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RM196. Givan's Responsibility
"Mas sure I'm strong?" Canda glazed over her husband's face.
"Strong dong, must be strong. You know how broken my double is, you want me to do that again?" Givan stroked his wife's face in front of her parents.
Canda shakes. "Kasian kids, Mas. Don't be crazy anymore, kids need a good father role. Even if Zio says, I don't want to know how you're out there. But, Mas don't have to be mentally damaged by going crazy anymore. However, they would be ashamed if their father b*******." His net so implied that his expectations were great there.
"I wouldn't go the wrong way again if you were to be my wife at all times, Canda. I'm going to remain the ever-changing Givan for the better, for you, for our children and for my parents." Givan puts Canda on the first set-up, implying how important Canda is to his life.
"Dear me, Mas?" Canda wiped away her tears that flowed without her will.
"Why do you always doubt that, Canda? Am I lacking in prioritizing you?" The sound of Givan shaking.
Adi, Adinda and Ghava looked at each other. Adinda's feeling of defeat, listening to Givan's declining voice quiver. He knows how much his son loves his son-in-law. There was envy, when he knew his son loved another woman besides himself. But he realized, his job is to raise his children and equip his children with a broad religious knowledge. His son was not born to continue to live and spend all his life time on him. He doesn't want to be selfish about this.
"First marriage, we marry because Mas is charged with responsibility. Our second marriage, because Mas mandated the same bang Daeng. So, we have no reason to marry for love." Canda closed his eyes, so heavy as he said that. The smell will be at stake, when her husband confirms the fact that eats his mind.
"You've been thinking that all along, Canda? Did my referral not mean it? Did I take less responsibility than I used to, after our first marriage?" Givan did not cry, but his breathing was as unwilling as he endured the cries he could not let out in front of his wife.
"Not at all, not because of that. So far, Ai remains the best in Mas's heart."
Givan's face was stiff. His forehead was wrinkled with an unusual look.
"Did?" Givan asked about that one name. He did not understand why his wife was dragging Ai's name.
Canda gave a thin nod. "Ai Mas came after we got married. Ai became the benchmark se*s favorite Mas, Mas pas story to Papah. Because Ai too, Mas kepengen marriage again fitting still the same me." Canda did not dare look her husband in the eyes.
"But that way, in fact, Mas still hopes the same Ai." Canda hugged his own body and wiped away his tears. He strengthened his heart, not to continue crying like this.
"From the beginning, I wasn't still in love or anything like that. But I'm ashamed, because I didn't marry her. He was my personal assistant. Wherever I go, she comes along and I introduce her to my business colleague. I introduced her as a future wife and I got married in a few months. It didn't work out, Canda. Allah is more pleased that I married the same good man to you, because Allah knows the true nature of Ai kek. The time of business colleagues I know, I married different women, my image of business was also damaged. Even if the reason the women wanted the marriage failed, then they must have thought that I could not take care of my woman. They must also think, just can't take care of women, let alone take care of a company this big. That's why I didn't publish you, because I was afraid of being labeled ugly by my colleagues. It's not that I'm ashamed to marry a woman as good as you, but I'm ashamed that until a business colleague I know I'm marrying a different woman. That's why at the beginning, I was lazy to take care of the mine. Since I was embarrassed to meet them, what should I answer if they asked me about my personal assistant. Not that I'm against you being miserable, I work my efforts, it's all my efforts to love you my livelihood and my responsibilities. If I don't want to give you life and responsibilities, I would be a burden on my family. I work as a paintworker or building it, yes for you, Canda. My salary, my meal money, I collect and give it all to you. I understand it's not much, but I can only give you that much. Deliberately bring supplies from home, let money eat me. Deliberately bring water from home, let my meal money not be used to buy large bottled mineral water. Shame is shameful, because even Zuhdi who is difficult is not up to his side. Bring him back, he won't bring a drink. He bought a big bottle of water in the field. So, I'm still less responsible, Canda?" Givan looked at his wife's face so deeply. His love is so implied through the look of his eyes, unfortunately Canda brushed it off because it is not a form of speech.
Adinda and Adi remembered the difficult time of her son. From the actions of his son alone, they understood that Givan was so eager to realize his responsibility to his wife.
They knew that Givan wanted to give his wife the best. They remembered, would whine his son to his parents, to buy the products he wanted for his own ego. Givan requested it from his parents, while his own income he gave entirely to his wife. The younger brother understood this, because he knew how about his son's ego. Let alone for a desired product, affection from him was demanded, if his son did not get the same attention as his brother.
He recalled that Givan described his selflessness, if he was not as noticed as his younger brothers. Adinda knows clearly how her son.
One that is not understood by him, which is why Canda seemed to ask things that he already knew?
"Mas no less anything, for the love of his responsibility to the wife. But I feel like I'm not in my heart."
Givan cast his gaze on his family. Meanwhile, they were also seen throwing views at each other hearing Canda's words.
"Kanda, it's me who feels. I say, through my responsibilities and attitude to you. For your sake, I'm willing to learn to speak as softly as you want. For your sake, I always give up on my emotions. Why did you say you weren't in my heart?" Givan framed his wife's face quickly.
"Because, I never told you that Mas loves me." Canda closed his eyes, his tears flowing back without his will.
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