The Journey of Love Habibah..
Be prepared to accept

" I don't know since when.. Maybe ever since I realized that I was in love with a little girl. The little girl who has taught me so much in my life, a little girl who is very difficult to approach let alone to touch her heart. A little girl who has changed a lot of things from me even though she hasn't turned me into a super hero. But he has changed a lot from me. And that little girl is a grown girl now, but she's still cute and adorable in my eyes. And that's you Nur."

" The longer the more terrible, huh? Udah ah, I want to rest, so don't bother me anymore." even if he said that, but the words from Zelly enough to make his cheeks blush. I don't know because of what, maybe because something like this is the first time it's been received.

" wait... I still have something I want to say to you. And I think you should know from now on. I know what your past is, but you don't know anything about me.

Nur, you are not the first person I love, but you are the first person who can make me fall in love like this. And even just loving you can change things from me without you knowing.

Nur, I once fell in love with a woman. She is beautiful, white, tall and also charming. In my eyes she is such a woman, whether in the eyes of others. I've been in a relationship with him for eight years. Ever since she was in XII High School, I've started to pay for her school. *Even until I paid for college, I bought him a motorbike and even he held my ATM card.

Either I'm stupid or what, until I can be like that. Even I often run out of money in my own wallet just for her sake. I don't even know how much money I've given him in those eight years. I still do it not only until he gets his bachelor's degree, but until he works even though I still do.

But all of that is not worth what I received. He left me with another man without telling me why. He suddenly gave me a wedding invitation.

That's when I started behaving the way we first met. Maybe even before that I had behaved like that, but not as bad as when we first met. I used to be so confident in what I did that there was no way he would betray me. Because I thought, I gave everything to him that's why I trusted him so much.

But it's a big mistake, because I can't be firm in our relationship. I was wrong to keep giving her the chance to betray me. If I could have been a little more assertive in our relationship, maybe I wouldn't have felt such a deep disappointment in him.

But since meeting you, all my disappointments, my wounds have been healed without me noticing. The more I interact with you the less pain and disappointment I feel. Our discussion is a opium for me. That's why I can never stop missing you.

You know Nur, I always miss the times when you were always so cool and cool with me. I've always longed for moments when we've always debated trivial things. It was my beautiful moment, when I was staying at camp and having dinner with you. You know Nur, that was the most beautiful moment I've ever had in my life. It was only one night I was there, only that night we went through time together. But from that one night I learned a lot from you. It's like I've discovered that I haven't been in my real world. And it is you who have awakened me, if I have forgotten we are still many other lives and other situations around me. But unfortunately, I can't repeat all those moments, because you're gone."

Zelly paused her sentence again, she was heard taking a deep breath and throwing it away heavily. It was as if he wanted to let go of all the heavy burden that had been neatly stored in his heart.

" Nur... Are you still there?"

" Yes." I don't know why Habibah felt pain in his heart hearing all the words spoken by Zelly. She recalled the time when she had to feel for her late husband for years. He could feel the feeling Zelly had been feeling all along.

" I'm glad that God has finally granted all my prayers. I always asked to see you again, even if I couldn't expect more. Just by being able to see you I'm actually already very happy. But it turns out that God brought us together in a state far from my expectations and expectations. God suddenly gave me the courage to expect something from you. It's okay if you don't love me, as long as I can be happy you're more than enough. I'm not asking you to love me or love me, just let me do that for you and your kids. I've been feeling happy, Nur.."

There was a sudden sadness creeping through the walls of his heart upon hearing the hope Zelly spoke of. He felt that he would dzolim on Zelly if he did what Zelly had just said.

"Do you want me to be a bad person?" ask Habibah.

" Yes... If my marriage, then I cannot love and love the same. While mas own love and affection equal me, meaning I dzolim dong. And that means I'm the bad guy."

" If you don't want to be a dzolim and evil person, then learn to love me. You can love me that's an amazing gift to me. I don't need your love, I just dream you can love me Nur. And that's more than enough for me."

Habibah could hear the sincerity in every word spoken by his former superior. He can no longer say words of rejection and can no longer find any reason to be able to resist Zelly's feelings and expectations on him.

On the other hand, Zelly was happy because now Habibah would listen to his words at length without turning him to another topic or closing his call again. He believes that Habibah has now given a little hope and gives a sense of care to him. Because he was sure, if Habibah did not give hope and care for him even if only a little, Habibah would not listen to all his jokes well. And even he watched all the words spoken by her carefully.

After the call ended, Habibah was pensive in her room by seeing a letter she had received from Zelly when the man left the island of Borneo and returned to his hometown several years ago. He read the letter again, and there were many of the same words every time Zelly spoke to him. It was about her feelings that remained the same for him. The hopeless feeling from him, the feeling that continued to incur the wounds from his longing increasingly deepened the wounds in his heart.

Just like her old self when she could only love her loved ones with her best friend and was devastated because of her too. He received wounds that were almost exactly the same as the one Zelly had been through all along.

Maybe I should give him a chance, even if this decision isn't because I feel sorry for him. But at my son's request. And the intention of Lillahi Ta'ala..

O Allah..

If my decision is correct then make it easy for all his affairs.

But if my decision is wrong and you don't respect it, then cancel it in the best way from you.

With trembling hands, Habibah grabbed her favorite phone. Then type a short message on Zelly.

Assalamu'alaykum warrahmatullah..

Well mas, God willing I am willing to accept suggestions from mas.

Thanksmeme it...

Wassalam´s...