
I took a deep breath and tried to calm down. "Before you tell me, I'll ask. And please, answer my question honestly. Hmm?"
"OK, please. What do you want to ask?"
"Honestly, am I still your wife? Has our contract not been severed until this second?"
"Yes," said Reza, he nodded. "You're still my wife. We are still a legitimate, lawful couple, and our commitments are completely unbroken."
I nodded and was a little relieved. "Then what, Mom? What do you want to explain?"
Now it was Reza's turn to take a deep breath. He made me shudder. It seemed, what my husband was trying to convey was really something heavy.
"It depends on how you look at it. It will feel small if you think it is like that. And on the contrary, it would be devastating if you react to it like... You understand, right? Like your usual character. Like Inara who has been - - who is often emotional and overflowing. Don't be like that. Please, don't be like that. Please?"
I nodded, I understand. "I'll try to calm down" I said.
"It's about what happened that night. Ihsan already explained it to me, and we have absolutely no idea where Aarin got the information from. Because Ihsan said, that night Aarin was with him. That means Aarin got information from someone who was at the scene. So, there are two possibilities: there may be eyewitnesses or it could be the perpetrator himself who witnessed it, or, it could be, he said, Aarin was just second-guessing and the coral origin of the story - which just happened to be exactly like the story of that night. I don't know."
I thought for a moment about what I caught based on Reza's explanation. If Kayla and she were still there when Reza came, it would mean Kayla told Aarin what she had seen. But it feels like Kayla might have gone too late. If he tells it to someone else, it's the same as giving someone else a hint that he's the culprit. And if she told Aarin what she knew, why did Kayla vilify Aarin yesterday? Why did he expose Aarin's depravity to me? Are Aarin and Kayla also close, like Aarin who is close to Salsya? This puzzle has no meeting point, I thought.
I'm nodding. "Yes. Continue."
"OKAY. Just so you stay calm. Look, I think it's possible that Aarin was just the origin of the story and it just so happened that the essay was in line with the story that night. We'll just take it that way. But...."
I frowned at the sight of Reza who suddenly fell silent. "What?"
"I confess that I fulfilled Salsya's wish that night. I kissed her forehead and hugged her. I'm sorry."
It was just an opening, I'm sure. Of course I said that I didn't bother about it. For, feeling it or not, Reza must have done it for the sake of - so that Salsya would not linger in suffering with her death. "I forgive you for that. Even if you're forced to say you love her, I can forgive that, too."
But Reza shook her head with teary eyes. He made me worry again.
"Why are you crying?" my many. "You didn't say that because you had to? Da? What... is that really how you feel about Salsya? You really love Salsya, Mas?"
Again, he shook his head. "No. That's not. But I. I want to explain. if the pledge of love in question is. I mention his name in ijab-"
Plaque!