Arjuna from the end of the hospital corridor.

“Do not tell anyone including Hafizha. Because I'm afraid Alex will harm her if she finds out she's her son with Khadijah,” pinta Yulian with hopeful eyes twinkle.

Without a sound Tristan nodded to confirm Yulian's request. And Tristan promises in her heart to help Yulian in eradicating the evil Alex continues to commit.

“Assalamu'alaikum, Abi... Om Tristan.”

“Wa'alaikumsalam,” reply Yulian and Tristan simultaneously.

Hafizha and Arjuna immediately greeted Yulian and Tristan who were sitting in the waiting room. And after that Arjuna contacted Ahtar by air, because it was impossible if Arjuna would deliver his clothes instead to the second floor, while the room was just downstairs. It will be troublesome if you have to go up and then down again.

“Assalamu'alaikum, Om Tristan,” greet Ahtar when it reaches the bottom floor.

Ahtar also touched Tristan. Then continued by giving breakfast to Hafizha as what he had asked for.

“Ya is already Om Tristan and Abi... Ahtar wants to go back to the room first!” pamit Ahtar later.

Yulian and Tristan just nodded, after which Yulian had to pamper Hafizha who asked to be bribed with breakfast with rendang meat menu. If you knew how Ahtar struggled when searching for Hafizha's will, it was exhausting. But for the sake of his beloved sister Ahtar want to do everything even though they have to surround the city of Edinburgh and queue for hours.

“Brukk!”

While heading to his room Ahtar accidentally hit someone who made that person fall on the floor.