Dream Crack
RM31ST. Choice from Canda
"I don't know, Mom."
Canda just sighed. He closed his eyes, which looked sleepy according to Givan. Though they were talking about serious things, but Canda's response was so seemingly indifferent.
"Kanda, don't you trust your own husband? Why is your response like this?" Givan continued to watch his wife's closed eyes.
Canda was very curious, it was just that the truth sounded like a prank. Canda's trust in her husband was gone.
"I don't know, so I'm confused as to what response. How is it? How do you want it? How is planning ahead? I've had this case, this time it would be up to his son to be lived or cooked rica-rica. It's quite Key, it's enough Zio. If you want to raise his child who is still in the stomach of the person, please bring also his other children. I don't want to use my name anymore, for their birth certificate. I don't want Mas's next kid to call me big, 'cause that's not my kid. I want to go, please. But if Mas stays in this house, or brings the mother of his child into this house too, then I'm the one who leaves. Our son is four, the same one I bear. We share only two, which women please the same Mas. Maybe they need a guardian. Now that I bear and my sons, they will follow me away. I think that's fair enough. Since I don't have the right to Key and Zio, it's better for them to follow their biological father than to follow me. Ceysa I automatically bring it, because Mas has no rights to Ceysa." Canda opened his eyes and closed again.
Canda did not understand why his mouth said that. But the sense of tightness was quite plong, when those firm sentences came out of his mouth.
He will accept all the consequences, if at last he has to support his own son. He thought, Ceysa's education costs must be safe with a business relic from his biological father. Chandra, too, has his own business as part of his biological father Ceysa. As for him, he will take over his convection business later to support himself and his son who is in his stomach.
He won't take a headache. Especially if given the weak content because of his blood pressure tends to be low, Canda has a risk of babies born early and low weight.
"Kanda, did you forget our dream? Our dreams are right in front of our eyes, Canda. Why did you choose that cake split?" Givan patted Canda's cheek softly, to have his wife's eyes open again.
"Our dreams have been fractured, since Mas chose to leave Mas's property for other women. It's that easy, right? I don't have to think about a lot of things, either. I love my life, I don't want to die because of Mas's kek man. Because Mas too, it was easy not to think about my feelings with the actions of Mas who could not take care of himself as my husband. I'm ashamed, because my husband is kek Mas. I feel useless, because for such a thing just husband looking for other items. I embarrassed me indirectly." Canda opened his eyes when he spoke. However, he immediately closed his eyes back when he finished speaking. Canda dampened the pungent taste in his eyes, by closing his eyes.
"Kanda, I take revenge on Ai."
Seeking justification that increasingly makes Canda fed up, is a useless thing according to Canda.
"May I have a grudge against you? Rape me, I can't be treated well, I can't get a good economy at the beginning of our marriage, I can't get comfortable housing, I can't get supportive clothes, my stomach is hungry, I can't get a good job, I'm smelly, my hair's not taken care of, my skin's puffy, can I reply to all that? What's there, I'm not good to Mas either? What is it, I'm behind doing violence in bed? Is there anything, I don't care about Mas? Revenge, should I understand that? Don't reason too much, Mom. We are both adults, do you want forty, I want three five, the time to deal with revenge should be justified too? Though clearly, in religion it is not justified about that grudge."
Givan was devastated, with his wife's clear words. He was blinded by revenge in a blanket of heartache, without realizing himself should need to be the target of revenge for his own wife. But not done by his wife. He felt more regret and loss, because he launched his revenge on Ai.
"Kanda, I'm sorry." Jakunnya up and down.
"May I also retire because I choose to live with Mas?"
Givan doesn't understand why Canda turned everything around on him. He realized today that he was one of those ungrateful people. Moreover, he had even raised his grudges heartlessly. Even intending so badly on Ai, without thinking about the risks he had to take. Givan was so focused, that it could ruin Ai's life.
"I'm staying in this house, with Mas having to lift his legs and we're just good parenting partners. Or Mas who's in this house, with me who goes and starts for the child."
Givan is getting hit hard, with Canda's heartless decision.
"Kanda, the sign is that we're not together anymore." Givan was terrified by his separation from Canda. What would he be, if he did not get a prayer from Canda back.
"It's up to Mas. Divorce, yes I am jabani. We're together, but we're not looking at each other anymore. Please come back, if the problem is over. But if I'm not an option, with Mas reckless to take him. Get ready to wait for his letter to arrive. I don't want to bother, I don't want to interfere. Each of us," said Canda, trying to sit down from his position.
"May I stay at our children's house, Canda?" Givan follows Canda who rises from his position.
"Wouldn't. I don't want kids getting carried away with Mas's problems." Canda held his head, because the sense of spinning was so pronounced that he rose from a position so low.
"Kanda, but we're husband and wife." Givan blocks Canda's arm from rising from his seat.
Canda undoes his intentions. She turned her position, then looked into the red eyes of her husband.
"Is that so? So, how'd you like?" Canda looks so unafraid that Givan will leave her.
"We're home, Canda. We are husband and wife who are lawful according to religion or law. For what, husband and wife but not home anymore? Why can't I go home to my own wife?" Givan is still inexhaustible, with a heartless decision from Canda.
Because of that, it was already like such great karma for him. From his wife's change alone, Givan no longer felt that his wife was still for him.
"It is still appropriate if the husband and wife, but the husband for other women to conceive for any reason? The cake that I once offered. Better, we become parents' partners after this. Because I'm sure, even after this problem subsided, our dreams are no longer the same. With us out of shape, it's fair enough that we don't hurt each other. I'm free, you're free out there. We gather in the place of the children, to educate our children. After that, Mas can go with the freedom Mas again. It's up to you actually, who wants the option? I go with Chandra and Ceysa and Mas at home with new people, or I hang on with parent partner status but we're not home."
A confusing and detrimental choice for Givan. Obviously, it was not a good choice for him. It was not justice that was on his side. Plus, he now has to solve his problems with Ai without the support of his wife.
Canda doesn't care about him anymore.
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