Dream Crack
RM162. Givan's Confession
"I'm sorry for that missed incident, I'm sorry that you're hurting about what I'm saying right now. I want you to go to your area again, with the feeling of plumbing and disputes that have been resolved. Let me stay here, you're happy there, too." Givan's expectations were so simple, because he was already forty years old. He wants his dream with his wife to be realized immediately, without any divisions or rifts that are expanding.
Ai nodded in agreement. "I'm sorry about Aa, same Canda." He needs a sentence of certainty, before he really leaves Givan's life.
"I'm sorry. For the same Canda, it's good that you just convey it directly to him. He's forgiving." Givan wants Ai to tell Canda herself. Because if it passes him, Canda will think that he talks a lot with Ai and finally he was tried to retell his conversation with Ai.
"For my feelings first. Honestly, you're an escape from Fira. Ghifar and I were raised by Fira, I dated him for four years, during that time I was just the same he had the status, but it turns out Fira has the same status as Ghifar for two years. The point is, I want to leave Fira but I can't. So, I made you the most comfortable place so I could forget about Fira without having to bother moving on from her. For that, I'm sorry, huh?" Givan said slowly, occasionally looking at Ai's face.
Ai was just silent, she was remembering a long time passed. It was only a matter of days that Givan could say he was interested in her and wanted to be in love with her, apparently Givan made her a third person so that she was not so difficult to forget Fira.
"Is Aa in love with me?"
Such an answer, in fact, is not able to satisfy inner Ai. Givan suddenly remembered Canda.
"Physically attracted at first, Ai. I love your friendly nature, I love your body shape." Givan regretted his honest words a little, but that was all he could say when Ai asked him.
Ai sobbed and hugged her own body. "So, all that time Aa's only attracted to my body?" The sound he made was already shaking violently.
Givan shakes. "No. I had time to love you, because we are often together. When we stopped to Bali after from Papua, I had sex with Fira and accidentally made her pregnant. Son of my frustration and my mistakes at that time, Key who yesterday came to Fira just as we all gather and chat, Key came to Fira to ask for money to buy chicken. I have a good relationship with Fira to this day, not because I still remember my love for her. But, because her son is the same as me. Although Key is my flesh blood, apparently up to look the same mamah. But, Key was following his mother. I invite Fira to cooperate, maamah help Fira rise as strong as possible. Let what? Let Key's future not difficult later. Even though he got a piece of me, who could definitely live on himself later. But Key is Fira's heir, though his mama's mouth is often evil to Fira, but his intentions are good. Fira also has no other heirs besides Key, he also knows about business cooperation and about Key's life after this." Givan locked his gaze on Ai who was watching him.
A little nod from Givan is the answer. "I haven't broken up with Fira, I've never said a break up. I'm just saying we're done, when I never come back and never send him any more money. I get it, I don't deserve that cake. But now that it's gone, Fira and I have forgiven each other." It was like a drama of his life.
Because Canda initially asks Givan to apologize to Fira, arguing she always has nightmares and sees her husband being chased by Fira who carries an axe. Canda's whimper forced him to move to apologize with Fira, then there was a more intense relationship.
"Did she leave me too, with the same story? With a third person?"
Givan squinted his eyes at Ai's question. When did he leave Ai? Existing, Ai refused her request to return heartlessly.
"You're the one who chose to go, Ai. For a feeling, I easily forget someone with my activities or with the presence of a new person. The proof was that if I were far away, I could not call you for so long, right? I've told you before, I'm ashamed that you left me. Not that in the history of my life, you are the only woman who dared to leave me. However, our relationship is already known to many business relations. About our wedding plans, have been heard by business colleagues. You introduced me to a lot of business friends, but you left. Because of that incident, I was reluctant to settle my business down during my marriage with Canda. Because I was embarrassed to meet those who would definitely nanyain, where the deck Ai, why the same marriage Solo people. Well, what should I answer? I was willing to go bankrupt, whose company bodo period was held, the important thing is that my heart condition is fine without that question. I know it's not a big deal for business people, entertainment business people are women. But, the commitment of the business is seen from the way to master women with one woman. One woman alone, unable to control, let alone manage a company that is clearly greater risk than a woman. My business associates must think like this, for example they know that I really do not marry you. It's easy to forget about you, too, after your repeated rejection after I got married. I can also love Canda, love Canda, consider her a wife, consider her my place home. But the comfort of having sex with you in those days was often imagined, because the dream portion of all the men was in your body. Although there was a desire to snack, or cheat, but I never sell it. I accept, even though my physical relationship with Canda is monotonous, because I understand he is a portion of happiness that is enough for me, he is also the place where I get the reward." Givan recalled their quarrel in bed, when Canda always refused to try new moves.
"I understand that, I understand that Aa's fantasy is never satisfied with Canda?"
Givan frowned. He tried to understand Ai's point of view, he understood what Ai was asking only the present.
"I could make a joke of Canda a long time ago, Ai. But I never did, because I realized that I was the rapist. I don't want her traumatized to her own husband, I don't want her to be afraid of her own husband. I kept Canda's trust in me, to avoid anything worse than the relationship I was in. After the......
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