The 2nd Wedding
Chapter 34

Refan saw Kinan wiping his tears.

"A.. are you forced to do it?" refan asked as he looked suddenly - suddenly Kinan's face turned sad and even cried.

Kinan shook his head and did not want to look at Refan's face.

"Why are you crying?" ask Refan.

Now Refan was lying beside Kinan.

"May I ask you something?" kinan Pinta.

"What's that?" tanya Refan was confused.

Kinan dared himself to look at Refan Now they were facing each other under the covers covering their bodies.

"If you are satisfied with my service please say my name, do not call someone else's name. Moreover, the person is dead" KinanKinan said in a tone of annoyance and anger.

Refan's face turned tense.

A.. Did I mention Renita? Yes Tuhaaan. Inner Refan.

"Aa.. What did you say?" tanya Refan did not believe her own words before. Did he really mention Renita's name.

"I'm Kinan.. Kinan Adhisti, remember that. Not Renita" Kinan said. Now she turned her body and continued to cry.

Yes Tuhaaan I mentioned Renita's name earlier. What I should do. I didn't realize I was calling my first wife's name. All under my subconscious. I wasn't imagining Renita. I really realized that I was doing it with Kinan. Why does my mouth say something else. Refan pulled his hair involuntarily.

She was really confused on how to calm Kinan who was currently crying. She cried twice today because of Renita.

It was Renita's mother's day and tonight I called Renita. But this time he was angry. I never saw Kinan angry before. He was always patient with me and with me. Inner Refan.

Refan grabbed Kinan's shoulder which looked still shaking from crying.

"Nan. I promise I won't call it again. But we are the same Nan. We cannot forget our past. You also when sick still call - call your husband's name" said Refan.

Kinan was silent for a moment, he recalled the incident that Refan said just now. When he was sick, they slept separately. How did Refan know she mentioned her husband's name? ask Kinan inwardly.

"Mas didn't tell a story. At that time we slept separately, how could Mas hear me calling - calling the name Mas Bima?" ask Kinan.

"That day since I got home from work I haven't seen you. Said Bik Mar you were sick. At dinner you also do not go out even to want to sleep you do not go out of the room to check the state of Naila as usual. I just wanted to see how you were doing that night. I didn't mean anything just to check how you were doing. If you're sick, at least I can take you to the hospital" Refan said.

Suddenly Kinan's heart warmed, it turned out that her husband was not as cold as he had thought all along. Mas Refan was still worried about his condition when he was sick.

Kinan wiped his tears and then turned around. Now they are facing each other and looking at each other.

"What do you want to talk about?" ask Refan.

"Now our marriage is legal in the eyes of the state and religion. Our marriage is not a toy Mas, where we run this marriage. The head of the family, Mas is the priest. Where do you want to take us?" push Kinan firmly.

Refan fell silent and continued to look into Kinan's eyes looking for answers.

"What do you want?" ask Refan.

"As I said earlier. Our situation is the same. The same - the same loss of our loved ones and the same - the same still can not forget it. We are still the same wounded. It is not only Mas who lost Renita suddenly. I am also the same, Mas Bima died also arrived - arrived by accident. Just different timing. Mas Bima had left seven months ago while Renita was three months. Not that I asked Mas to forget Renita because honestly I also have not been able to forget Mas Bima" Kinan said.

I don't know why Refan didn't like Kinan's last words. Refan waited until Kinan finished speaking

"I just want us to try to start building this household well. So that our children do not become victims of the selfishness of their parents. I want us to be open and trusting each other. Whether it's an outside problem or an inside problem. Take Naila's problem for example. I promise I won't forbid them from meeting Naila but not every time. We have to set the schedule. If we don't set it up, I'm afraid it'll ruin the way we educate Naila. I think we should use one of Mas's doors to educate the children. I don't want to intervene a lot of people around who will poison the minds of our children. If it is like that it will be difficult for us to educate them with discipline. They can be spoiled for feeling that many are defending them. Naila and Salman are the same. Salman also still has Oma and Opa from Mas Bima" added Kinan.

Refan hears and tries to digest all of Kinan's words. Right, why do I always feel Naila is suffering the most here. It's true that Naila is still too small to lose her Mama but since she was a child it's not difficult to take care of her or educate her. He will remember Kinan as his Mama because from childhood Kinan was the one who took care of him.

But Salman he already has a memory of his Papa. How is his Papa's face and how is his Papa's affection. How his father treated him and his mother.

Refan so remembered when Kinan was sick Salman had said 'If Mama is sick Papa Bima always accompany Mama'. That was Salman's word at the time. She must have missed her Papa a lot but she was never fussy or spoiled. Salman grew up to be a mature child and quickly understood. The proof is that he is always happy to play and keep Naila if they are at home.

"How Mas? Is Mas still willing to stick with Mas's belief that we are still living with our own past?" ask Kinan.

Refan took a deep breath. It seems like this problem they must solve soon. But it has to be by talking, right? Yes, it can be solved with a fistfight.

"Alright, I've thought about what you said, everything. I will try to accept you in my home, in my life and in my heart. But please don't force me to quickly forget him huh.. I need some time. It's just that I will try not to mention his name in front of you anymore. I will try to trust you, believe everything you do to take care of me, our children and our household. I will try to be open to you too. Like you who always open up to me when Mama Renita accuses you with words - she said and at that moment when we. "rephan replied.

One that Refan knows about the nature of Kinan. Kinan is always open to him, does not like to close - cover any problems until it drags on. Kinan always wanted to solve a problem. For example, at the age of marriage, they are just two weeks Kinan has been trying to solve problems in their household.

"Promise yes Mas" insisted Kinan.

"Yes I promise to change and be open from tonight. Can I start my promise?" ask Refan.

Refan's gaze now changed, his eyes constantly staring at Kinan's chest which without Kinan noticing opened slightly, revealing his beautiful shape again. Making Refan who has been fasting for three months feels he must give up his desire*again.

Kinan glanced towards Refan's gaze which looked at his chest and Kinan felt his blanket.

"Yes Tuhaaaaaaan"....

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