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RM128'S CHAT. Angry parcels
"uh right? Yeah dong's effort, Van!" Kenandra was scolding her little sister.
"Udah gini aja." Givan looked at Ai. "Ai, I'm asking for your family number." Givan looked at Ai with a deep look.
Ai was only able to reply to that glance at a glance. Then, he decided on his view and bowed.
"I don't have one, A" he replied.
Givan took a breath. He doesn't understand why someone doesn't have his family's phone number.
"Ai, this is serious. You know, you're going to have surgery? Well, after that operation you can't take care of yourself." Givan is still trying to be patient in dealing with Ai.
"I will fight for the birth of Aa's child into this world. Aa can be the same with me? How could the mother of Aa's own child?" Ai sobs trying to take Givan's mercy.
Givan closed his eyes. His head throbbed, a sign his emotions were out of control. For a few years, he tried to avoid explosive emotions. Merely, because Canda was always scared when he went berserk. He did not want his wife to be afraid of him.
"Whose son, Ai??!" Givan opened his eyes by displaying a red tinge on his net.
Givan had already turned into a half-demon, when his emotions took hold of him.
"YOU'RE WRONG, AI!!!" Givan gave a loud shriek, making Ai and Kenandra instantly stunned.
"You are exactly the same as you! Believe me that's my son, even I repeatedly said that it's not my son. Let what the hell are you begging like this? YOU THINK I CARE ABOUT YOU?!" Givan raised his voice again at the end of the sentence.
Ai ventured to look at the man who was her goal. "A, I think we can still be together." Ai sniffled back. He only saw the other side of the angry Givan, because he had never before got a clash of Givan as high as his tone now.
"Same-sama???" Givan squinted his red eyes. "What are you doing together?! I'm married, I have a partner and I'm proud to be Canda's husband. Why should I think, for both women who already know what it feels like?! I used to live together, but that doesn't mean it's eternal. I asked, only in those days. Not in the future, the future, or the times we meet again! So stop thinking, if I still want to live with you! I never wanted, never intended and never wanted, to live with another woman. The purpose of my life is only Canda, afterlife I also want to be reunited with Canda. About us, me and you, it's dead! You refused and I did not continue my struggle. I think it's clear, if we're really done and there's no other connecting story. Don't expect me to live with you, take responsibility for your son, be the father of your son or the biggest contributor to your life. You're a nobody! I've been begging, doesn't mean you're still too sweet. I begged, doesn't mean you're still waiting. Learning to forget you and love someone new, it's not hard for me. Don't be too big a head, if you think that I can't forget you! Everything you see with your eyes, the interaction between me and Canda, my love for Canda, my affection that I do with my actions for Canda, it's not pretending, Ai! Ask my family, ask those who watch every day. I never pretended to give my love, love and responsibility to Canda. If you think Canda is not a balanced partner for me and feel that you are more deserving, in fact, until today Canda who still I try his happiness, adequacy, affection and innerness. Canda is simple, maybe you feel much better than him. But it's that simplicity that I can't let go of him. Even if divorced with him, I still control him as much as I can grab his hand and as much as I can help him. I realized, I hurt her once and made her get away from me. But it's not what I want, it's not what I want. I also realized, economic shortcomings were one of the causes that might not think to come back to me. I understand women are realistic and need men to meet their clothes, stomachs and beauty needs. I struggled to stabilize my financial situation, until I rarely went home to my wife after the Canda, just because I wanted to stabilize quickly and could make Canda fulfilled with my hard work. I give you the ration of Canda's eldest son, my son and him. That's more than the rations that count in my head, I think it's too much for a two-year-old. But still I increase and increase it, because it is deliberately the intention to let the money be sent Canda as well. I'm the same as her, the woman you think is inferior to you. So, what is my effort to you? Just come to your house, right? Just persuade you, right? That's nothing, for my efforts for the sake of women who once doubled themselves because they couldn't stand my behavior. But you're so confident in her, like you're more flattering than Canda. You can think that I still love you, if I still respond to you, still respond, still take care of you and still take care of you! What is it now?!! Did I overstate you to Canda? Didn't you? I'm much more into Canda and improving myself including my economy just for Canda, just for him, not for you!!! Is your brain open, by hearing all these words from my mouth?!! Or, you still want to hear again about all my efforts and hard work for him?!!!" His index finger stretched out right in front of Ai's face, with jaw veins protruding along with a rough sentence spout. However, it was framed with a cold and low voice.
"I know, A. I know that Aa's mouth is rough. But I'm still convinced that Aa's fantasy and wildness are only free with me."
Givan gaped for a moment. Then he immediately closed his lips back, shaking them repeatedly. Ai's brain does not seem to be filled with sane thoughts in general.
"You should know too, Ai. That a good husband does not make the relationship defect. Not that my wildness and fantasies are not free with Canda, but with Canda*e*a*g even, it's made opium for myself. I couldn't make him sick, just to meet my biological needs. There are many ways to get my fantasy without hurting him. I had enough of Canda to be traumatized by the se*s, by taking her virginity in an abusive way. I know enough, I understand enough and sensitive enough, how to treat her, she who is my wife and my biological fulfillment in the long run. Up here you get it, Ai?! Up here you know, Ai?! It's pretty obvious up here, isn't it, Ai?!" Jemari Givan up to almost striking netra Ai. His hand was eager to hurt Ai, to make the woman understand.
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