The Journey of Love Habibah..
Zelly's Letters

A few days after Zelly's departure to his hometown, Agus was only able to deliver a letter that Zelly entrusted to him with his wife and child. That afternoon Agus came using his Mega pro motorbike by piggybacking his wife and his smallest child.

Assalamu'title...!" Agus said his greetings with a little loud so that his voice sounded into the house.

" Wa'alaykumussalam warrahmatullah wabarokaatuh." replied Dona who happened to be in the middle of the house watching television.

" Oh, sorry deck. Is the house not at home?" ask Agus.

" There's. Wait a minute I call you, just come in first." replied Dona.

Not long ago Habibah came to see them.

" Assalamu'alaykum Bibah.." said Agus.

"Wa'alaykumussalam warrahmatullah wabarokaatuh.. Sorry who is it?" ask Habibah.

" You forgot about me apparently. This is Agus, your schoolmate from MTS, and this is my wife and son." replied Agus to introduce himself.

" Aus...? Is Agus the head of OSIS?" ask Habibah.

" yes. I'm that Agus, hehehe." replied Agus with a small laugh.

" Oh. What's the matter with my house, is there anything important?" ask Habibah.

" Oh yes, until I forget. We're here because there's something that can be said to be important anyway, there's a trust from someone I have to tell you. This is from Mr. Zelly, before he left leave this for you" said Agus, handing over a letter and a small package to Habibah.

" Sir Zelly is gone? Went where? Wretched mutation?" ask Habibah. Curiosity suddenly appeared in his heart.

" No. He resigned and returned to his hometown. Because her mother asked her to go home and marry by her mother's choice. Actually I've heard for a long time too, if he has repeatedly refused matchmaking made by his mother. But do not know why this time he agreed, even to quit his job. I could even clearly see his sadness as he left. Even at the handover ceremony at that time he even cried. If you look, you won't believe that the one crying in front of us was Mr. Zelly. People who have known as a fierce, cool and cold figure can cry in front of many people. Not in the shadows, are you? Many people were surprised by his attitude at that time, many of the latest saw people like him can cry in front of many people like that "the story of Agus at length.

" Nothing is impossible in this world Gus. If God wills, no one will be able to prevent it. Who knows, God has softened the heart of Mr. Zelly. The fact is that humans say it is impossible but in fact it happens because of the permission of God. That's why we can't convict anything with certainty about something in this world. Because the founder is God, not us. If Mr. Zelly refused many times arranged marriages, it is because God did not want Mr. Zelly married. Maybe if forced it will even bring harm to many people, especially Mr. Zelly and his partner. But now Mr. Zelly has agreed to mean God who has moved his heart to approve the matchmaking. All because of the will of God." said Habibah responded to the story of Agus.

After a long conversation, Agus and his wife finally resigned. Habibah led them to his house. After the departure of Agus and his wife, Habibah returned to his house. The boxes and letters that Agus had brought for him. He took her into his room. Out of curiosity, Habibahpun immediately opened the box. And it turns out that the contents are very beautiful white lotus flower brooches. Somehow Zelly gave it to him, Habibahpun do not understand. Habibah then opened the letter that Zelly wrote for her, the writing was very neat and very pleasing to the eye and read.

Assalamu'alaykum warrahmatullah...

Hi Nur..

I'm sure by the time you read this letter, I've been away from Borneo. Maybe everything I'm about to say is meaningless to you. But everything I'm about to say means a lot to me.

Nur...

Maybe you remember I said I liked you, I fell in love with you.

Nur..

I told you at your wedding with your late husband that I didn't get married because I liked someone and I didn't want that marriage. That is true, because in my heart there is still you.

Maybe I'm crazy and irrational. Maybe I'm stupid for doing this senseless thing. But I really can't do it even though I've been sick and hurt all this time. It wasn't your fault, and maybe it was my own fault for not being able to control my feelings.

Nur...

Actually, I'm really hard leaving this place, where I've been making a living for over 10 years, where I met and knew you, where I learned a lot about life. I leave feeling my heart unsettled, because I can't see your happy face like you were when you were happy with your late husband.

Nur....

I know I don't deserve to say all this here. Maybe I never deserved to tell you. But this is how I feel. I will be able to bear all these pains and wounds for the rest of my life, as long as I can see you smiling happily again.

Nur...

I can't give you a memento of anything but this. I don't know if it's useful to you or not. But I you can be like that lotus flower, which can always bloom in any weather and season. I will always miss your sweet smile like I used to. Bright eyes as before and beautiful eyes twinkle as before. I miss every moment I have with you. Everything will always be neatly stored in my little heart.

Nur...

If someday we can meet again, I hope I can find all that I miss from you.

Nur...

Letting you go is not difficult for me, but I'm the one who has trouble getting away from you. Pray for me so that I can release myself from all your shadows from my heart. I'm sorry I met you, and I don't regret falling in love with you. But I'm sorry I couldn't do anything for you. I'm sorry that I became a selfless man who dared to fall for you. Since long ago until now, and I don't even know when. I'm sorry I couldn't stop loving you and missing you. If this feeling is a sin, I don't know how much and how big it is. But the one thing I know for sure, I never regret loving you.

My best wishes to you

Zelly

Habibah shed tears over all the words that Zelly wrote at length. He did not expect that his former superior could love him so much. She didn't even expect Zelly to leave everything behind just to be able to escape her feelings. Habibah cried at the thought of how much Zelly had suffered over the years.

Abaghfirullah mr. Zelly..

Why did you get to be like this, sir? I'm not that good until I deserve all of your kindness like this. I am not limited to the father to love with so much, because I am not as much as the father. There are still a lot of girls who are much better than me out there sir, but why can you like me. Forgive me for never being able to repay you. Only sincere prayers from my father, may you find new love and live a happy life.

Habibah folded the letter back from Zelly and kept it neatly in her envelope and placed it in the box where the letters from her late husband used to be. It will be a beautiful memory to remember.

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The feeling of being loved so much does not always make the heart happy, sometimes it becomes sad and sad because the love that comes is unrequited because it is not love for him.😢😢😢