Dream Crack
RM43-S. A bed of supplication to return
"Temenin I took a nap?" Givan looked at his wife expectantly.
"I want to do something? The infusion is over too." Time has shown at one o'clock in the afternoon.
The medic Rauzha had brought back home after Givan had finished one bag of infusions and several injections of drugs injected into his infusion tube. Actually, the cure is just a joke. Givan needs his wife, Givan wants his wife.
"Temenin aja." Givan got up and walked towards the door.
He turned the key to the room, then pulled it out. Obviously, that made Canda suspicious.
"Well, if it's believed to be so." Canda had two possibilities in his mind. First, she will be invited to have sex with her husband. Or, he will be forbidden to return home.
"When I sleep, let's not run away." Givan went back to his wife's side.
He hugged his wife, so that something hardened was felt by Canda. She knew her husband would use it.
"Try around, Mom." Canda nudged her husband's chest.
He hoped Givan would refuse to do it to him. Canda imagined, how her husband hooked other women.
"We usually sleep like this." Givan back up.
Givan took a deep sip of the distinctive scent of his wife. Something within him grew louder, with Givan's longing for his needs.
"Okay, Mom." The joking began to rebel.
"Don't go on dong." His voice began to grow heavy.
Givan's after his wife's ear, it's the sensitive point of his wife. The sweep and the gust he blazed there, so that his wife was washed away in her cradle.
"Mas!" Canda still can not do that, even though she was provoked by the efforts of her husband.
"I can't, Mom," he continued.
Givan understands very well, the aftermath of his expulsion is that he will not get rations about this anymore. But how? He needed and he wanted to remain his wife to be a place to pour out his affection.
"I get it, Canda. Just try to enjoy it." He tried not to force his wife, because he understood very well that his wife had a trauma of coercion that he had done.
"I don't want to enjoy anyone else's." Canda kept her husband's head away from her ear area.
She could not resist the turmoil arising from the treatment of her husband. She knew her husband was the most able man, to arouse her taste despite being pregnant. Because usually, other women will lose interest in sex.
Givan was stunned to hear Canda's words. "Whose is it, Canda? We're not divorced and we're never going to get divorced." Givan got up and wrapped his pregnant wife's body.
He supported his body, so that his wife's flat stomach was not depressed with his body weight. Givan looked at his wife's face, who was reluctant to look him in the eye.
"Kanda, I said." Givan's voice sounded firm.
In fact, Ajeng alone felt his divorce was postponed after the end of puerperium.
"We get divorced, if I die." Givan removes his son's hair from his wife's shady face.
Canda swerved straight. Her hands reflexively plucked her husband's mouth, she did not like the ugly words that came out of her husband's mouth. He was traumatized by the abandonment of his loved ones, he did not want a similar case to be experienced again.
"Fulfill your obligations, Canda. You're still my right. You come with me here, or I go back there." Givan let out his decisiveness, after a state of stress suppressed his mind center.
He is aware of being a man, having rights and control over his wife.
"Mas stay here, or am I going home to mom?" Canda threatened her husband.
Givan rolled his body back. Something tense in the middle, gradually fell asleep again due to this debate.
"What is your plan? What's not well thought out, Canda? With me here, our problems widen to the outside. With me here, Ai has a gap to approach me. Don't you love this husband of yours? You're not afraid of losing your husband? Are you sure you want to let me go for another woman? How many more will give up? Is Nadya's problem not enough to be an experience for you? Are you seriously willing to give up again for another woman? You seriously want to dump the father of your seven children? Do you know the risks? The burden?" Givan placed his hand on his wife's belly.
The vibrations mixed with the tightness of the memendam in Canda's heart. He was confused to deal with all this. On the one hand, she no longer believed in her husband. However, her ego felt that her husband should stay for her. But she could not only have her husband's body, she also wanted to be loved as well as her understanding of her husband who loves Ai.
"I don't want to be tormented to stay with me." A drop of clear water slid from his eyes.
Quickly he wiped. Unfortunately, the tears were first seen by her husband. There was a speck of joy, when Givan found out for himself that his wife was still crying. His wife wasn't really stiff on him.
"Tortured for what? You don't see, two days without you getting sick, Canda. If we are far away, it's just my name is tormented. I want us to be husband and wife, stay one roof and so sadinah mawadah warahmah." All three things that Givan felt when together with Canda.
Givan pulls the facts, so Canda trusts him. The fact where Givan was sick, after two days of not living with him. But his bad thoughts hit him back.
"Mas wants to be sick, let me pity you, Mas" said the speech, sounding heartless according to Givan.
He's not that kind of person. He will not be willing, in a way to hurt himself.
"I can make a curse, Canda. Moreover, you are obviously still my right. Let what I'm caving? If it forces more real hills." Rational Canda played by Givan.
Canda reconfirmed Givan's remarks. The nature of her husband's coercion, no doubt. Even himself, once a victim of the coercion of an Ananda Givan.
"You won't understand my thoughts. You can't understand how much of a burden I keep alone. Even his own wife, even the cake does not care about all the words of her own husband. So who am I going to confide in? Who am I to share the burden of my mind with? Old folks? Or a third party?" Givan put out an outline that caused him stress.
Canda sobbed, then she turned her back to her husband. His mind and heart clashed amidst his constancy. He was tired of crying, he was tired of asking on the prayer mat. She is confused about how else to deal with this problem, because she understands only about her husband who loves Ai. Things are impossible to be possible, because of the long buried love.
"Let's be together again, we're going to reveal everything slowly. If we are not home, asking directly is sometimes difficult. From the phone, we must doubt it because we do not know the honest expression or lie. You're the one who believes in me, because I have no intention of hurting you. You're the one who believes in me, because I never want to be with anyone else. You believe more in the words of others, continue to do something with the words of her husband, what is it for? Do you trust anyone more than your own husband? Sure you believe in others? Husband himself, Canda. Who lived with you for so long, sure you don't believe it?"
Clash after impact, split in Canda's heart. She enjoyed the pain that her husband understood in his own mind. She wanted to ask her husband how he loved her, because she was sure he would quibble for it. Canda was sure her husband wouldn't be honest with her.
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