Enigma A Feel
2 ESP'S

🌼 As Rain 🌼

Many people hate the rain. They say rain is a cry of sorrow. They say the rain brings painful memories. I don't know why I like the rain. There was a sense of calm when I inhaled petricor. I don't know why. And I will be very grateful, every time it rains and brings all the memories of the past back to my memory. Because only when it rains can I rediscover the temple about you while diving into that sea of memories.

For me, you are like rain, so I am willing to let go of my umbrella, to be able to walk with you. For me you are like rain, cold but able to make me comfortable to make me sleep for a fraction of a second of time. To me, you are like rain, falling many times in my heart and I cannot avoid it anymore. But you know, there's no rain at the moment. When the penaku wrote about rain, it was not raining here at all. The sky was very clear this morning. The sun is just as loyal as it usually gives warmth to everyone who needs it. Unlike the rain, which people say can only give coldness and sadness. They may forget that when it rains and the cold gets into the body, a blanket and a cup of warm coffee play a role. You can enjoy the sound of rain out there, sit comfortably in your rocking chair, while wrapped in a thick blanket and sip a cup of warm coffee in your hands. For me, it was a simple happy one that I got in the rain.

The rain taught me so much. About his sincerity and patience. You know why? Because he keeps coming back no matter how often he falls. He doesn't care even if he hates it. Because he did not come for them, he came for those who longed and loved him. I want to be like that too. I want to be rain. Until just as your bicycle, which falls on my heart, I will also shower your heart many times and you cannot avoid it.

I love the rain, even though I know it's only for a moment. Because in that dark corner, when I wiped the rain, I found you.That's when, I started to love the rain. The rain is the moment I always wait for. I will walk with the rain until no one knows that I am crying happily. Because you and the rain, it is a longing that I keep in my memory only.This morning, when the sun shines brightly. I write about rain because I miss it. You too, who showered me with longing.

🌼 Alone 🌼

You know what it feels like? When your tears come down without excuse. Flowing non-stop. Towards an estuary that you do not know because there is no shoulder that will dispel the discharge. No foreign hand will wipe its mark. And no one will hold you to hide it.

You know what it feels like? Being in a large area, but you always feel crowded. It's as if oxygen is squeezed and doesn't fill your chest. Then, you sit down and hold your knees in the corner of the room. Hope someone will come knocking on the door and save you who seemed imprisoned in a narrow room in the corner of the room.

Is that what you feel? Is that itself? No..!!! Being alone is when you are unable and unwilling to understand. When your heart moves away from His figure, "The Most Existent". In reality, man is never alone. Is not it when we draw near to God that God will approach us along one arm? When we approach God with one arm, God approaches us with one step. When God approaches us along one step, God will approach us as close as our neck and head. Isn't that how it is?

That is why it does not exist itself. Alone is only for those who are unable to understand that God is Existent. The All Knowing. Therefore overcome your sadness that thinks of itself. Eliminate the envy of your envy of seeing those who are together in nameless bondage. Because the courtship is only a temporary bond. Nothing in religion. Establish a proper bond with His Ridho. If you can't, then stop. Begin to draw yourself closer to Him. Trust your heart in His care. Wait in your holy place with Him. That way you will not perch your own words again in your heart.

Pasuruan, May 26, 2017