The Journey of Love Habibah..
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" Nur...?" Zelly was surprised once she opened her eyes she found Habibah right next to her, and was even gently touching her face. He really felt like he was in dreamland getting a soft touch from the woman he loved so much. The touch was like a medicine that removed all the pain she had been feeling from loving one-sidedly. Like the rain that falls when the drought hits. It was so cold and calm that it went into his heart.

He saw Mia, Sumarni and Fadhlan's mother who was watching him behind Habibah. Mia just nodded her head slowly, hinting if she should keep quiet and pay attention to what Habibah will do next. The pleasure that had been felt by Zelly immediately turned sad, when he realized that Habibah's eyes were still the same. Empty without expression...😓😓.

" Nur..? " call Zelly softly.

Habibah still did not respond, Habibah pulled her hand from Zelly's face and placed it on Zelly's chest. It was as if he was trying to feel Zelly's heartbeat. Placed his head on Zelly's chest, as if he wanted to hear her heartbeat. What Habibah did really made Zelly's heart race very fast. Slowly making Zelly's white face turn red held back the embarrassment and nervousness she felt.

He's alive, he'll be fine.. If only I had done the same, could I still have heard your heart, too?

Slowly lifting his head from Zelly's chest, he saw an infusion needle stuck in one of Zelly's arms. The plaster that wrapped the intravenous needle touched very carefully, not knowing what was on his mind at that time. Habibah long enough to notice Zelly's hand attached to the infusion needle, after a long time Habibah stepped out of the patient's room and Sumarni's mother immediately followed him.

" You saw that, didn't you, Zell..? Your circumstances touch his consciousness.. Let me just say, that his consciousness is touched only by something painful, not something pleasant. The pleasant things were not so memorable in his heart. But a very memorable wound and sorrow in his life. And now it's been proven clearly, he reacts in these circumstances. Maybe she thought you were her husband. Even by unknowingly touching you with a feeling. Although we also know that he did it expressionlessly, it was his heart that was touched.." Mia approached Zelly who was staring confusedly at her.

" I was like a dream, when I opened my eyes he was the first one I saw. Even though all my love is not supposed to be for me, but somehow I still feel happy about it" said Zelly.

" Come on, Zell, you're a man. Time is just because of this thing, you are directly se melow that anyway? It's not you, Zell..!" said Mia.

" Yes Zell, you know that whatever she did was still in the shadow of her late husband.. So don't take it too hard, because if you take heart you'll be disappointed." Fadhlan added.

" I know bang, but I can't lie to myself, if what he did just now really makes me feel happy. Though in her eyes I may be only a shadow of her late husband. I don't mind, because the truth is I do feel that pleasure. I've never felt this kind of tenderness from him." Zelly answered with a slightly glowing face.

That night Mia and Fadhlan had to go home, while Sumarni and Habibah's mother stayed in the hospital to look after Zelly. Although Zelly had asked Sumarni's mother to bring Habibah to rest at home and go home with Mia. But Sumarni's mother refused Zelly's request. They stay to take care of him.

Zelly is difficult to close his eyes, he is still imagined with Habibah's attitude earlier. He really hoped that what Habibah did was the truth for him. She hoped she wouldn't be imagined as her late husband. Although his heart felt a pain in his heart every time he realized that the woman who was now near him was always shrouded in the shadow of others. The one who is always there in every heartbeat, who is in every breath. But he himself was still in the place where he met the woman. He was still standing staring at every step the woman walked towards his happiness. But he couldn't take a step to leave it, as if he was really tied up there.

Nur...

If only what you did was purely because of me, I would be happy..

Your tenderness is only there for him who has gone from this world, but he has never gone from your life and heart..

Nur...

But I could never, every time I remembered you, the foot I had raised to step on this I could not move away from you...

Whatever I do, it doesn't make sense to everyone, but I can't really leave you..

At the sight of Habibah who was lying down just holding a mat without a pillow, covered with a thin sheet. Zelly tried to sit by withstanding the pain in his body as a result of the accident. He saw Habibah's eyes were closed, beautiful eyes that he had longed for. And now the light of the eye is somehow gone where. He longed for the times when he could always stare at the cute and sweet face of Habibah. But now, that face had been covered by a boundary that he would not be able to cross to see as he once did. And the beauty of those eyes that became a remedy for his longing, beautiful eyes that used to often glare at him and look at him sharply. Now the eye has lost its light.

Slowly touched his chest which felt very painful and sore. Suppressed by squeezing it firmly, it turned out that the pain from the squeeze of his hand was not comparable to the pain he felt in his chest. Patted her strongly enough, to wake up Sumarni's mother who was sleeping could not hear a little sound would surely wake up.

" Why Zelly? Is anyone sick?" asked Sumarni's mother as she approached Zelly who was surprised by the question from Sumarni's mother.

" There's nothing, ma'am, please continue to sleep. I'm sorry for interrupting my sleep" Zelly said.

" Don't think much, now focus on your recovery first." Sumarni's mother reminded Zelly to get back to rest.

" Thank you Mom, I'm just tired of lying down." Zelly gave a reason.

Zelly could only bow her face, she did not want Sumarni's mother to know her tears had pooled in her eyes. He never cried because of a woman other than his mother, but now he not only can shed tears because of Habibah, even he has almost forgotten his own life. He hopes Habibah can recover quickly, and he will try to escape from all the feelings that are now holding him back.

Maybe I have to go abroad, if I am still in Indonesia I still want to go back to see it and come back to this place.

I'll call Marcell, who knows if there's anything I can do there later.

Well... Maybe that's the best way to really get it off me..

Zelly was completely unable to sleep until the sound of Takhrim reading from the mosque not far from the hospital, before Habibah woke up and sat down for a moment. Zelly only watched him for a moment, and he lowered his face again. And Sumarni's mother really noticed that. And she could see how deep the taste Zelly had on her daughter.

Sumarni's mother took Habibah to the mosque inside the hospital. Zelly could only stare at his palms and rub his face weakly. He did not know what to say to Habibah if he recovered and left Kalimantan. He wanted to leave just like that, but his heart refused. He wanted to tell that woman a lot. If he misses later, he misses her enough without any regrets. At least he's said everything even though he knows he can't expect anything from it.