The Journey of Love Habibah..
Meet again

" It's been a while since we met, three years.. How are you?" a man approached Habibah who was writing books on the porch of his house.

" ba.alright.mas..!" Habibah answered the man's greeting.

" You're why that whole thing Nur, I came here not to bother you anyway. I just came here to ask, you can't make a birthday cake for my son. Tomorrow the day after he has his seventh birthday, so he wants to be celebrated here. I also happened to take my three-year annual leave, so I had plenty of time to celebrate my son's birthday. I also want to order the catering from you, I hear your cooking is good so I want to try ordering it from you. If you can also I want you to make four types of cakes up to you want a traditional or modern that is important suitable for birthday events" said the man at length. Habibah was still stunned, she was still trying to wake up from her surprise with the arrival of the man before her.

" Haloo... even dumb... You heard what I said Nur?" ask him again because he saw no response from Habibah.

" Oh yeah.why mas..?!" habibah asked, bowing his face in shame. Wake up. What are you thinking.You may be dumbfounded when he speaks at length to you, but no one listens..

" Can I sit down first, Nur? I've been standing right here, how could you." joked the man again.

" Eh.oh yes, sit down first mas.." replied Habibah let her nervously. Aih..why can I be this whole bunch anyway..? Come on. calm down..

Habibahpun went into his house to take a glass of warm tea water and a plate of cake that he made this morning for him and then serve it to his guests.

" Please mas. sorry.there is nothing just this.." said Habibah slowly.

" Thank you Nur. don't bother, I'm not here to be treated but want to thank you for your work." replied the guest.

" E.m.. What job is it..?" asked Habibah innocently.

" Abaghfirullah Nur... means you really did not listen to what I said earlier so long I spoke nur..?! And then I was talking to who Nur was..? Yes aampuuunn..!" the man almost cried out loud because he could not believe what he had just heard. The woman sitting in front of him didn't hear a single shred of what she said earlier about her son's birthday.

" Yes.sorry mas.. earlier I did not hear at all... can be repeated no..?" Habibah bowed his face in order to endure the shame.

" Okay, because I'm a good person, I repeat it's okay." she replied with a smile that expands, and, actually he was very anxious about this woman in front of him but he couldn't do anything to her.

Finally all the talks were repeated from the beginning and they discussed about the price and others. An hour later, all was discussed and the man resigned because the time was no longer morning. Soon enter the prayer time Dzuhur. Habibahpun immediately cleansed himself and prepared to perform the Dzuhur prayer. After the prayer, Habibahpun had lunch with Zain and his mother.

" What the hell is it. You don't usually want to talk just hesitating so..?" ask mother.

" Ehm. that was there mas Pur here to order birthday cakes and order cakes for guests and catering. The show is tomorrow after tomorrow, mom can help Bibah ma'am?" habibah asked his mother.

" How many orders..?" ask her mother again.

" For about sixty or seventy children, but surely those children come with their parents at the second time. And overrated about twenty. And the cake he asked for four kinds of cakes for dishes." Habibah explained.

" Well, there will be Dona. If there is still less energy later let mama call Laily to come help." said his mother.

They continued the discussion after lunch and Zain had taken a nap. Habibah records everything that is needed and she makes a shopping list because in the afternoon she will be shopping for the necessary ingredients tomorrow.

At night Habibah difficult to close his eyes, he was very restless until the force flipped his body on the bed. He kept thinking about Purnomo's return and his meeting this time. And he did not understand what had happened to him, even though he had not seen Purnomo for a long time, but his heartbeat still beat very fast if he met the man. Habibah was very afraid to face her own feelings. He realized too many mistakes he had done to the "magic" man. Well.to him Purnomo is a poor man. He recalled the letters he had read back then, letters that had never been delivered to him. The letters are only silent witnesses of Purnomo's feelings and sacrifices to please him. And now the man has returned only temporarily, but that is enough to make his heart restless. Should I apologize to him? But if he asks me what's sorry for, then what should I say? There's no way that I should say that I've read some of those letters, right...? Then how should I make my heart calm?

Habibah thought hard about what he had to do to face Purnomo. It did not feel like he finally fell asleep in the anxiety of his heart when the clock had shown at two in the morning.

On the other hand, Purnomo was thinking about Habibah. He really did not expect that he would be able to meet that woman while she was taking this annual leave. Previously he had never taken his annual leave at all, he took this annual leave because Nur Laily, the only daughter of his puppet was whining to be made a birthday event in the village with his grandmother and grandfather. For the sake of fulfilling his daughter's request, that's what brought him here in his hometown. But who would have thought if the request of his daughter was the one who reunited himself with Habibah.

Purnomo touched his chest, he felt the pounding of his chest was still the same as before when he was a virgin. And it turned out that he couldn't get those feelings out of his heart even though they had been separated for years. Let alone to eliminate it, to reduce the level of "feel" even then he did not succeed. Purnomo patted his chest gently, which continued to pound hard every time he remembered Habibah.

Astaghfirullah hal'adziim's.. What have I done? She's someone else's wife, I can't be like this. Oh Allah... How can I be like this? What should I do with this feeling? Why does it have to be like this anyway..!? Why do we have to meet again if things stay like this? She belongs to someone else and has her own life, so what am I doing now? Whatever the reason, none of this is true..

No one knows if Habibah has become a single parent. Only Habibah's family knows it, that's why everyone thinks that Habibah is still the wife of someone. Similarly with Purnomo, because his ignorance has made his heart run aground. He thinks that his feelings are wrong, wrong because he still loves a woman who has belonged to someone. And of course it makes him very tormented, tormented because of his own feelings that have been considered a sin.

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how tormented it is to endure such a deep feeling😭😭