Destiny Love Kinan (FINISHED)
062: A Question & Conditions

"Everybody has a past. Including me, and I also believe Hana has a past. For me the past cannot be forgotten, but it can be a lesson. Life spins like a wheel. Not always below, not above. Life is moving, up and down. So, I hope Hana is not hard to think about the past problems. I accept Hana's past, whatever it is."

A while ago. Before Bastian came along with his pack. Kinan went into Hana's room. As he promised the Dude, Kinan attempted to talk to Hana.

"Hana, can I come in?" Kinan knocked on Hana's room door.

Hana was riled up by herself, she was confused about what to do, soon a good man will come to propose to her. And Hana decided to reject the proposal. But, for some reason Hana is still hesitating, there is a desire that she herself does not know where it leads.

"Just in, Ms. Kinan," said Hana from the inside.

Kinan came in. "What meda?" tanyanya then sat beside Haja, on the edge of the bed.

"No, just be alone." Hana smiled stiffly.

"Don't be alone, better both. Same with me, is it okay?" kinan said, seducing. That's the trick, hoping Hana lets it go.

"Yes, Mother. Thanks for accompanying Hana."

Kinan's first steps went well. In Kinan's heart continued to pray, hoping to be given ease when talking to Hana. Because Kinan knew, Hana was a rather difficult person to approach.

"Hana, how does she feel? I mean, Ma'am, about this proposal. Has Hana decided whether or not to accept the man's proposal?" ask Kinan.

Kinan's question made Hana seem unable to hold herself back anymore, keeping the burden on her own chest.

"Did Mas Dude tell Mbak Kinan?"

"What's the story about, Han?"

"About Hana who decided not to get married." Hana answered him while trembling, she played the tip of her nails, nervous.

Kinan smiled. "Kinan knows, Hana must be confused by what Hana has to decide. If Hana's sure, Hana's not feeling anxious right now."

Hana looked at Kinan with teary eyes. "Hana doesn't feel worthy of marriage, Ma'am. Hana's too dirty."

"Dirty? Dear Hana, Kinan greatly admired Hana. Honest from the heart of Kinan. Hana, according to Kinan Hana is a tough, strong, and kind woman. Why does Hana feel dirty? Kinan is also unclean, a lot of sins. But, do we not deserve to be happy?"

Hana looked down again. Kinan then clasped Hana's palm. "Hana's hands are cold. Is this really that hard?"

Reyhan's biological mother nodded. "Very, Ma'am."

"But, did Hana feel that the man who was going to propose to Hana was a good person?"

Hana looked at Kinan again, then nodded. "He's good, he loves Reyhan. He didn't stay away from Reyhan when he found out that Reyhan's mother was depressed."

"Then, Hana should not reject such a good man. He may have been the answer to Reyhan's prayers, as well as those of Hana. God wants Hannah to be happy too."

"But Hana is happy even though she is not married" replied Hana, but Kinan saw doubt in the woman's eyes.

"Relatedly? Hana, Mas Dude, Reyhan, Ms. Fatimah, Mr. Rahman. They all want someone to take care of Hana. Especially if there are good men who can love Hana sincerely."

Hana's eyes showed more hesitation. Any doubts about his decision, or any doubts about the man?

"Hana was afraid, the events in Hana's past repeated again, Ma'am."

Hana just she listened to Kinan's words.

"Have Istikharah prayed?"

"Already, Ma'am." Hana nodded.

"Then is there a little in Hana's heart, the desire to accept the man's proposal?"

Hana did not answer. But Kinan felt Hana had that desire.

"Hana, I hope, don't decide something that Hana isn't sure about yet, that's the best. Perhaps, what Hana doubted, that Hana feared, was just a mere fret. Those were from the devil, Han."

Hana breathed a heavy sigh.

"Decide with a calm heart. God willing Kinan was sure, Hana would get the best answer. Follow Hana's heart, not out of fear let alone sheer worry."

...***...

The answer Bastian gave was the same as what Kinan had said to Hana earlier.

Now, he is expected as far as choice. Between refusing or accepting Bastian's proposal.

The man, smiled sincerely. Gently rubbed Reyhan's head. Saying good, not easily offended. Hana feels Bastian is simple, tawadhu, and wise.

Everything in the room was waiting, after Bastian answered Hana's question, what would Hana say again.

"How's Nak Hana? Is there anything you want to ask Nak Bastian?" ask Pakde Hasan as the guardian of Bastian. "Don't hesitate to ask anything, so that the heart is more certain."

Reyhan is also next to Hana. His son has since held his mother's hand. From the beginning he decided it was up to his mother, whether she accepted it or not. Reyhan was already feeling happy, with Hana's situation being very good now. But, if you may ask, Rey does want Hana married to her teacher. Because according to Reyhan, Bastian is a good person.

"There's one more question. But it's like a condition, is it okay?" hana told Bastian.

"Can, please." Bastian without hesitation let Hana ask anything. A condition? If he could fulfill it, then Bastian did not mind at all.

"good. If Hana asks. Was there ever a desire in my heart to polygamy, would I say yes, or no?"

"No." Bastian answered quickly and with confidence.

"Why? Isn't that allowed?" ask Hana again.

"Indeed polygamy is allowed, for those who are able to. While I'm not capable, I'm sure I can't."

Everyone there smiled at Hana's question and Bastian's answer.

"Okay, then. If Hana makes the conditions. Hana doesn't want to be polygamous, is Mas Bas capable?"

"God willing. I don't intend to do polygamy, Hana. One, nothing yet. Even if I am married, my responsibility is great to educate my partner. It's hard to do polygamy, so I'm agreeing to that, if Hana's filing the condition of not wanting to be polygamous."

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