Destiny Love Kinan (FINISHED)
07: Rumbling in the Heart of Kinan

...Destiny is unique. When you hope and often your hope does not come. But when you stop hoping, fate brings that hope back. ~Kinan...

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Kinan had already decided to forget his feelings for Dude Danuarta. The father of the patient he had to take care of at this time in a luxurious house in Jakarta.

"Kinan Suster." Rey came to greet Kinan who was sitting on the long sofa of the living room. A faint smile appeared on Kinan's lips. Rey looks a lot fresher now.

"Jeroyal, Rey. How are you?" kinan is back.

Rey's astounded. "Wa'alaikumsalaam's chat. Sorry Rey forgot the greeting. Good news Rey, how's Sister doing?"

Kinan smiled. "Alhamdulillah, fine. Rey looks very healthy now. Thank goodness the sister was so happy to see it."

"Alhamdulillah, Sister. Oiya, sister would like to see Mama Rey?"

Deg.

Kinan was not just surprised. Rey's words hit her hard. "Mama Rey is here?"

"Yes Sister. It's in the room, Mama's not well anymore" Rey replied. "Go to Mom's room. Mama was awake. Papa's out for a while" the boy added. Kinan was still dumbfounded by Rey's invitation. Should he refuse that invitation? But why did Kinan feel a little disappointed. Ah forget Kinan, you've decided, haven't you? You decided to forget your feelings for the Dude.

"Well," nods Kinan.

Rey takes Kinan to her mother's room. At that moment Kinan was nervous and awkward. It turns out that Dude still has a wife. Apparently the rumor that says Rey's biological mother died is not true. Thankfully, Inner Kinan was relieved that Rey still had a mother. Although it makes him even more determined to throw away all his admiration for the Dude, papa of Rey.

"Mama." Rey opened the door to her mother's room.  It looks like a woman is sitting while staring blankly at the plain wall of the room.

Kinan felt a bit strange. The woman's gaze was completely empty. Could it be because Rey said she was sick?

"Suster, it's Mama Rey."

Rey rubbed the back of the hand of the woman who just silently did not respond. His face was a bit pale and thin. Even so Kinan felt that the woman was still very young presumably. It's just that he looks older because he may have a disease or other reasons.

"Mrs. Introduce me Kinan." Kinan tried as naturally as possible to greet the woman. But there was absolutely no response. Even the woman did not look towards Kinan or Rey.

Rey bowed. "Mama Rey's sick, Sister."

Rey's tone sounded sad. "What's the pain, Rey?"

"Rey doesn't know, Sister. But Papa said that was the reason why Rey had only been living with Papa. Because Mama Rey has to undergo treatment. Just Rey asked Mama to be treated at home, so Rey can help take care of Mama," said Raihan.

Apparently so. It was only fitting that the woman had been silent since. Seeing that Kinan was feeling pity, it seemed like Rey's mama was very depressed once. Could he have a psychological disorder?

"May Mama Rey get well soon. Then Rey let Mama Rey rest first. Don't bother me" Kinan said.

Rey nodded. "Yes, Sister."

Both of them came out of the room.

"Rey's been taking medicine?" ask Kinan.

Rey nodded with a sad face. "Rey doesn't want to take medicine, Sister. Rey is well" replied the boy.

"Rey should keep drinking huh. That's a vitamin for Rey. The nurse's job is to make sure Rey takes the medicine well and on time. If Rey doesn't want to take medicine, what nurse's job is dong?" kinan's smile on Rey.

At first Rey looks sad, but seeing Kinan's smile makes Rey smile again. "Yes, Rey drank."

When Kinan was watching Rey take her medicine. The voice from within sounded.

"Assalamualaik."

"Wa'alaikumsalaam," Kinan and Rey replied simultaneously.

"Eh Sister Kinan has arrived" said Dude, who had just returned from his office.

"Mas Dude's. Yes," Kinan replied awkwardly.

Dude smile. Kinan was immediately bowed. Until now Kinan was still amazed by the man's smile, why always managed to make his heart rhythm change, the rhythm became faster, the sound was a bit loud than normal.

"Rey's been taking drugs? Well, actually, I said Sister. If the same Sister must be Rey would take medicine, thanks to Sister Kinan," added Dude happy. "Thank you, Sister."

Kinan nodded thinly. "Yes, you're welcome, Mas."

Dude noticed Kinan who had been continuously bowed. He was always amazed by Kinan's attitude, why every time he looked down like he did not want to meet him face to face. Is he ugly? Impossible, the Inner Dude who felt quite confident of himself was handsome from birth.

"Suster hasn't been made to drink yet? Let me get ya."

Kinan. "Don't, Mas. Bother me, I'm not thirsty."

"No bother, really. Should have been made to drink. Yeah, isn't Rey?"

Rey nodded. "True Papa, Sister. Let Rey aja the mintain mbaknya make a drink yes. For a moment" said the boy, walking straight to the kitchen.

Dude was sitting in a chair not far from Kinan. At that time Kinan was still bowed.

"Hm, Sister Kinan what about the application event, is it going well?" tanya Dude opened the chat. Dude is not too fond of the quiet atmosphere without chatter, it feels awkward and uncomfortable.

Kinan raised his face, but not too long stared at the Dude. "Alhamdulillah."

Dude smiled knot. "Thank God, congratulations, yes, Sister."

"Yes, Mas. Thank you," Kinan replied somewhat sounding listless. But, even though he has answered Hamzah's proposal, and the two have both agreed to take care of each other until the wedding day arrives.

Dude's smile continued to be engraved, he was seen to be happy with Kinan's choice. Although in fact, in Kinan's heart he seemed to have a little desire to express his joy to Dude. But, he realized, that should not happen, because the Dude is married.

'Astaghfirullah, forgive the servant of Allah.'

Kinan smiled doubtfully.

That happened last night, when Hamzah's doctor and his family came.

Kinan bowed while holding his chest that continuously rumbled. "O Allah, please strengthen the heart of the servant. Make the servant confident in the choice of the servant. Please help this weak servant" he said slowly.

"Ki, how? You have prepared the answer from Hamzah's doctor's application, right? In front, Hamzah's doctor came with his extended family, this time with his uncle and aunt. Are you sure of your answer?" ask Halimah.

Kinan looked at his mother's clear eyes, the woman's skin had already begun to wrinkle because she was no longer young. That warm smile, stored hope that contained happiness for him, and Kinan deeply understood his mother's feelings. Kinan hoped that what he decided could bring happiness to his mother. Most importantly, Kinan hoped that God would respect his choice.

"God willing, Kinan is ready, ma'am. And inshaAllah Kinan is convinced by Kinan's answer," he told Halimah followed by his mother's tight embrace while rubbing her weak son's back. "Thank God, may this be the best option, yes, Ki. I just want you to be happy."

Be happy? Kinan is more concerned with the happiness of his mother, than the happiness of him personally.

"Yes, Mom." Kinan just nodded, every mother would want her child to be happy, Kinan thought. His duties as a child, also no different, want to try to make his mother happy, at least not troublesome, that's all.

Kinan came out of the room accompanied by Halimah to the living room to see Hamzah's doctor and his family. His heart pounded, staring at the face of the man who was honestly shady when looked at. A simple appearance, a sincere smile, and an understated personality were on the man named Hamzah.

"Allah, now we are met by God in good health, and God is blessed, amiin." Mr. Asnawi as Hamzah's biological parents began to open the chat.

Everyone looks solemn listening to the greetings from Hamzah's family, while Kinan is just bowed next to his devoted mother rubbing the back of his hand, hoping that Kinan's tension will be slightly reduced.

"So, has Ananda Kinan prepared an answer to ananda Hamzah's proposal some time ago?" ask Hamzah's uncle Farhan.

"God willing," Kinan replied with mixed feelings, between nervousness and tension.

Hamzah let out a long sigh, he was the same, looked nervous and hoped, hopefully Kinan's answer is something of a relief.

"So, how is Kinan, did you accept Nak Hamzah's proposal?" ask Halimah to her daughter. "If I as Kinan's mother only support and pray for my child's choice," she said with a faint smile.

Kinan took a deep breath before saying what he had already decided in response.

"Bismillah, by the permission of Allah, and by the expectation of His pleasure. God willing, I accepted Hamzah's doctor's application."

Kinan's words gave goosebumps to everything that was there. They are witnesses to the decision that Kinan gave. And so did Halimah, she was very grateful. Finally Kinan, his only daughter received a proposal of a godly man named Hamzah.

That was how it ended up, Kinan received Hamzah's doctor's application and now he sits in front of a man who had honestly amazed him even until now. The man named Dude who honestly stole Kinan's attention from the first time he met.

"May all be well, yes, Sister. Don't forget to invite me and Rey, yeah. If the sister's having a wedding."

The Dude's words broke Kinan's daydream. Unconsciously the corner of his eyes felt sore. Kinan immediately dispelled the thoughts he should not have thought of, as well as the feelings he should not have felt.

"Aamiin," Kinan replied with a sigh. Why is he so disappointed.

"This is the drink, sir." Dude's housekeeper brought a cup of tea for Kinan.

"Thank you, ma'am," replied the Dude. "At Sister's drink" the Dude told Kinan.

"Thank you," Kinan replied taking the cup and sipping the contents a little.

Rey came running. Kinan and Dude were shocked because the boy was sobbing.

"Rey, what's wrong with you?" ask Dude. Kinan was astonished. "Yes, how did Rey cry?" added Kinan.

"Mommy angry. Mama ngusir Rey, Pa."

Sontak Dude rounded his eyes. "Huh? Rey wait here yeah, let Papa see Mama."

"Rey wants to see Mama too, Pa!" firmly the boy. "Rey's afraid of Mama why-why."

Kinan was confused as to what to do. She herself did not understand Rey's condition now. "Rey same sister behind ya. Let Papa Rey first see the condition of Mama Rey," said Kinan gave an idea.

"Yes, Rey and Sister Kinan followed. Let Papa go." The dude agreed. Rey agrees too. Kinan walks near Rey while Dude rushes into the mother's room of her son.

"Hana." Dude walked in and was surprised to see Hana screaming hysterically while holding her head. "Go! Go everything!" shouting Hana.

Kinan was shocked to see the condition of Rey's mother now. Rey cried loudly while calling her mother. "Mama! Don't do it, Ma. This is Rey Mama's son!"

"You're not my son! You go!" yelled the woman. Rey was getting sadder, she was hardening her cries. Kinan tried to hold Rey and calm the boy down. "Rey be patient, don't cry" said Kinan.

Dude hugged Hana who looked frightened. The hug was tight. Even Kinan saw the Dude peeking at the woman's forehead over and over again. At that moment Kinan's feelings were very painful, he also felt very outrageous. Though it was Dude's wife, it was only natural that Dude kissed the woman. Kinan was very ignorant of himself, his inner self despite feeling pain.

"Calm Hana. It's me, look at me here, it's not like this, Hana." Dude still continues to hug Hana.

"Hana, look at me. Do you remember who I am?"

The woman looked at Dude's eyes closely. A few moments later he was crying again. "Remember" the woman replied quietly.

"Remember?"

Hana nodded again. "Yes." Yeah."

Dude hugged Hana again and then kissed the top of her head. "Yes, and Rey is your son, Hana. Don't do this" said Dude.

"He's my son?" ask Hana in a daze.

Rey is still crying. Kinan did not know what to do now. "Mama. This is Rey, Mama's son."

Dude rubbed his face and asked Rey to come over to him. Rey arrives and hugs Dude and Hana.

"Mama."

Raihana is Rey's real mother. Dude and Rey also love Hana very much. They hugged each other while crying. Kinan slowly retreated, moved away and out of the room.

I don't know when she shed tears. Her chest feels tight. Why is he like this?  Kinan was feeling sick. Kinan felt wrong to like the man. Dude did love his wife, Kinan thought.

"Astaghfirullah." Kinan trembled. What he had just seen was dramatic. She had no idea Rey's mother's condition was so miserable like that.

"Astaghfirullah's. O God," said Kinan still digesting what he had just seen.

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