Destiny Love Kinan (FINISHED)
050: I Used to Live a Life of Freedom

The nightmare is not over. In fact, Hamzah's guilt for Kinan is not over. He still feels guilty, even very guilty to the woman who is still stored in his heart until this moment.

Every time he closed his eyes, or fell asleep accidentally, he never felt good. Disturbed by guilt. The dream of getting married to Kinan still always appears to make him wake up with breath and sweat.

The nightmare grew as he turned to his side, there lay a woman, but instead of Kinan, she was Diana, his wife.

Now the regret is more and more, even when they decided to start a new life, Kinan's name is still imprinted.

The woman tried her best. Serving her husband as well as possible, like a wife who obeys and tries to be a wife of God.

But it was not enough to melt Hamzah, cold attitude still accepted Diana, and she just resigned.

"If that's how deep you feel for Kinan. Why did you betray him?"

Hamzah came to a realization from the daydream after hearing those words from Diana's mouth. The woman glazed over in front of her while holding her belly that was starting to enlarge.

"Don't you realize, I'm hurt as your wife. Can't you look at me just once, even you always ignore my words."

Hamzah got up from sitting down, he intended to avoid the chatter.

"You're outrageous, Mas. Now you're ignoring me again?"

Hamzah breathed out a loud breath. It was as if something urgent wanted him to take out on Diana, but everything Diana said was not wrong. She was indeed weak, she indeed did not have any feelings for Diana, not even guilt.

"Why silence, Mom? Where do you promise to start with me? You know Kinan is happy with his life now. He's even happier, than marrying you I guess."

"Enough."

Hamzah's emotions are provoked when Diana compares them to Kinan's marriage.

"Don't say much. You know what we're getting married for. Don't demand much, I'm tired."

Then Hamzah just left Diana.

"Oh my God, am I going to survive? Is this the punishment you give to your servant?"

After the exhausting event, Kinan flushed his body with a long breath. He shook his head, remembering the unexpected arrival of people as guests at his wedding.

"O Allah, do not test the servant with another love in this marriage. I weakly admit, that I will never be ready to face it."

Kinan stroked his chest, hoping that all his fears would never happen. While opening the phone, scroll the screen. He was fixated on staring at the video footage of the up-and-coming drama. The drama tells the story of a cheating husband.

Kinan subconsciously watched the video until the end, and he started pounding, there was fear, there was anxiety, he immediately turned off the video and put his phone away.

"No, it's someone else's story, not yours Kinan's."

Lately it has been rife, maybe it has been a long time ago, it's just that Kinan is not paying attention to development. That out there many women are betrayed by their husbands because of other women in their marriages.

"Ki, why are you so dumb?"

Kinan gulped, then he shifted slightly letting her husband sit next to her. "No, Mom."

Dude touched Kinan's forehead, probably checking Kinan's body temperature, anxious in case his wife got sick. "You don't have a fever."

"No, Mas. Kinan is not sick."

"Then why do you look so weak and pale. You feel unwell, exhausted?" ask Dude again. But Kinan shook his head with trembling lips, I don't know if he was suddenly sad, wanting to cry.

"Hey, why, Ki?"

Dude was stunned, he was getting anxious because it was not usual for Kinan to behave like that. "If there's a problem, you tell me, don't shut up I don't understand. You're thinking about Selina's problem?"

Kinan was just as unwilling, his tongue was cuckoo to express his feelings now.

"Don't think about it, honey. I've explained, Selina is just a part of my past."

Kinan then straightened his body, staring at the Dude with many questions he wanted to ask, still stored in his brain, not yet able to reveal.

"Actually how far along did Mas have with Selina?"

Dude's face suddenly changed, there was a confused look clearly drawn. He scratched his nape, then looked up as if looking around for something, not knowing what. Perhaps finding the right answer to silence Kinan's curiosity about his past.

"Why are you asking about that, Ki? Are you starting to doubt me?"

Certainly not because of that. But, is Kinan not entitled to know. Though he knows, the past remains the past, whatever it may be.

"Is Kinan not entitled to ask Mas if Kinan is just curious?"

Dude breathed heavily. "You asked me yesterday, Ki. My answer, it is not good to talk about this because I do not know what your opinion will be like. If you can accept, otherwise, maybe you'll get hurt."

"Why? Why is there a chance I'm hurt, Mom?"

Dude berdekham. Then he rubbed Kinan's cheek. "I lived with freedom, before I knew Reyhan in my life afterwards. Before Hana got pregnant, I lived as a free man in America, Ki. Did you understand it up to here? Or do you feel disgusted by me who is now in front of you?"

Kinan's heart was pounding, as if a bomb had exploded. But it wasn't him who urged the Dude to come clean. In fact, it was very painful to hear the Dude's explanation, so what did all of the Dude's words mean?

"What is it so far?"

Kinan still wanted to ask, as if not enough had been explained by the Dude just now.

"As far as you can imagine before. But I, never tarnish another woman, do you believe in me, Ki?"

Kinan tried to digest her husband's words.

"So, you mean? Mas with Selina used to date far enough?"

"Yes, it's best not to be clarified, Ki. I know you'll be sad."

That is the unique of women. He always finds out, takes it inside, finds out until he is satisfied, no matter if it will hurt him later.

Kinan slowly put away the hand of the Dude who was settling down next to his cheek. But as fast as lightning the Dude pulled Kinan's body then hugged him.

"Don't be angry, I've been frank with you. I hope you don't stay away from me because of that, Ki. For in my heart there is only you, now and forever."

But Selina is beautiful in face, good in posture, gentle in speech, and she also looks smart as if she has no blemish. Kinan measured on her, who was she? Isn't it impossible that Dude will look at Selina again like before?

"Maybe many men out there are brash, disrespectful to the feelings of women who sincerely love him, betray and act foolishly. But, I don't want to be like that, Ki. I want to be a good man for you."

Kinan weakened, his hands began to grab onto Dude's body and tighten the embrace. She couldn't possibly be angry and shunned her husband because of a story in the past.

"I'm sorry Kinan, Mom."

Dude shakes. "It's not your fault, honey. I understand your feelings."

...Readers understand that the Dude never tarnishes? to desecrate here means not to snatch her virginity huh....

...Hopefully entertained. Thank you 💛 ...