The Journey of Love Habibah..
qodir

Verily, Qodir felt what his family and his companions had said. She did not not want to let go of Lina, but because she felt ashamed to have failed twice in her household.

Although no one would demean him just because of that. Perhaps that feeling arose because of his guilt towards Habibah whom he had let down just for the sake of a woman like Lina. What he had thought would make him happy because there was love between them, but it was far from expectations that even hurt him very much and even his family.

He did not dare to make the decision to leave Lina because he was fully aware that his choice to choose Lina was the most fatal mistake he had ever made.

Verily in his heart he always revolted with all the silence he showed before all men. So that the days in which he passed felt very tormenting inwardly.

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The afternoon when Qodir returned home, Lina had been waiting for him in the living room with a completely unfriendly face

Actually Qodir memorized correctly with his wife's attitude, only this time he really did not want to hear anything from Lina's spicy mouth that would definitely hurt his heart again.

" You've always been like this, if there's a problem you always leave. You think I'm not tired of this? I'm tired of it too, I also want to feel a quiet and happy life with you like other people's wives out there.

I'm not that crazy who would be happy with all the commotion like this every day. But understand what I want from you. Don't always act like this to me, I also want to feel a defense from you.

As long as we're married, I've never felt defended by you in front of your family. You keep quiet every time they scold me and talk about me out there.

Actually you love me not the same as me?" Lina said as soon as she saw Qodir just passing through her without saying a word.

Qodir did not respond to Lina's words. He even continued to walk towards his room.

Qodir's silence made Lina's heart hotter. In addition, Qodir just passed from before Lina without saying a word, not even looking at her.

With increasing anger, Lina chased after Qodir and blocked his arm so that her husband would stop his steps

" lady..!! You hear me not talking? I'm talking to you! How could you ignore me like this!" lina exclaimed with a face that started to turn red with anger.

Qodir slowly turned around and looked at his wife's face excitedly not even showing a clear expression to Lina.

It was obvious that it was adding more anger in Lina's heart.

" How do you want me?" qodir asked with a cold attitude that instantly pierced Lina's heart.

" Of course I want you to not let anyone humble me in front of you again, even if it's your parents. So that I can feel your love and care. And I can also feel that I mean something to you ! " lina replied with a suppressed voice intonation for holding back her already rising anger.

" I have to defend you in what part? How can I make Isa bela you? Even you yourself have never hesitated to drop my pride as your husband in front of everyone? How can I boast of you in front of everyone, while you yourself do not try to keep your own marwah in front of them?" qodir asked with a facial expression that looked so desperate.

Lina who heard her husband's words was very surprised, because she did not expect that her husband would complain directly before her.

" you reckon? Do you think all those people lost their minds, Lina? Can't distinguish between good and bad? Have you ever thought if your position was in their position? Or have you ever tried to feel how I feel when you scold me in front of a lot of people just because of your unwarranted jealousy? What if our position was behind, I did that to you. What will you feel? Do you still feel your pride is okay? Will your heart not be hurt?

Have you ever imagined, if my attitude towards your family especially to your parents is like How you behave to my parents. Is your heart going to be okay? Are you still able to accept it without any disappointment and hurt at all in your heart?

If you feel like you're going to be okay, is it okay that from now on I act the same way you behave to my family even to my parents?" said Qodir to vanish all his heart to Lina.

" So that's why you're always quiet? Secretly you are angry with me and even hold a grudge in your heart because of this, mas? " Lina let go of her hand on her husband's arm in disbelief.

" We've been together for years, ma'am. Why are you saying now? Why haven't you been talking to me?" lina asked with disappointment growing in her heart.

Lina did not think that her husband felt that he was guilty to his family.

" So, now you're blaming me for all this mas?" lina asked back to reassure her heart of what she had heard earlier.

" What do you think I should do, Lina? Try to answer slowly one by one all my questions earlier. I would love to know your answer. If you have the answer, you immediately tell me "said Qodir as he passed leaving Lina still glued to her place standing.

Lina really never expected that her husband would talk that sharp with such a cold face that she had never seen before.

Lina preferred that Qodir be angry with his usual angry expression that he showed her whenever they fought. Rather than with the cold attitude of her husband who now that turned out to feel very piercing in her heart.

"He why did it suddenly turn so cold?

Am I that bad in everyone's eyes?

Even in my own eyes?

I don't care if someone else is going to be my opponent, but how can the one I'm now dealing with be my own husband?

The person I thought could be my shelter from every bad word of everyone.

But now, the negative complaint came from my husband's own mouth.

Mom, I'm actually still in your heart, right?

If there is still no way you can and can say that to me..

Is there anyone else in your heart?"

Lina's mind had started to bouncier everywhere just because of the change in attitude from her husband.