Dream Crack
RM190. Zio Luapan
Zio is silent, he survives amid a debate between Givan and Nadya that disagrees with Givan's decision to hitch Zio to a boarding school that is quite far from his area. Though Zio doesn't mind, he knows his father wants the best for his life. Not what her real mother said.
"Mas....," exclaimed Canda who felt uneasy about the debate.
"Yes, Canda." Givan's attention was immediately distracted.
"Don't make a fuss, I'm not comfortable." Honest Canda with fused eyebrows.
Givan glanced at Nadya, then he clasped his wife's different hand on Zio's lap. The wife's husband, was obstructed by Zio who was sitting in a daze.
"Sorry, Canda. But I think your husband did act differently to my son." Nadya glared at Givan without shame.
"Nadya! I just don't want Zio to cake me or you! Moreover, when viewed from the trace of his presence! You have to remember that, Nad!" Givan pointed his index finger at Nadya.
Zio immediately thought of his father's words. Who me? Where did I come from? Was I the fault of my parents? His little heart wondered, but he was unable to speak.
"You realize you're not a good man, Van." Nadya shook her head repeatedly. "Kc.... Poor fellow who is his wife." He glanced at Canda.
Givan's views were immediately giddy. He does not like to be demonized in front of his descendants, plus Nadya looks like a comedian.
"Mother go home. I thank you, thank you. Next time, don't bother me anymore. Mother does not need to make my parents fight, with the arrival of Mother here. Dad has educated me well, Biyung already gave me valuable knowledge. You just need to pray for the best for my life and my future, you don't need to see my growth here. I'm in the hands of the right person, Mother don't have to worry. Mother is healthy there, Mother does not need to think about how I, Mother take care of the other Mother's children well. Not that I refuse to meet again with Mother, but I think it's good that Mother does not find me. Because of Mother's presence, it just makes me feel unlucky. Not lucky to get Mother's birth mother cake. If you know I'm here, you should have met me, mama Fira to Key, or ammak to Jasmine. Let the arrival of the Mother wait, either because of the goods that Mother brought, or because of time with Mother. Not only am I big like this, I feel foreign with Mother, I feel foreign with my own brother. Plus, Mother even make a storm here. The Mother.... Biyung I'm sick again, Mother makes Biyung uncomfortable with the presence of Mother. The Mother.... My father has the best love, Mother does not need to be the most knowledgeable about me, because my nature is that Mother does not know. Mother gave me to Father, wanted me to die at Father's hands, wanted me to melt in Father's hands, it was not Mother's right to interfere anymore. I am comfortable living with my parents now. I'm sorry, if I'm being disrespectful. But please, don't claim I'm an ungodly child. Mother please go home, Mother enjoy the life of Mother without having to be burdened to take care of me." Zio raised his hand, allowing Nadya to leave their residence.
"Oh, so you were educated to dare to parents huh? Tsk, tsk, tsk...." Nadya smiled obliquely with a head bobble.
"No, not at all educated to dare to parents. I held Biyung until my hands went numb, I never dared to ask Biyung to leave my arms. But the presence of Mommy here, make me think a lot negative about my parents now. I do not want to have bad thoughts to them, they are sincerely educated and love me. I have not been able to return the favor to them, I have no power other than that I must obey them at all times. But, Mommy.... Whatever it is about my parents out there, I don't want to hear that it makes me hate them. Reply to them I will not be able to, especially with disrespect I have to be angry and hate them. I don't want to know if my dad's a murderer, a robber or something, I don't want to know. It doesn't matter to me and I don't want to be curious about it, I don't want it to all interfere with my obedience to my parents. I don't want that to bother me with my parents, my parents' business, not mine. But later Dad there is a material debt that Dad can not pay off, I will be the first child who will pay off Dad's debt so Dad is not difficult in the afterlife. It's gonna be my business, besides I don't want to know about my dad's ugliness out there." Zio focused his attention on his biological mother, hoping that his point would be well conveyed.
"You're taught ya to talk gini cake?" Nadya laughed discordantly, Zio felt unappreciated with the laughter of his biological mother.
"No, even Mother is not the one who taught Brother to talk a lot to look familiar to me? That day you were silent, today was different. I know, Mommy is so sure that I want to come, right? No, Mommy. I don't want to leave my parents, I don't want to go even if I'm estranged here. Later, I'm sure my parents need my energy. Later, my parents need my presence. Just enough to play, Mother? I don't want to have Mommy here and talk bad about Dad anymore, because it's useless in my opinion. How ugly Dad is out there, in fact he's still my father and my brother, he's the father who's been feeding me and my brothers. Mommy knows what I mean?" Zio did not raise his tone at all. He spoke in a steady tone, it was not seen that he was implying his emotions there.
"Is that so? Yes, if you want Zio, Mother can not come here again. This is the Mother's business card, here is the Mother's home address. Big Zio can visit there, if you miss the same Mother. Mommy knows enough, Mommy will not come here again if it wants Zio. Zio is healthy? Zio has to be happy, Zio has to be successful, Zio has to be successful. The door of Mother's house is always open for Zio, Mother always waiting for Zio to come." Nadya gave her card to her son.
There was a hint of confidence in his mind, that the words of the child were the babbling of the child only. It was just the child's impingement, as it didn't like to see his presence this time. Nadya believes that, she does not consider the true speech of her son.
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