The Journey of Love Habibah..
Lonely

A week after the submission of his resignation letter was submitted to the Headquarters, Zelly got an answer that he was allowed to resign from his job. And the company has also set a person who will replace him in the position of manager of division I. The handover schedule has also been set, and the preparation of the pickaxe has begun to be done.

As Zelly receives a letter of reply to her resignation, somehow something is suddenly missing from her bit by bit. The emptiness in his life was now more complete with the arrival of a feeling of loneliness in his heart. His heart felt increasingly cold that pierced his soul.

The handover event was held on the weekend at a fishing tourism place located not far from the company. A place that has a green and cool natural scenery. In the fishing area there is a restaurant that all food menus are made from fish. And there are two halls that are provided specifically for those who want to use it as a meeting place or other events. So even though the show is official, the atmosphere is still relaxed.

But the atmosphere had no effect on Zelly. The atmosphere made his heart even more lonely. Because at the time of the handover ceremony took place, everyone who attended there was on average already married to bring their wives and children to the event. While he himself is still alone, most of those who come are several years younger than Zelly.

While giving a farewell greeting to all employees present that day, Zelly could not help but hold back her tears to flow from the corner of her eyes. The heavy heart to leave Kalimantan certainly makes a sense of haru envelop his heart. Because it is not a short time Zelly lived in Kalimantan. For more than 10 years, Zelly has worked for the palm oil company. The land of Kalimatan is like Zelly's own hometown. Moreover, there is someone who has tied his life and heart here, then the sense of heaviness that he must bear is very large.

Zelly's friends, who happen to still be in the same company as her, were astonished to see Zelly shed tears. They did not expect, if the man who was once known to be fierce, the cold jutek can also turn soft hearted like that. In fact they could see how hard Zelly left this land of Kalimatan to return to his homeland. But they also understand the situation Zelly is going through. Because of his reasons for resigning they also already know.

The event went on smoothly, even many of Zelly's subordinates who gave her a memento present for Zelly. They could feel a big change happening to their superiors since Habibah resigned first. Although only a few people know about it, but the impact of the change can be felt by many people. But the changes that happened to Zelly have long been a byword among workers, both in the office and the floor.

Since Habibah stopped working first, Zelly became more attentive to his subordinates. What he used to rarely pray, so more diligent prayer even he always tried to be able to pray at the beginning of time. Zelly also often invites subordinates who are Muslim to pray together. Zelly is also very rarely angry, if the talk also becomes softer and more careful. Not as lazy as before. Zelly so often eat with his subordinates at the camp by eating makeshift food.

Things that Zelly had never done before he knew Habibah, so he did as he had experienced when Habibah was still his subordinate. It was as if he wanted the atmosphere he had been through when Habibah worked with him to remain even though Habibah was no longer there. Only one he could never meet again, arguing with someone again as he had always argued with Habibah. Besides no one dared to do it, it was because he also could not find anyone who could make him have the desire to argue again. Many things that were originally impossible to do by Zelly, now so the usual thing he did. One of them is crying 😭😭.

The more days Zelly's tenderness is more visible, even Rudy Zelly's village friends to not believe the changes that occur to Zelly. Zelly's ice-cold heart is now melting and warm. His heart becomes easily touched by something, especially with things related to feelings. Now he's getting carried away easily. Even so, Rudy was grateful because his friend had changed very much to be much better than before Zelly knew Habibah. Rudy's pleasure at the changes that occur in Zelly was not separated from sadness or rather concerned. Because the love that Zelly has for Habibah also makes his best friend refused the arranged marriage that was arranged many times by his mother. Making his best friend still single until now.

After Zelly gave a word of farewell, and the handover ceremony was over. Zelly immediately left the venue, although others still enjoyed entertainment and other casual events. Zelly chose to go home early because she wanted to pack early. Perhaps more precisely, he was avoiding himself so that he did not feel more lonely with him in the midst of people who were married. After everything is finished in the box. Zelly returned pensive alone, grabbed back his cellphone that he had placed on the bed. Reopening the photo album folder filled with photos of Habibah first.

Nur...

I should how?

Whenever I'm alone, I always think of you and miss you.

How can I win against all these feelings of mine and escape your shadow, if there is no free time left but to remember you and miss you.

A wound I never knew would happen to me, a wound I never realized would widen and enlarge every time I missed you.

For years I enjoyed all this pain without a purpose. I know it's impossible for me to be with you, but I can't escape your shadow at all.

I dare not wish to have you and embrace you.

I dare not dream of having your heart and being happy with you.

Maybe I am the most cowardly man in the world, the man who dared not step in to touch your heart.

I'm a really bad guy, aren't I Nur?

Nur...

Can you feel everything I feel?

It's so hard for my heart to be able to leave you here, while I haven't been able to watch happiness radiate from your face.

May the Lord grant the do'a-do'a that I offer for your happiness day and night to Him someday. I am sure God will not waste his servant pleading with sincerity.

Because I'm really sincere with you.😢😢

Two days later, Zelly left without seeing Habibah and his family first. He felt completely unable to say goodbye to them. He just left a letter he wrote to Habibah to Agus. He asked Agus to tell Habibah.

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About what Habibah felt when he knew Zelly had gone ya🤔🤔