The Journey of Love Habibah..
Surprise

Habibah knocked on the door and said his greetings. A woman younger than Habibah opened the door.

"Who are you looking for?"

" His mother?"

" There's. Go in first and wait a minute, I call her mother first." the woman left Habibah to tell Habibah's arrival to her mother.

" Ma. there are those who are looking for tuh, women with the same veil as small children" he told his mother.

" Oh.he really came.." he rushed to meet Habibah in the guest room.

" You come son. mama's glad you want to come to mama's house.." she hugged Habibah after that holding Zain who was sitting next to Habibah. Zain looked happy in his arms.

" Come, follow mama .." invite him while pulling Habibah's hand to follow him, Habibah can only obey with the wishes of his mama.

" Come on in, this is Purnomo's room. Sit down first.."

" Why did you take me to your room?" Habibah felt uncomfortable in the room.

" This room is deliberately empty mama and no one can occupy until the owner comes home. Mama there's something you might need to know, because you might never know it." sofia's mother took a rather large box from the closet and handed it to Habibah. Habibah accepted it with a heart full of question marks. Whatisthis? why did Mom give this to me?

" Open up.."

The king opened it slowly. It turns out that there are many letters that are stored out of who and for whom. But what he saw was a pile of letters and I don't know what.

" That's all he wrote for you, but none of it he ever told you. Mama doesn't know what she wrote there, she just knows it's all for you. You open. mama will bring Zain play outside and if you are thirsty it has mama provide water at the table, later do not forget to drink yes. let's love we play outside the same eye..." said Sofia's mother while leading Zain out of the room. While Habibah is still not aware of the confusion and can not believe what he heard earlier. Is this really for me? Should I open it and read it?

He took the envelopes from the box in his lap and saw them in each envelope the date and year the letter was written. And he was very surprised to find letters that turned out to be written ten years ago, when he left the city to work first. He opened one of the envelopes and he began to read it unconsciously his heart was racing and his hands were trembling slightly.

Hi Nur..

I know you want to go, but I still can't prepare myself and my heart for your departure. Now that you're gone, even though you just left this morning but I've been feeling very long. I have to how Nur? Nur, can't you feel my miss?

The second envelope opens.

Who I miss Nur..

Third letter.

Nur..

How could you ask me to be with another woman? Can't you see and feel my feelings, Nur? Is it still unclear? I was really tormented by this feeling. I just want you to answer me once, Nur. Or is this the form of your answer, Nur? You're asking me to be with the others because you have absolutely no taste for me?

Fourth letter.

Nur..

Can I borrow my shoulder for a minute? I've followed your wishes to accept her and we're even engaged. I tried to like him and be kind to him. But I still couldn't like him and now he's betraying me. Our engagement is over. Now I have to how Nur. I feel like my heart is hurting, but I don't know for sure what my heart is hurting for.. Help me find the answer, Nur..

Habibah did not proceed to open another envelope. Her tears had soaked the veil she was wearing. He felt very guilty about Purnomo. He was often injured because of himself without him noticing. I'm sorry mas.. It turns out that over the years I've hurt you until now. I think everything I do is for your own good because I feel unworthy of you. You deserve something much better than me. But it turns out that what I thought was best for you hurt you all along. Why do you always follow what I say? You should reject it if you don't like it, why do you still force it to go through?

Tidied back all the envelopes of the letter and closed it tightly.

He looked at the box in his lap with a pushy eye. His chest rumbled and felt tight due to the feeling of regret that suddenly filled his chest cavity. Put the box back into the closet where Sofia's mother took it. And when putting the box back to its original place, suddenly his eyes were fixed on a picture frame placed in the closet as well, but the frame was placed in a reversed position. Somehow Habibah felt very curious about the picture frame. He took it and flipped it so he could see who was in it. And how surprised he was to find out that the picture that was framed was a picture of him. He remembered that the photo was taken at the beginning of his close to Purnomo. And it turns out that under the frame is placed there is a large photo album that certainly can save a lot of photos. He took the photo album and he opened it carefully. It turns out that all the photos in the photo album are all photos of him. He doesn't even know when the photo was taken. The photo of him not knowing Purnomo until the last time they met is on the album. Habibah really never thought if Purnomo collected photos of himself when he was a tomboy until he used a veil Purnomo had. Of course, the photos were taken by Purnomo without his knowledge. You really surprised me, Pur..

After Habibah managed to calm down, he,. Habibah rushed out of the room and looked for Zain. After finding the whereabouts of Zain, Habibah bailed home to Sofia's mother.

" We go home first ma.. I want the Maghrib.. Next time if there is time we come again." said Habibah quietly.

" Why don't maghriban here anyway, mama hasn't had a chance to talk to you." prevent Bu Sofia.

" God, next time we talk. But now we really have to go home. God willing I will take the time to play here before we return to our house" Habibah replied persuading Bu Sofia not to prevent their return.

" You want to go again? Why not stay here again? When will the plan come back." Sofia appears to have objected to Habibah's departure and Zain returns to their own home.

" About three days ma.. God willing, we still have time to talk later.. But now we have to go home first." said Habibah while hugging Bu Sofia who was still reluctant to release Habibah and Zain to go home.

After arriving home, Habibah performed Maghrib prayers in his room. After finishing praying, he suddenly recalled the incident in Purnomo's room this afternoon. He remembered all the words written by Purnomo in his letters that Habibah had read earlier. Even the photos of him that were so much owned by Purnomo made him completely shocked. He remembered that he only had a picture of himself with Purnomo during the new year framed in purple. That he returned to Purnomo when Purnomo married Ririn first. Now he doesn't have it at all. He felt so selfish at Purnomo. The more he remembered the more guilt he had in Purnomo.

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regrets that hurt so much😢😢😢