Tahajud Love
Chapter 19's

Yulian's return was presented in a labile period, where he was so eager to throw a hug at Khadija to calm her down, but on the other hand his heart realized it was difficult to do. Because Julian was so aware that the reality of sin would be if he did.

’Touch or not? If I touch his shoulder .. fear of sin. But if I don't touch her .. how do I calm her heart? O Allah, why is it so difficult just to calm him.’ Inner Yulian.

”Why is that so hard, Yulian? Like young people, inexperienced ones.” Ngalamat author tepok jidat see the behavior of Yulian is very unstable.

After seeing the thugs had been rounded up by the police, Khadija finally tried to stand up and try to calm his heart with a dhikr lafadz that was never spoken. And Khadijah did not know if there was a Yulian behind him, so Khadija still behaved normally while looking at the police who brought thugs to his office.

’I ... feel familiar with the man? But ... who is it?’ ask Khadijah in your heart.

Khadijah saw Abdullah, who was helping the police, take the thugs into the blue and white car. And Khadijah tried to recall in his account of Abdullah, but Khadijah still did not remember well that it was Yulian's assistant.

’Shadows? Whose shadow is behind me? Could it be ... one of the thugs earlier?’ ask Khadijah in your heart.

Khadijah saw the shadow of Yulian still standing behind him. And to ascertain whose shadow it was, Khadijah ventured to turn his body and then, Khadija tried to give a blow so hard to the body of the owner of the bayagan.

”Aaawww..”

Yulian groaned in pain as the tip of his spear had been dealt a blow by Khadijah. Khadijah's eyes immediately widened after learning that the owner of the shadow was none other than Yulian. Immediately Khadijah felt panic when he saw Yulian still holding the tip of his spear with a roar of pain.

”I'm sorry, I .. didn't do it accidentally. Because I thought ... that was the shadow of one of those thugs.”

Yulian was unable to say anything, only able to feel a tremendous pain when the tip of his spear did not subside. Yulian's breathing was wheezing as he tried to endure the pain at the very end.

”It's okay. But next time, don't repeat again.” Khadijah nodded slowly.

Yulian asked Khadijah to come with him, but Khadija was still in the same desire, away from the Yulian family. However, this time Yulian tried very hard to change Khadijah's stance. However, as hard as Yulian tried, the result would remain the same.

”I tell you once again. Don't you ever take me to a time I've been avoiding, Yulian. Let the wind still blow, even if the storm has come. Like me, let Hafizha live her life even though I am here. Don't let Hafizha know who I am!”

”I know, but until when will you still avoid Hafizha like this?”

”Entaih! Maybe ... If it can be my whole life, don't let Hafizha know that I'm the woman who gave birth to her.”

”But Hafizha has every right to know who the mother who conceived her, gave birth to her, suckled her the first time and the woman who always prayed for her with tears, even though you did not take care of her, but you are still a mother to her.” peekkik Yulian.

Khadija was silent with a trembling soul. There was a sense that made his breath choked. It felt so claustrophobic, there was no other word but yes in the end.

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”Say! Where can I wait for you?” yulian asked after getting out of the car.

”Please wait here! I'll go inside and tidy up my clothes.”

”If you already know it's night, why do you keep forcing me? You should have let me stay here, take Hafizha here once in a while to see me. Easy, right?”

Indeed, the selfish nature that was so attached to the two humans made Abdullah rub his face riled. Prust and anger really cannot be held back anymore. Because from now on he only heard the debate and persistence that showed the selfishness in each of them. And when they were in the area where Khadija lived, the debate was going on. Making Abdullah feel dizzy, then left by driving forward his car.

”Abdullah, why did you go?”

”Abdullah..”

”Abdullah..”

Several times Yulian shouted to Abdullah, but was ignored by Abdullah. And Abdullah continued to drive his car at high speed. While Yulian, he stood in the same position with Khadijah.

’How is this? Where am I sleeping tonight? Time yes I go home have to walk?’ ask Julian in heart.

Khadijah tried to knock on the door of his best friend's room. Because the key to Khadijah's room door has been brought by his best friend. However, because the night had been too squealing dispute, then Khadijah's friends did not hear anything other than the dream world he felt.

”How now? I can't get into my room,”

”And I can't go home either. How's our fate tonight?”

”Only the mosque where we stopped tonight ... Because it's a public place.” Yulian looked at Khadijah, then nodded in agreement.

The two decided to walk to a mosque. Long enough they walked, tracing the long road without walking. Because Yulian walked in front of Khadijah, and vice versa... Khadijah was behind Yulian.

’Yes Allah, why did I come back in those days? It's a hard time to forget love at first sight. And after a long time I was able to paralyze my memory of the sense that it should not, you have now returned to meet me with him. Why?’ gumam Khadija's.

’Yes Allah, why have I not felt this taste for so long except for Aisha, but now I feel it again when You meet me with her? In the past .. I did not want her presence because love for me remained for Aisyah, but .. should I open my heart to receive her presence?’ yulian murmured in the heart.

Two people who are walking under the same sky, on the same earth and stand in the same step, are now both complaining the same feeling to God. Could their desires be the same? Unite in building a sacred home?

Once at the mosque, Yulian and Khadijah decided to take a break. Where Yulian is on the right side of the mosque foyer, while Khadijah on the left side of the mosque foyer. And soon both fell asleep in the silence of the night.

”Yulian and Khadijah hope you are not khilaf, yes!” Writer's prayer.

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’I'm sorry Yulian and Khadija, because I did something I shouldn't have done to you. Not that I mean to plunge you into the pit of sin, but to lower your ego, then this is the only way to do.’

Abdullah stopped his car for a moment, but an hour later he put it back on and turned around. Abdullah traced the way to search for the whereabouts of Yulian and Khadijah. Then, it stopped after Abdullah saw Yulian and Khadija curled up in the night cold.