Enigma A Feel
8 ESP'S
🌼 Reminiscing You 🌼
Remembering is one of the ways someone misses. When the meeting back into something that until anytime will never reach real. So you just have to go through the memory in your little brain, and walk through those memories.
I never want to remember you, no matter how hard I try to let go of the longing. Because I wanted to feel that pain and hold it tight, so that I could always remember that I had kept the pain longing for you.
However, I don't know why my hands are so nosy. My heart does not cooperate with my mind. I typed your name in the search engine. And found a photo that made me able to smile suddenly.
You pose a joke there, your face is funny. And somehow I couldn't get away from looking at that old photo. All I thought about was, ah is that was your childhood. And then I became greedy, because I wanted to get to know you further and to hear all the childhood stories that you once shared. But I know, it's impossible, right?
I don't want to remember you that's what I always say. But in fact, just looking at old photos can make me remember millions of our memories in the past. I'm good at lying, aren't I? I hate being lied to. But in fact, I often lie to myself by denying all the heart words.
Remembering is the way a person misses. And that's what I do, dive into all those memories and hold them tight, as hard as my longing for you who are reluctant to go even to this very second. Because you know, something may end but the memory of it will live on forever.
Sidoarjo, October 16, 2018
🌼 Hi 🌼
Hii...
That one word I want to say to you again. To start everything back as it used to be. Removing the distance and time that have made us far apart.
Oi...
That one word, in fact, is only stored in the freezing of my tongue. Only I can write in this empty space, without daring to press the send button on you.
The hello...
That one word I wish I could convey all my longings to you. But in fact even to type that one word on you, I was unable to.
But, now, I think enough. My heart simply stopped at the pain of that moment. I don't want him to get hurt again. He deserves to be happy. Therefore, even though the feeling of longing that is not extinct is still on you. I'll keep it deep. No matter how painful it is.
Hii...
That one word, will always be spoken by my little lips. When I wake up or when I wake up. On your figure that is close to me, even though it is only a pseudo-image.
Hii...
Right tonight, I said the word indirectly. Let's show you that tonight. Somehow, the wind wants me to get a message to you. That he missed, to you.. Yeah, you..
Pasuruan, October 18, 2018
🌼 Liver 🌼
The liver...
Have you ever asked him? Why is he heart-faced? Why doesn't it symbolize its own form? Do you know why? He said, because it was easy to turn around. Until he did not find his true form. Really so?
The liver...
I don't know why, I want to cry when I talk about it. I know one heart. He is fragile, but always tries to be strong. Many times he was hated, reviled, nailed and ignored.He still tried to stay strong. Try to keep receiving with good reception. Even if he feels tired,. Why is it not like the words of those who can turn back? He remained faithful to another heart that he guarded. Up to this trick, he still could not turn away from her.
That heart...?
Ah, I don't need to explain who he is. You know, you know him well. Even more than the heart knows itself. He's a different heart, one that looks after himself only for you. Another heart he loved.
Pasuruan, October 18, 2018