
The deg!
I suddenly heard greetings greeting me from behind. No, not because of the greeting, but because I recognized the voice of the man who said it. Husband, Reza. Ihsan brought her home that afternoon. And that practically makes my heart a lump. I dare not turn around to look at him standing behind me.
Oh, my God, my heart is kicking. The rhythm seems to echo.
"Answered dong..," interrupted Ihsan.
Wa'alaikumussalam, said my heart even though my mouth was locked. Welcome home, Mom. I'm happy and I'm happy for your return.
"It's been answered in my heart" my mother interjected. "Hope to know, son. Maybe your wife has a sore throat. Let Mother represent, Wa'alaikumussalam Warahmatullahi Wabarakaatuh."
Reza approached and kissed her hand.
"Son, your husband's coming home. Kiss the hands."
"Sorry, Bund. It's still covid season."
"We've all been vaccinated."
"Yes still, must take a shower and clean first. If you need self-isolation, it's fourteen days."
"I got dengue fever, honey. Not covid infected. My test results were negative, too. And my DBD is also healed."
I put my shoulders together, still without looking. "No debate. Mandatory self-isolation. Do not go near and do not enter the room, danger to children. Already, yeah. Nara go to the room first." I closed the door of the kitchen cabinet in front of me, then walked to the sink, washed my hands.
"please understand. There are still wounds there. Patience" my mother advised him.
"Yes, Bund. Reza knows and will follow his will. Reza clean up first."
"Does that happen to me too?" ask Ihsan. "Well, bother, dong. Time for isolation?"
I passed by, not seeing the focus on her that I missed.
Sorry, Mas. I didn't mean to be evil. It's just, right now I can't seem to control myself. The pain and all your lies all along were like bitter pills that traumatized me so much to go back to swallowing. I'm afraid you still keep a lot of bitter pill grains for me.
But I can't deny, I'm relieved he's been discharged from the hospital, meaning he's been declared cured of his illness.
I who went straight into the room found my children awake, as if they felt the presence of his father. The hands and feet both moved agilely, as if showing me that they were happy for their father's return.
"You know Papa's coming home, huh? You guys miss Papa? Hm? But not close yet, yeah. Mama has to isolate your Papa first. It's okay, right? Patience, yes...." Patience, because Mama is still not ready to get close to your Papa.
Really, I had no intention of separating Reza from her children. I was just anticipating that he would not take advantage of his children to get close to me. And it really starts on reflex.
I closed my eyes and felt a hot melt running down my cheeks. "I'm sorry, God. I was just protecting myself. Maybe my way is wrong, but I don't mean to be a bad wife to a husband."
"You're not being disobedient, honey. I see," the voice behind the door made me flinch in shock.
Well, he eavesdropped. "Don't come near..," I cried. "You're obliged to be self-isolated for fourteen days."
"Yes, just calm down. Just fourteen days, right?"
Ew! After fourteen days, what will happen? The question came to my mind. Ah, I'm too paranoid to think about and worry about God's destiny in the future.
Stop, Nara. Just do what God will tell you.
If I were his match, anything and anyone would not be able to possibly get me out of our marriage bond. And vice versa. If we are not fooled, however, he hides the rottenness and justifies the various ways of defending me, the Lord will show me the way - the way to escape the blasphemy of love. That must be how I thought.
But I'm glad you're home. I still love you so much....