Enigma A Feel
9 ESP'S

🌼 Selfish 🌼

You said I was selfish. But.how about you? Have you ever looked at yourself?

You're selfish even though you know someone's hurt here. You ignore the one who fought for you.

For you, it's none of your business if he fights for you because it's not you who ask him but himself. For you, your story has been over ever since. Since you have reached the highest point in your dreams.

You leave without thinking about going back. You step forward without ever knowing that someone is waiting for you behind you. You are struggling to achieve a better future, no matter that he who has fought for you is being trained to be able to stand back. Tell me, who is more selfish?

You are indifferent and do not care because he once offended your ego. That very ego you're handing out. Without you knowing that he did that so that you can be stronger if you face more than that in the future.

You hate it, because it interferes with your pleasure. The pleasure you thought would last forever if he hadn't come. Without ever knowing, that he did it because he believed in you and wished you as a place to depend.

But you're a fool. For you because it no longer brings profit to you, you release it for you because you can stand without it, you eliminate it.

You close every story with him as you please. Have you ever realized? It never comes to your mind that your story is not over. Maybe you're done, but not for him. He's too stupid to wait faithfully for you.

For those of you far away. Who wanted this story to end at that split second as well. Congratulations, congratulations because you made him into someone who was once so stupid. For giving some of his heart to you and waiting for him to be bored. Though perhaps, the word fetish will not reach the end...

Pasuruan, October 23, 2018

You know what hurts from love? By ourselves..Falling in love alone is a wound without blood.

Sometimes you feel jealous. To those who can hold each other. While you, just be quiet and think. Ah, how does it feel? When other hands hold your hand and channel warmth?

You also feel jealous of those who can lean on each other. While you, can only guess. Ah, how does it feel? Can you divide your tiredness and lean on his shoulders?

It feels good, seeing person2 with reciprocated love. While you are, you can only be silent and embrace yourself. Build a strong fortress to protect your heart from being broken. However, without you knowing, he had even bled before being broken.

Painful...But, you can't avoid. You can't refuse that feeling to exist. No matter how hard your heart breaks. Still the feeling of it dwelling at the bottom of the heart there. Wishing to achieve happiness, even though there is only real hopelessness.

If only love could choose whom it would fall. Then there will be no unrequited love. His heart will tend to choose to fall to the heart that also chooses him. But in fact it's just a "if" that is nothing more than a supposition. While fact, not based on a desire of mere suppositions.

However, one thing you need to know about someone who is in love alone. You're the strongest, strongest man ever. Because you keep your heart to stay faithful. To him who in fact only considers your heart as the wind. You're a big heart, the most patient person ever. Because you think well of the one who hurt you and made you hurt without blood. In the end, you also have to remember to give up. Because your heart and love are too beautiful. Just for you to waste it.

Pasuruan, October 23, 2018