Enigma A Feel
16 ESP'S
🌼 Flavors That Ever Existed 🌼
You know, every time I dream about you I'm in a state of fear...Hope you're okay. May you be in his protection. Let me lie helpless hereit's better, than to imagine you in my position.
Like in that dream...I hope you're happy even if I get hurt. Hope you laugh even if I have to languish. May you be healthy even though I am weak I sincerely as long as you get all the best.
Only this is how I love you. I can only hide in the do'a without being able to declare it. Hope that someday you will never be able to repay it. I don't care, as long as you're happy.
Enough of all the memories you've ever had. I hugged myself tightly in my soul until I was lifeless, and I took it away together to face the power. Because after all, it is because of His power that this feeling comes into being.
Trousers,2/3/19
🌼 Script Without Words 🌼
Losing you is like losing a word. No longer able to write a story. Until my novels came to a halt. And just abandoned.
Losing you I am speechless. Can only concern yourself with the growing work. I wish time would end quickly. Without remembering you who are usually present arrive - arrive.
Losing you is like losing a character. Unable to string words. No words, no pauses. There's only me who needs to be aware. That you are right there is no sense. To me, someone who once loved you with all the flavor.
I never knew this would be the case. Words without words will never mean anything. So am I, here alone, making do'a. That if God did not create us in the same destiny. I can let you off with all my taste. Who filled the tightness inside the chest.
Hopefully, hopefully...
#Bag,14/3/2019
🌼 Why? 🌼
On my own, I remember what your friend said. Why do you think about it, while he doesn't think about you. Why do you worry about him, while he never cares about you. Why do you insist on doing your best to make her smile, while she never cares even when you shed your tears for her. And I could only be silent to hear it.
Yeah, right, why? More than him who wants to know, I'm more curious about the reason why it all exists because up to this moment, I still don't understand what I think.
In silence, I often ask myself why? Why do I still wait faithfully for you, while you never even think I exist. Why is my heart still fixed on your one name, while you even look at me reluctantly...Why do I still echo your name on every prostration of my night, while you proclaim another name in your prayer.
Why...why and why? Again, there will always be many words why when we can not live what must be lived.
Why is this, why is that? We always question it, and so does it happen to me. But I never found an answer to a question that started with the word why. I don't know why....
#fitz,20/3/19