Crazy Love of the Actor
Section 37: Awkward

After the thrilling meeting, Syila was a bit anxious to go outside on her own, she always waited for Andi if she wanted to go anywhere, even though she did not tell Andi what happened exactly, she said, that Aldo the Fan was living on the same floor, it felt like if he said this was a coincidence, it felt too naive.

“Syil why the hell is now spoiled?”

“Why? don't like?” Syila sulks, she still does not want to open to Andi for fear of Andi getting angry and tell him not to stay in the apartment again until it is safe.

“Dih your nape? again yes?”

“Au.”

They were on the set, Izraa's tadjuekan still adorned Syila's day, the abandonment never goes away, Syila began to forget because of the focus of writing and in case Aldo passes by, what Syila was afraid of was that Aldo would knock on the door of his apartment because he saw Syila enter his original unit, not on the ninth floor.

“Izraa take tuh, focus, it's a difficult scene, don't get less, kasian if he repeats.” Andi reminded.

Syila focused on seeing Izraa acting, the man was really cold, even she never greeted Syila at all, like a stranger.

The short-lived relationship turned out to be quite unsettling.

“Syila how, is it good yet?” Bang Aryo asked.

“Good, just the last part less than the gaze Bang, but if you think ok, I will not protest.”

“Sama Syil, I feel Izraa lately is a bit weak in eye contact, as if she can't feel what should be channeled through the view, this is acting without dialogue, Izraa said, actually one of izraa's acting powers is in the eyes, but somehow, she's getting weak now.”

“Do not ask me why yes Bang, I also do not know.” Rather than Syila being asked he answered first, that he did not know.

“Yaudah eat first deh, I think make the last scene, need to be repeated what engga.” Bang Aryo left Syila, waiting for her food in love, she would type first a little, Izraa passed by beside her, Syila saw Izraa, Izraa just glanced and left.

[He why the hell? it is strange, it always makes people confused.] Syila said in her heart.

“Syil, Sister is busy again huh?” Hanum sat down beside Syila and asked, their rice box is already in hand.

“Yes, he has a lot of observation about cataract surgery, he said he wants cataract surgery but the patient's age is very twilight, so there are some things to note.” Although Syila has not been home for two weeks, she knows the family information from the family chat group, it is appropriate that lately Kak Alzam is difficult to contact.

“Oh gitu.” Hanum wants to understand.

“Emang why the hell, again fight huh? why not ask yourself?” Syila asked.

“Not fighting anymore, just misunderstanding aja.”

“Mistake?” Syila is curious, because she thinks Mr. Alzam the person who sees the most problems from various angles, never judges people and judges people at will.

“Iya, so a few days ago I did not chat him, do not tell you when finished filming, I mean anyway, I waited for him to make my chat first, I did not chat first, I do not want to disturb his work, so I wait for him to chat me, uh but he did not chat me until malem, well, this is the problem, fitting malem, pas malem, temen I have a coffee at the cafe, it's the position at eleven o'clock at night, women really, yes I want to, because I am also bosen at home.”

“Trus?” Syila.

“Trus yaudah, I was hanging out ama temen me it was until the unit hour, back home, and he said it turns out Kak Alzam nyariin me, phone to the house, I wonder why he did not phone to my HP, right I check, it turns out my HP is lowbett, yaudah he rampaged lah.”

“Ngamuk why?”

“Yes it's a misunderstanding, I suspect it's a deliberate filming of HP matainin so it can walk for people, because fitting he calls home because of worry, mbak at home says I'm not there, because, abis was filming the road, so she was suspicious, I went the same guy deh.”

“Hah? Seriously? How is my brother stupid anyway?” Syila.

“Yes that was the first time Sister was jealous, it turned out funny, but scary, she did not ask me anything, suddenly say, I realize she cuekin me, I, because when I asked her to call home and I explained where she was, she didn't believe me, she just said, yeah, okay, hmm, so she turned her phone off. For now my phone is not lifted, so I ask you, is he busy?”

“If you are busy anyway, it is very busy him, but the time is not able to contact you at all, that he sulks anyway. Just like stupid, kok sulking without finding out first the problem.”

“Lu think love is that simple?”

“Lah why is made complicated with unclear assumptions, if you feel doubtful, ask, abis it if still suspicious, find out more deeply, do not even say, cuek is not clear that, kayak little boy.”

“Syil, he said, love can make even smart people stupid, because love can put forward emotions first, because the feeling of love itself is an overflow of emotions.”

“Because at that time he was angry Syil, I'm a valuable girl for him, maybe at that time he worked, then remember there has been no news from me and began to worry, maybe, his worry was because he loved me, he then tried to connect me, but I was worried instead was cool hanging out, so he was angry because his worry felt played, finally got his pride, so he was angry, because his gut thought made him assume a no-no.

As far as I know, if a man has got his pride, he will be lazy to face the perpetrator who lowers his self-esteem.”

“Jeez, my sister is that? I don't know.”

“It is so right?”

“Trus now you want to do?”

“Most later to the house, ask for help mami, because if you persuade yourself he will always avoid, I will deketin what can most control his anger, so far the most mami can nolong.”

“Wah elu benefitsin affection my mother dong.”

“Yes that way, already ah, want to sleep first, still break another hour and a half.” Hanum cleaned the rice box and rushed to the car whose center was made flat so that Hanum could sleep comfortably in the car.

Self-worth? What Izraa and Syila were also feeling was the same problem, what Izraa was feeling was annoyed that Syila was invited to the house that she promised never to come again that, finally Izraa had to go there, Izraa had to go, hence Izraa was upset because she felt it was Shilalah that caused her to break her promise, breaking the promise was part of the tarnish of self-esteem right?

Syila thought like that, when that was not what made Izraa angry, it was Shilalah who made Izraa feel like there was no price after everything she did, including telling Izraa her illness, even her parents don't know.

Elsewhere Izraa is making up for her next take.

“Bang, how come lately dull face, sleep less huh?” Ask a makeup artist, she is quite a professional woman in her field, beautiful, young and has expertise.

“Ngak.” Izraa answered briefly.

“Yesterday I'm not jogging with Syila?” the person asked again, she asked while still making up Izraa's face.

“Ngot coming.” Izraa still answered briefly.

“I was also surprised to meet Kak Syila in the city park, she was jogging, both the same ..” The artist's makeup held back on her words, deliberately so that Izraa was curious.

“Yes, she does love jogging.” Izraa didn't talk about this woman.

“Sorry yes Bang, just want an infoin only, yesterday Kak Syila jogging same male, both aja.”

“Yes, that's Andi, her Manager, her cousin as well.” Izraa replied that this woman should be quiet.

“Not, if Bang Andi mah I know Bang, this is another man, his body is strapping, handsome again, he again walk together Sis Syila in the park jogging.”

Izraa was silent to hear that, when this woman was lying, for what? maybe he likes to gossip, but to slander people it feels too far, Izraa is getting annoyed at thinking it's Kevin.

Since Izraa did not reply to her words, the woman ended up not continuing anymore.

After finishing the makeup, Izraa was about to come out, but before that she turned around and said something to the woman who had dressed her up.

“Don't tell anyone what you saw that, I won't let you go until there's some skewed gossip about my lover.” The woman was shocked by Izraa's words, as saying it with a cold face, an aura of cruelty instantly appeared on Izraa's face, the woman simply nodded in fear.

What the woman said was what she saw, right what she saw was when Aldo greeted Syila and Andi was still parking his car, after which the fairy lady came to her own conclusion, by creating rumors Syila may be having an affair, but not long after Andi came and they separated, it was not seen by the Perias.

Assumptions do make many relationships run aground, but rather than blaming assumptions, it is better to blame yourself, which is more comfortable guessing than asking.

Because sometimes, assuming that there is still a little gap for suspicion is wrong, if asked, when answered is the thing we most do not want to hear, then there is no longer a gap for denial.

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Author's Note :

In what I believe, I enjoy every feeling of pleasure, pain and pain, sometimes exhausting, but more frightening, without you. That's what I'm hard to deny.