The Mafia Bride
Chapter 105: Trauma

This night was quiet, different from the night before. Helion had slept well with Kenzi. Siena herself could not close her eyes. What he felt at this moment was a feeling of silence, I don't know what he thought.

Siena stood pensively on the balcony of the room while listening to the music of the old song.

Goodbye - Air Supply

I can see the pain living in your eyes.

And I know how hard you try

you desire to have so much more

I can feel your heart and I sympathize

And I' ll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life

Siena looked straight ahead with a blank look. There was the sound of their laughter that had stopped in their lives in the past. One by one they leave him. Hana, Karta's grandfather, Alya, Hardi's grandfather, the one Siena loved and cared for. Never before had he felt the silence and emptiness that seemed to strangle him.

The departure of a loved one leaves the same hurt and painful memories. Siena took a deep breath again, she closed her eyes pervading every verse of the song with all the silent feeling she felt.

I don't want to let you down

I don't want to lead you on

I don't want to hold you back

From where you might belong.

To be honest, there is a fear of losing again. Seeing them go away one by one is heartbreaking. A single tear was dripping in the corner of his closed net. Without any desire to wipe away those tears.

"Queen's."

Siena immediately opened her eyes and looked at the face her husband had stood behind and hugged her waist tightly

"Darling.are you bothered by the sound of the music?" siena asked, staring at Kenzi's face.

"Queen, what are you thinking?" Kenzi asked back and ignored Siena's question.

The woman smiled with a straight look ahead. "Nothing" said Siena, holding her hand tightly around Kenzi's hand on her waist.

"Queen, if you're thinking hard, I get very worried. Everything's gonna be okay."

Siena twisted her body hugging Kenzi tightly and buried her face in Kenzi's chest. "I know."

"You are not alone, there is me. There is our son. We can get through this by embracing them all." Kenzi kissed the top of Siena's head long enough.

"I know." Siena nodded her head.

Silent! no words were spoken from their lips. The two were swept away in the music that Siena was playing. Siena closed her eyes in Kenzi's arms. The night angib blows through the pore all the way to the bone, making them tighten their arms.

"I want, forever like this," said Siena quietly.

"Sure Queen." Kenzi dyed the top of Siena's head at a glance.

While Kenzi is away with Yu, the others are not allowed to come along to keep his wife's child at home. If anything happens there, it's enough for Kenzi to take the risk. He would never harm the little family he was trying to protect.

"Queen, we're sleeping." Kenzi let go of his embrace.

Siena nodded her head looking at Kenzi. "Yes." Yeah." Kenzi grabbed Siena by the shoulder and walked into the room.

***

Siena stood at the door watching Kenzi lifting Helion's body and turning, occasionally laughing as her son laughed, drooling over Kenzi's face. Siena who leaned her shoulders in front of the room door let out a small laugh at their togetherness.

"Oh my God, don't take them from me anymore." Siena.

Back Siena chuckled little looking at the two of them, the typical sound of laughing Kenzi and Helion. Suddenly it felt scary in Siena's ears. With reflex he ran up to them and pulled Kenzi's arm. "Stop!" cry Siena.

Kenzi stopped laughing and lowered Helion's body staring at Siena's face clearly looking terrified. "Queen?"

"Give me my son!" Siena took the Helion from Kenzi's lap and held it.

"Queen, what's wrong?" Kenzi circulated a glance towards the room window. Then he looked at Siena who was hugging Helion tightly in her lap. "What's wrong?" ask Kenzi again. Siena ignored Kenzi's question. He immediately walked out of the room carrying Helion. Kenzi fused his eyebrows not understanding with Siena's attitude which arrived in fear.

"Queen, what's wrong with you?" said slowly. Then he followed Siena and Helion.

Kenzi's steps came to a halt in front of Surya's slightly open room door. He saw Siena holding Helion sitting on the edge of the bed with Surya. Kenzi's hand was about to open the door, but his intention was to undo it. Kenzi chose silence listening to what Siena was afraid of. He could hear clearly from behind the door of Surya's room.

Surya stood up, he pulled up the chair and sat down opposite Siena. "You know what makes you this scared, baby."

Siena took a deep breath, she kissed the top of Helion's head many times. "I'm afraid Pa.I'm afraid of what's going on with Kenzi or my son."

"Hey, where's Papa's once tough kid?" surya's gaze gently looked at Siena.

Siena raised her face to look at Surya, "but this is different, Pa.."

"When you accept Kenzi as your full husband, it means you're ready for the consequences you'll receive no matter what happens. Worst thing though and Papa knows, it's not as easy as we talk. But do you want to master your fear? and that'll keep Kenzi out of focus." Surya explained at length. It's not that he doesn't understand the fear of a wife and mother. But only in that way did Surya strengthen each other.

Siena is not a little girl anymore, she is a mother. Taking responsibility in a family. Bonding in a marriage is not just uniting two physical, not just love each other. But each other complements each other, although her marriage with Hana ran aground in the middle of the road does not mean, the only daughter must experience the same thing just because of a selfishness.

"I'm sorry, Pa." Siena touched Surya's hand. "Thank you, Papa reminded me. I shouldn't have given my husband any discomfort." Siena smiled again.

"There's no need for you to apologize or thank Papa. That's a sign that you're getting older, you're quick to notice your mind's confusion."

Siena nodded her head, "yes Pa.."

Surya took Helion from Siena's lap, "meet your husband."

Siena nodded her head, stood up and bowed her head kissing Helion at a glance. He stood up again and walked out of the room. Siena was glued in front of the room door staring at Kenzi's face that was smiling widely at her. Siena hugged Kenzi tightly.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Siena dipped her face in Kenzi's chest.

Kenzi just smiled rubbing Siena's back to calm down. His gaze was straight towards Surya who was watching them and nodded his head.

"I'm so lucky to have you all" Kenzi said in his heart.