Tahajud Love
Chapter 92 “Tahajud Cinta”

Yulian asked Khadijah to open his mouth, but something happened right then and there.

“Prakkkcahh.”

Khadijah brushed aside Yulian's hand, and even the plate held by Yulian fell and broke on the floor, and the food was scattered everywhere.

“Khadija, what do you mean to dismiss it like that?” ask Yulian.

“Don't mind Neng anymore, Hubby. Neng is paralyzed. Neng could not. hiks... Neng couldn't be a perfect wife for Hubby.”

Yulian's heart felt sliced when she saw Khadijah doing all that. Compassion had also stopped in the heart of Yulian and now he had to be extra patient to face every behavior of Khadijah who was like a child.

Yulian pensive, along lamenting the sadness experienced by Khadijah. And as a husband he could not do anything to comfort Khadijah. However, all means will Yulian try to calm the heart of Khadijah. Because now the calm of Khadijah is far more important than anything.

“Neng, it is not good to ask the husband not to care like that.” Yulian inched slowly and approached Khadija.

“No, Hubby. Neng was already paralyzed, unable to serve her husband well. There will be Neng only troublesome a lot of people.” Khadijah turned his face away.

Yulian took a deep breath, thinking as hard as he could to persuade Khadija. Perhaps the anger and disappointment of this time enveloped Khadijah, so Yulian wanted to give his own time to Khadijah.

“Neng, no creature Allah SWT created with perfection. In the past, Light was like that too. But Aisyah convinces Hubby to accept Light as daughter-in-law.”

“Light is happy to be a well-known Atmajaya family, regardless of physicality we do accept it with great pleasure. In fact we asked Arjuna to deliver Light to a place of treatment such as therapy. Alhamdulillah, the high spirit of Light is able to make Light stand back.”

“Because Allah SWT will facilitate the business of his earnest servant. Now it's up to Neng how, stay like this without any sense of spirit? Hubby's gonna give Neng some time on his own. Assalamu'alaikum,”

Yupian left Khadijah's room, and he decided to go to the mosque in the hospital and calm down there. For all that is needed today is to pray, to ask Allah for forgiveness and to ask Allah for help in every matter.

“Alhamdulillah, this ablution water is at least able to refresh the face, heart and clear this tired mind,” Yulian said after taking ablution water.

Yulian decided to read the mushaf alone while waiting for Maghrib prayer which will soon be proclaimed.

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”Before Maghrib, but many patients still have to do re-examination. What... I'd better delay it first, huh?”

Ahtar was worried about seeing Maghrib's time soon to arrive and while the patient data that had to be re-examined there were ten more people.

“Tok... Tok...”

“Log in!”

“Excuse me Doctor Ahtar, there is a woman named Maria wants to meet you.”

Ahtar knitted his brows, he again thought to himself by the name of Mary. And Ahtar also did not want if he would be deceived like this afternoon. The list of patients was named Maria but the one who entered and consulted was precisely a man.

”See Him in! But... tell her to wait for me in this room, because I want to pray first.” Ahtar finally received the patient, but the maghrib had roared and made Ahtar have to pray first before examining the patient.

“Good, Doc. I'll tell him.” The nurse came back out and met the owner's name Maria.

While Ahtar, he took ablution water and after that prepared with cocoa clothes, peci, sarong and prayer mats that are always taken while working in the hospital.

Three rakaats have been lived after a long prayer rug has been laid out. And then a woman named Mary entered Ahtar's room.

“Dia. Just this time I found a doctor who prioritizes his worship. Come on, I'll sit and wait for him.” Maria sat down at Ahtar's desk.

The pair of round eyes fixed his gaze towards Ahtar who was solemnly worshiping. Decak amazed unceasingly pronounced Maria when the net memidai every movement of prayer performed by Ahtar.

“A diligent and handsome doctor,” Maria said.

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The same thing was done by Yulian, performing three rakaats by night. By se_khusu' Jupian may ask Allah for forgiveness, for Allah is Oft-Forgiving and Most-Mighty.

“Allahummagfirli khothiatiy wa jahliy wa isrofiy amriy wa maa anta a'lamu bihi minniy. Allahummaghfirliy hazliy wajidiy wa khothooyaaya wa 'amdiy wa kulli dzalika 'indiy.”

“Oh Allah, forgive me, my faults, my foolishness, my transgressions in all my affairs that You know better than me. O Allah, forgive me, joke my laughter, my sincerity, my guilt, my willfulness and every thing that is with me.”

That prayer is what Yulian often gives at the end of each prayer.

After performing the Maghrib prayer, Yulian decided to return to Khadijah's room, making sure that Khadijah was calm. But if there is no change, then Julian must again plead with Allah with his persuasion to soften Khadijah's heart.

The door was opened slowly by Yulian, visible above the gurney Khadijah still languished while laying down his body facing towards the wall of his right side.

“She is sleeping or...what are you doing about?” Yulian Gumam.

Yulian hesitated to touch Khadija, even airing Yulian's voice was not brave. Yulian did not want if the anger and disappointment Khadija still lay in him.

Yulian decided to sit on the side seat of the gurney with a thousand silences and wait for Khadijah to turn around and look at him.

‘Somehow my stomach feels so hungry. Just this time want to eat it tastes bad, especially when seeing Khadijah who behaves in such a way. Really makes my appetite go down.’ Julian monologues in heart.

Yulian stroked her stomach which had often made a sound. And want it to feel like Yukian immediately gave ammunition but his heart and mind has been successfully made chaotic. So that the appetite just passes by.

“Krukukukuk..”.

Khadijah who was not sleeping at that time heard so loud Yulian's stomach was ringing up several times.

‘If you feel hungry just eat. I told you no, don't mind me.’ umpat Khadijah in heart.

“Neng, feel hungry no? It was time for dinner, from noon Neng had not eaten either. Hubhy bribe only, yes!”

Silent...

There was no answer at all from Khadijah, even Khadijha still persisted with his position. Burning Yulian again sighed, because he had to exaggerate his voice again to persuade Khadijah seduction.

“Neng, eat yuk! Keep your health to recover quickly, remember at home there is Abizzar who needs the presence of Neng every time. And also remember with Hafizha, if He is already a teenager.” Yulian again persuaded Khadijah.

Khadijah thought for a moment, confirming what Yulian had said. But Khadija still felt unfair, even he felt that he was no longer worthy of liking Yulian as his wife.

“A wife is not good to silence her husband for too long, is Neng not afraid of sin, hmm?”

“As long as Neng knows too, from this morning Hubby jiga has not eaten. It does not taste good if you eat it alone without Neng accompanying you. Moreover, Neng angry like this, the more it feels bad to eat.”

“Neng..”.

“Neng..”.

Silent...

Khadija remained faithful to his silence. There was no desire to turn his body around and stare at the already-worsened Yulian.

Yulian, don't be discouraged! Remember, every life will be interspersed with a test.

“Pardon Hubby if Hubby chatter from now on might make Neng uncomfortable. But as long as Neg knows, as hard as Neng ignored Hubby then. Because Hubby loves Neng and our kids so much.”

Yulian moved from her seat, but as she was about to take a step, Yulian felt that her arm was being blocked. So he undoes his intention to leave the room and then turn his body and make sure if Khadijah is the one who stopped his steps.

“Neng,” strangle Yulian.

“Don't go from here, Hubby. Neng... need Hubby here.” Khadijah finally wanted to air his voice.

Yulian felt very happy after taking pains to persuade Khadija, Khadijah's heart finally melted as well. Even the way Khadijah spoke and behaved was gentle, not Khadijah who seemed to be possessed by a demon suddenly.

Not demonic possession is his name. Sadness, disappointment and feeling if not perfect as before it was natural to be united into one in Khadijah.

“But... right, if Hubby loves and loves Neng? Although..” stalled.

”Never say if Neng is no longer perfect for Hubby. Even have a thought that Neng is not worthy of your Hubby. Remember Neng, that perfection will still belong to Allah SWT. And Hubby will remain affectionate and in love with Neng in every condition whatsoever and in every circumstance.”

Yulian held out his arms to signal that Khadija was confident that she truly loved and cared for Khadijah. Do not forget also kecuoan on the forehead done by Yulian, because women will feel very loved if the husband floated a kiss on their forehead.

“Hiks... hiks... Neng love and love Hubby and our children.” In the embrace of Yulian Khadijah wept bitterly.

“Neng, don't cry like that. When Neng was sad, Hubby's heart felt the pain. If Neng is happy, then.. laughter will be contagious on the lips Hubby.” Yulian stroked Khadijah in tenderness.

Yulian broke his embrace, gently wiping away the tears that had soaked Khadijah's cheeks. That is what Khadijah really likes from within Yulian. Full of softness in every moment.

“Now, eat yuk! Since lunch has not eaten, right?” pinta Yulian's.

Khadija nodded, confirming Yulian's request. And with patience and patience Yulian feeds Khadijah.