The Journey of Love Habibah..
Towards the wedding

Since the last time Zelly expressed her feelings for Habibah, the girl suddenly felt guilty towards some people. He really wished he could have a pure friendship without any other feelings. But he recalled how his friendship with Purnomo, Alvian, Ricky even Zelly could not be separated from the feeling of love, even though the feeling was not from him. He never understood what their judgment was so they could like him. Even he remembered how Purnomo and Ricky could love him so much that he could not understand the limits of his love for him. That was why he was increasingly hiding himself, because he was afraid to disappoint many more people without him wanting to.

One year was passed unnoticed. If Habibah's parents do not remind Habibah to come home, Habibah may not realize the time for one year for his marriage is over.

" When are you going home, Nur.?" ask his mother on the phone.

" Don't know what's going on?" habibah asked his mother.

" Athaghfirullah Nur, what's the matter..? Your wedding day will soon be Nur, the end of this month.. How could you forget that?" her mother said she was a little upset that she had forgotten her own wedding day.

" O.. is that fast ma? Why does the time feel so fast is it another year..? Can't I stay a few months, ma?" habibah asked hoping.

" You don't look for Nur, pity people have been a year and the time has been pushed back. That one year is a long time ago, how much longer do you want to postpone it? Remember, your sister already had a baby wedding you still want to be delayed again?" mother reminded.

" Yes ma, ma'af.. This week I went home.." Habibah finally gave up.

No one can prevent marriage except Allah who changes the provisions that have been decided by both families. What is the power must still be lived even though it is not ready mentally. Habibah resigned.

The day of Habibah's return has arrived, very heavy heart Habibah left his work this time. He felt really comfortable with his job. But what he can do, he has to go home and leave his job. Anton and Annisa also could not prevent the return of Habibah, the child Bisma in the care of Habibah as if knowing the day of Habibah's return. Where that day Bhishma really did not want to escape from the lap of Habibah, as if he knew if he would be abandoned by Habibah. Habibah was crying to release his embrace of Bhishma who was able to walk and run and even began to learn to talk. The cute boy was endlessly crying as Habibah left the Anton family residence.

" I'm sorry, Nur, we can't take you. And ma'af we can't give you anything. It's just a little memento from us. Consider your wedding gift yes nur.." said Annisa while pinning a ring on Habibah's ring finger. After that they embraced with tears that could not be contained anymore. The atmosphere enveloped their hearts, because they also did not know when they could meet again.

When the return of Habibah very much later by someone in his village. Well, he's a Purnomo. He had long since returned to the village after deciding to divorce his wife Ririn. And the only daughter of his puppet joined Purnomo because child custody fell on Purnomo. But Habibah did not know about Purnomo's divorce. Even Habibah does not know if Purnomo has returned to the village. When he got home, he was welcomed by his family. After getting a long hug from his mother and siblings he also sat briefly in the living room while chatting with his family even though only briefly, because he felt tired after a long trip.

After bathing and eating dinner, Habibah immediately rested in his room. He laid his tired body, even because of his fatigue he had not been able to tidy the clothes in his suitcase into his wardrobe. He stared at the ceiling of his room while contemplating the journey of his life which was quite complicated for him. He never even expected that his life journey to marriage was so draining of emotions and feelings. And he doesn't even know how to let go of all his feelings for Purnomo. Many years have passed, but that feeling has not changed. And he was very disturbed by his feelings. But how else, he himself did not know how to overcome it because all he could do was just hold it. Even he did not know how he would marry later, while his feelings were still the same.

Three days before the wedding, the Qodir family had arrived. While in the family residence Habibah is busy preparing everything for the wedding reception. Many of Habibah's neighbors who help without being asked, they are used to carrying out a prayer if there are citizens who will carry out a celebration. That's when Purnomo knew that Habibah would have a marriage. Between happy and sad to feel. One side he was happy the girl had returned, but the other side returned the girl to have her wedding. Purnomo really felt unprepared to watch the girl he loved was with another man. Although he felt it was inappropriate, but that's how he felt.

The day before the wedding, Purnomo really could not resist his feelings to meet with Habibah. That night he came to visit Habibah's house. He knew that the groom's family was there, but he didn't care. All he wanted was to meet Habibah for the last time. How surprised Habibah with the arrival of Purnomo, although he did not want to see him but he knew he could not do that because he could not humiliate Purnomo at home. The house was crowded, not just the two of them.

" Mas Pur, what's wrong?" habibah asked with an erratic heart. Maybe because they hadn't seen each other for so long that it made his heart beat so fast. But he was trying to control his feelings as much as possible.

" I'm sorry if I bother you, I just want to meet you. Because I don't know if we can still meet if you're married. Consider this our last meeting." said Purnomo with a trembling voice holding back the feeling in his heart.

" Sit down first.." Habibah invited Purnomo to sit down.

" Are you angry that I came here?" ask Purnomo carefully.

" No mas.. I'm not angry. Just surprised that suddenly Pur came here alone. Where's Ririn mas..?" habibah said as his eyes searched for Ririn.

" We've divorced Nur.... Sorry if I let you down. But I can't do anything.. I've been trying to keep our marriage. But he betrayed our household under the pretext that I was having an affair with you, even though the truth is that it's not true. But yes, now the most important thing is my son. I don't want anything else." kara Purnomo who turned out to be a surprise for Habibah. He did not expect that Purnomo would suffer with his marriage.

" I'm sorry, if it wasn't for me, I probably wouldn't have experienced this painful thing. " said Habibah coupled with his tears without being commanded to have slid freely wet the veil he was wearing..

" It's not your fault, Nur, this is my way of life that must be like this. So don't feel guilty in your heart. I just hope that if you don't experience what I'm going through, that's all" said Purnomo to strengthen the heart of the girl in front of him.

" It's just, I'm also sorry that if I can't fulfill your wish, you can take away my feelings for you. It's not that I don't want to try, but Nur... No matter how hard I try, I still can't do it. I'm really sorry for that one thing I couldn't fulfill. It doesn't matter what feeling this will be until when. I will never regret it... And for you, you must be happy later, Nur.." with sincerity.

Habibah could not speak anymore to hear the words of Purnomo. He felt very guilty about Purnomo.

" Okay, Nur, I'm going home now.. Remember my message, you must be happy... Assalamu'title..." Purnomo waved his hand. There was a sense of relief in Purnomo's heart after saying all that. Although she could not get rid of the pain in her heart but she felt enough for him. However, he wants the woman he loves to be happy without any remorse and guilt. Purnomo himself could not describe how he felt at that time, which he knew the love in his heart had not diminished in the slightest. But his love will not make himself hinder Habibah's happiness. You deserve to be happy..

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how it feels to see a loved one getting married to another person 😭😭