Destiny Love Kinan (FINISHED)
053: I Have No God

Dude was worried about her brother recovering from his past trauma. He was afraid that the appearance of Bagus, the man who had destroyed his sister's life, would open the old wound again.

But it turns out that Hana is very strong now. He was fine and tried hard. His life now only focused on his son, Reyhan.

After the wedding reception Dude and Kinan. Hana, Rey, and Dude's adoptive parents return to Jogjakarta. It was there that the most comfortable place for Hana to continue living, letting Dude and Kinan build her household in Jakarta both.

"You go in first, yeah. Thank you for taking Kinan to work" Kinan said, not forgetting to crucify her husband's hand.

"Yes, coming home from work is okay, right?" sahut Dude's.

"Hm, is there any overtime work?"

"No, Ki. I have a business for a moment, afraid if you wait for me to pick up later."

"Oh that. Okay, Mas. Kinan is no problem. Ride angkut—" break Kinan, Dude shut Kinan's mouth with her index finger.

"No. You can't go home on public transport anymore, Ki. You promised me" said Dude.

Kinan chuckled softly. "Yes-yes, okay then Kinan wait for the driver's invitation."

Dude went to his office after making sure his wife was safe until work.

In the office, Dude as usual, once sitting at his desk has been presented many files that he must check one by one.

Just now Dude was about to touch those files. The sound of knocking on the door made him stop. "Lake in."

A secretary came in along with the woman who made the Dude surprised.

"Who let him in?" said Dude with little emphasis on his secretary.

"Sorry, Sir. But Miss Selina is one of the strongest candidates who will work with our company's latest project" the secretary said.

Selina just smiled lightly. Dude can't be kinked, he does not know anyone who will be his important client today. But this is Selina? Since when is she interested in business?

"Well, you can come out" the Dude ordered his secretary.

"Excuse me sir."

Finally now only Selina and Dude are in the room. "Please sit down" said the Dude.

Selina sat down gracefully. He had not stopped smiling since earlier at the man in front of him now.

"So since when have you been interested in business?" asked Dude, he did not want to pay too much attention to Selina's face, Dude chose to take care of the files on his desk.

"Is it polite to talk to a client, but you don't stare at that client?" selina.

Dude raised his face. "I don't necessarily accept you being my business partner or client, Miss." The affirmation from the Dude made Selina laugh a little.

"Yes, but are you sure you're going to waste the chance of getting a Royal client like me?"

"My clients are all Royal and loyal, so you don't have to be too kind."

Again the affirmation of the Dude did not make Selina retreat, even more make Selina interested.

"Miss you, Dude. I miss you so bad."

Dude put down his pen while exhaling a heavy breath. "Enough, Selina. I'm not accepting a client like you. Please come out because I'm still busy."

"But why?? Is it because you're married? We can still have a relationship. What difference? You can get in touch with me without being caught by your wife, right?"

Dude shakes. He was not surprised to see the secular thought of Selina, because she was the same, having such free and plural thinking.

"No. Don't equate your view with my view of Cell. I love my wife and take her seriously. So, the free thing you're doing here, it's not gonna work."

Selina started to tear up. Then he handed over the phone containing his photos first along with the Dude. "What if I gave this picture to your wife, would she still want to be with you, Dude?"

Dude rounded his eyes, he did not expect that Selina would do that to him.

"Why did you do this to me Selina? Did I harm you? Events that have passed will not be endless if you continue to reveal. I've had a new life with the woman I love, I hope you can also find a better person, Cell."

"No! Because I love you! Only you!"

"You've changed, Dude. You're not as I know you. Wh why? Because I don't believe in God, you have ignored me for ten years. You forgot me, totally forgot, Dude! What wrong!"

"Enough, Cells. I told you you weren't wrong. Only our relationship cannot continue, everything is over. Try to accept all of this reality. Don't do this, Cell. It's just gonna torture you."

Selina cried while holding back her anger. He was also ashamed to beg for love on the Dude, but his heart could not turn away from the man. And now he's been rejected. What else could he do?

"Please get out, I know you're not interested in business. There's no need to do things that will just waste your time, Selina."

Even though he felt pain with all the Dude's words. But there was nothing more he could do, until he chose to leave.

As Selina exits her study, Dude tells her co-workers to see if Selina comes along with her usual driver, Bagus.

"God. Why is he so close. If Kinan saw the photo, would Kinan be angry? But, I've been honest with Kinan about my free past. Is Kinan still going to stay angry?"

Selina did not go home right away, she chose to walk to find a place where she could cry. But as far as his eyes could see he did not find a quiet place, all the places were filled with the frenzy of vehicles and then the people with his activities.

Only when his eyes were fixed on a building, the place was quiet, it was only nine o'clock exactly.

Selina walked towards the building, then she walked in and sat down in her spacious courtyard. He saw Good was there, in it doing things that were not foreign, but also not familiar in his vision. It looks good to be performing prayers.

"What worship is he? Not that the Muslim worship time is divided into five, and this is not the time for Muslims to worship, right?" Selina muttered to herself while paying attention to Bagus who seemed to be very serious about performing the worship.

Instead of being curious, Selina decided to walk closer to Good. Just when Good finished his worship. Selina made Bagus surprised by sitting in front of her.

"What are you doing, you're worshiping?" ask Selina.

"Oh my God, Miss. I guess who. is Miss done? Sorry I stayed at the mosque for a while. I pray dhuha first, Miss."

"Dhuha's? That's what?"

Nice to smile while tidying up the new prayer mat he was wearing, put it into storage until neatly arranged.

"The dhuha prayer is the sunnah prayer performed at this hour, before the dzuhur prayer."

"Sunnah?" Selina felt foreign to the term.

"Miss Selina muslim?"

Selina shakes.

"Hm, then Miss is Non-Muslim?"

Selina shook her head again.

"So Miss?"

"I don't have a God."

It is good to know there are a handful of people who hold such beliefs. So, Good just smiled, however he should still respect the trust of others, whatever it is.

"Oh, alright, Miss." It was good to nod his head then walk outside the mosque.

Selina was seen sighing repeatedly, like there was a burden in her heart.

"Why is Miss here? Why not wait in the car?" tanya Good.

"I seek tranquility, everywhere crowded, only here quiet," replied Selina.

"Not yet to enter the mandatory prayer time, so quiet, Miss. Where are we going now?"

"Can you take me to the hospital?"

"Miss sick?"

"Yes, it seems like my head is dizzy. Maybe last night's hangover effect."

"Oh right. Then I take Miss to the nearest hospital."

Selina nodded, she then walked towards her car. Although in his mind now arises the question of worship performed Good along with his belief. Does God and religion give you peace in life? Selina was curious.