Hot Couple: Love Story Inara Season 3
Acute Dilemma

"Can I sleep here?" Reza asked after our two babies went back into their cribs.

I'm nodding. "Em" I muttered, without looking. I intentionally linger on the edge of Anggi's sleeping box.

"Darling?"

"What?"

"I'm kangen. Can I hold you?"

Oh, my God, it's so tight in my chest. Something I don't understand is what taste. Sorrow, sadness, or even tightness that is born from a sense of haru and happy? I don't get it. The puddle in my eye popped up again - which I also did not understand, what it was. And...

Without waiting for me to agree, Reza's hands were already wrapped around my body. He held me tight, as if to convey: how afraid he was of losing me.

"Sorry, I have to go to the kitchen. I forgot I didn't drink milk. I'm going down first" I said. "Attent."

Reza's embrace loosened, and I was leaving. "Don't be long, yeah," his message-with his raucous voice.

I also nodded. Really, right now I am still in a very dilemma situation. Being lied to by my husband often makes me very paranoid - even though Salsya is gone. I'm afraid, if there's a harsh reality that hasn't been revealed - or that I'm afraid it's actually happening, but I don't know the truth yet.

Unfortunately, my mother was still in the kitchen and she realized my situation - - which I myself did not know what her name was. Perhaps I would rather say in a state of acute dilemma.

"Not calm yet?" tanyakanya.

"Maybe it'll never calm down again."

"Darling...."

"Difficult, Bund. Nara hesitates."

"Then, what does your little heart want?"

"Rather than not being clear like this, it feels like Nara wants a divorce. And. even if Nara can't separate - maybe we should re-marry. Nara was really hesitant."

While I was preparing the milk, my mother was writing a record of the stock of cooking ingredients that she wanted to buy tomorrow. "Darling," he called after folding his notes, "you want to remarry?"

Mother nodded. "Later try Mommy to talk, yes. Maybe. if Mother talks, Reza can understand and understand your doubts."

I nodded back. "Nara can ask you one thing?"

"What's that?" sahut relax.

"Then... has Mommy ever been in a position like Nara feels right now?"

"You mean to be in the midst of doubt when you faced your father first?"

Again, I nodded.

"Early," he said. "After Mother gives your father a second chance. It was in the early weeks of Mother containing Ihsan. Your father's denial of his sir's marriage to Sandra Wijayanti, your father's oath, as well as his promise not to reconnect with the woman - which is not directly proportional to reality."

I don't get it yet. "meaning?"

"The beginning of Mother and your father made up, Mother tried to regulate the heart and trust of Mother to your father. But, at that time Mother also protected herself Mother, Mother is always vigilant, so traumatic with the pain - Mother to prepare the heart - if your father lied to Mother again, Mother instill in the heart of Mother - Mother must be ready, so that Mother's heart is not as sick as before, when first knowing that your father cheated." Then he laughed a little. "Snap, yes, Mother's sentence. But you understand, don't you, what does Mother mean?"

I'm nodding. "Yes" I said. "Mother tries to organize the heart, but Mother also prepares the Mother's heart to be immune. It's mean... Mother also held the heart of Mother, roughneck... Mother tries to no longer use feelings, so that when Mother knows that father cheated again, Mother no longer feels pain. I see, right?"

He nodded to her so many times. "Yes," he said. "You can catch what Mother meant."

"Well, that's Mommy still acting as a wife, right?"

Nod again. "still. Still serving him, even serving him in bed. It was a dilemma once, trying to fix, but the heart felt it was a thing that felt very impossible to believe."

Then her tears came. I know, there's a bitter story. Sure. "What happened next, Bund? At that time?"

My mother took a deep breath, the thing I've known since I was twelve: there are wounds - parts of the story I don't know yet.

"Please... tell me, Bund? Tell me everything without exception."