Loving Paralyzed Men
Akira Olivia D's. Abraham

Morning, on the third day Susan came marked by the sound of a new bell. Akira realizes that someone has changed his old bell.

Akira looks riled up, waiting for Dimas to finish his bath. Dimas had hired someone else on duty to bathe him. A middle-aged man named Agus.

When Dimas had finished his bath, Akira asked him, "Dim, have you changed my doorbell?"

"I'm replacing it with the latest model." Dimas looked at Akira, as if he was expecting a thank-you note from Akira, "you seem to be in dire need of a new bell, so I called someone, asking to replace the bell with a more modern one." Continue Dimas.

Dimas had only been at Akira's house for two days, and was now beginning to take over everything.

'Still like the old Dimas.'

Akira bit his lower lip, trying to hold back his emotions. He tried to speak calmly.

"I'm sure you mean well, but please, don't buy anything for me or my house." Akira.

"Didn't you like the sound? I think his voice is really cool right now."

"The sound is good, but that's not the problem. When I told Sofia not to renovate my house, my words were also on you. I want to renovate my own house when I have money and free time."

"Then don't think of it as a gift for you. I replaced it to save my hearing. Your bell's too noisy." Shouting Dimas.

Dimas was unable to understand what was at the core of Akira's talk. Akira just wants, no one else has the right to manage his life.

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Dimas was at Akira's house for a week. Akira today intends to spend his time where Dimas lies.

Akira wore a bandana and light blue shirt and shorts. He brought paint and brushes into Dimas' room. Intending to renovate the room while looking at Dimas who was doing therapy with Rama.

Even from a distance, Akira can see the change of the arm muscles of Dimas, look stronger under the therapy given Rama. Akira tries to focus on the work he does, not wanting to keep looking at Dimas who is lying with a chest full of sweat after doing therapy sessions that Rama helped.

Blankets cover the stomach to the feet Dimas. Akira thought 'how could Dimas be naked?'

Akira tried to dispel his mischievous thoughts, then his face turned red when he saw Dimas also found himself staring at Dimas.

Dimas calls Akira to come closer.

"I think I need your help."

"What can I help you with?" Ask Akira.

"I have to pay for something. Sam's already set up a check, and just needs my signature. But as you can see, I can't quite sign a check or a file." Dimas.

"Then, what can I do?" Ask Akira wonder.

"You can replace me to sign it. Your name's still on that signature card." Answer Dimas.

Akira does not believe that Dimas still has his name in Dimas's bank account. This means that whenever Akira wants to take money using a check, he can do it anytime.

"Why?" Akira asked with question marks.

"Because I haven't changed the check format." Answer the original Dimas.

"Although you never want to support me financially first." Akira Ejek.

Dimas looked at Akira with embarrassment, "I plan to give you the power to use it anytime and anywhere." Reply Dimas.

"But it won't make me want to use your money." Akira said while painting the wall next to Dimas' bed carelessly.

"I know that now! Don't be so hard on me, I'm a changed man." Dimas.

"All right, I'll sign that check later. After my work is done." Akira said as he showed his hands filled with the light gray paint.

"You can use my atm card too." Dimas.

"I might get out of control if I use your atm, and spend a lot of your money." Reply Akira.

Akira refocused on his task. He even took the stairs and began painting the upper wall

Dimas looked at Akira who was painting, then asked, "how can you get energy and share your time to renovate this big money old house?"

"It's cheap entertainment for me. I can have fun just by painting and installing the interior of this house. At first I only planned to buy and renovate this house and sell it and get a lot of profit. But, I fell in love with this old building and now want to have it." Akira said while staying focused on painting the walls.

"What is your house?" Ask Dimas.

"Under this floor there is a kitchen, dining room and two other ripples. I don't know what to do with that room. Upstairs there was a master room with a private bathroom, there was room to work, three other bedrooms, and two other bathrooms as well."

"Wow, this house is so big to be occupied by one person like you."

"I think I'm ready to adopt some kids to live with me here and live happily ever after with some adorable kids." Reply Akira.

"I don't think you want a child. By the way if I don't want to have children."

Given each of her togetherness and the incompatibility of the two in the past, it made Akira feel in no mood. Akira has always wanted children, but his relationship with Dimas has never gone well, making Akira afraid to have children.

"It's not a good idea for both of us to have children." Akira.

"Yes, you're right." Reply Dimas.

'Dimas' voice sounded a little moody, ' Akira thought.

"It would be a mess if we had kids, given what's happening to us now." Akira.

"Then what about your plan to adopt a child?"

"I still have to wait until the house is finished in the renovation and ready for me to stay with the kids later."

"Are you thinking of being the only mother of the children you're going to adopt? Will the authorities allow you?" Ask Dimas again.

"Of course I'm going to be a single mother to my children. For approved or not, I don't know yet. But at least I've tried, and convinced the authorities, that I deserve to be a mother to the children I'm going to adopt." Clearly Akira while continuing to direct the paint brush up and down.

"Many children need the affection of a parent, even a single mother. I thought I'd be a good mother. I just need to work harder, after I'm alone."

"Have you thought this through?"

"As soon as I'm ready, I will." Akira stopped painting for a while, as he continued to look at the wall, "i know, I will definitely miss what it is like to give birth. It's a bond of love, parenting, that makes you a parent."

Akira's voice rattled, and he felt ashamed that he was too mellow in front of Dimas.

Akira never told anyone of his wishes. Then why did he have to tell Dimas everything?

Maybe Akira still hopes to be able to knit the future with Dimas to have a child. Akira then changed the subject.

"How do you feel about the therapy you're doing?"

"Everything feels slow. I don't feel any change."

"Rama did his best. I see you're getting stronger now." Reply Akira.

"He does not live in my body. From inside here I can feel no change happening."

Dimas looks frustrated as Akira descends from the top of the stairs and approaches him.

"Doctor Jerry says everything's been very good Dim."

"I knew. But there's no certainty as to when I'm like this, and whether I can actually be cured."

"Patience, as time goes by, you'll be cured. Oh yeah, where's the check I need to sign?" Ask Akira.

Akira felt strange, when he had to write his name with the words 'Ny. Akira Olivia D's. Abraham then put his signature on the check paper worth hundreds of millions.