Loving Paralyzed Men
I Love You

Akira decides to make this night a night that will be his beautiful memory with Dimas. Because after all, later, Dimas will return to his home after he recovers.

Slowly, Akira undressed Dimas, then put a small towel into a bucket filled with warm water.

Akira then wiped Dimas's back with the wet towel, then rubbed Dimas' back slowly with soap. Switch to chest to calf and leg Dimas. Very carefully Akira rubbed Dimas' heel.

There is a sense of sadness and happiness in Akira's heart for being able to bathe Dimas for the first time after their separation. Especially at this time Dimas who is experiencing paralysis.

As Akira was about to finish wiping the water on Dimas's body with a dry towel, Dimas held Akira's waist slowly.

"about...." Said Dimas.

"Yes..." Akira stopped his activities.

"Thank you for everything."

Akira just smiled and looked down, without warning he immediately kissed Dimas' lips. Dimas also returns Akira's kiss.

"Don't come here, let's take me to bed." Dimas.

Both of them returned to bed. Until both reach the peak of pleasure.

'This is the third, and could be the last.' Akira thought.

The two stared at each other deeply, there were tremors in the hearts of the two.

"Dim, I'm sorry if I've been guilty of you all this time. And for whatever it is, I'll always be there for you." Akira hugged Dimas.

"I love you Dimas." Akira finally said.

However, for some reason Dimas felt something else.

"I don't need you to pity Akira."

'Pity? God, how could you refuse my word of love? She thinks the feelings I have for her are just pity? I never pityed him, not even if he died. So all this time I was just lying to myself, I believed that she cared about me, believing that she changed for her love for me? Stupidly I thought Dimas could change.'

Dimas does believe his own mind that what Akira has been doing all this time is only because Akira has pity on him and not because of love. Dimas was indeed too dizzying his own problems and ignored all the intimacy they had done.

Akira felt empty, even feeling no hope for their relationship.

"You're in a room that turns you into self-pity Dim." Reply Akira. "And you're too blind to realize it." Akira.

"I'm sorry Akira. I just don't want to hurt you. But this relationship didn't work out for us." Reply Dimas.

"All right." Akira's tears are still. He turned his body back to Dimas.

The two fell silent, while Akira dissolved in his thoughts. After he made sure that Dimas was sleeping soundly, Akira went to the bathroom and locked the door.

In the bathroom, he cried shedding all the vexation and sadness of his heart.

Morning....

Both were on board to return to Akira's home. Several months of therapy, Dimas's condition improved, all inseparable from the role of Akira who always supported him.

During this time Akira took care of her, fed her, helped her up the van, helped her to get into bed, even Akira helped to bathe her.

But, what did Akira get. Akira does it all because he still loves Dimas. And he also thought that Dimas had the same feeling.

'If Akira had said that a few days ago, I might have replied to him. But last night, ah it's too late. I couldn't possibly swallow my own saliva Dimas murmured.

He looked at the view from above the altitude through the plane window. While Akira, who was sitting next to him was just silent, and seemed to dissolve with his own mind.

The trip with Akira this time made Dimas realize, that he had been only concerned about himself. Even if he wants to convince Akira back, that he has changed and made himself fit for Akira, then Dimas needs a long time again.

'I will never be worthy of him. But at least I've given him freedom, as he's always wanted.'

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"Good morning..."

Akira greeted the Invesco members who had come to meet with Akira at a meeting room available at the hotel.

Akira greeted everyone present and sat down in the chair provided. Since last night Akira has prepared everything for this meeting.

'Although not perfect, at least I tried my best.'

An OB gives Akira and the other meeting members a cup of coffee. And coffee is the third cup of coffee that Akira has drunk since at home. The new wall clock shows at eight.

"Let's start, Miss Akira." Said one of the Invesco members.

Akira begins his presentation by telling his business history and how his business will be.

"To further my efforts, I need investors who are willing to sponsor me and fund me to participate in a fashion show that will be held in two months." Akira.

Akira stared at the faces of the Invesco members as he spoke.

"I stand here to say that my efforts have potential in the future. If you go to page four, there you can see the progress and sales data of various types of fashion that I have managed to do." Akira continued with confidence.

The members of Invesco heard Akira's explanation patiently, without question. Makes Akira think that they are not at all interested in what Akira is saying.

"How is everything, is there anything to ask?" Akira.

"Thank you Miss Akira, we'll contact you next." A member of Invesco.

After that they all came out without saying anything else leaving Akira alone in the room.

"Stupid..." Akira said annoyed.

"Of course they're stupid if they don't want to invest in your business." Said Dwi Harris who suddenly entered the room.

"I don't know any more Wi, looks like they won't." Reply Akira.

The woman who looks fashionable is Akira's best friend and coworker. He helps Akira to market all the fashion that Akira produces.

"Calm down Akira, I can definitely find the right investor for you." Said Dwi while massaging Akira's shoulder. "It seems you're too tired Akira. You have to spoil yourself. How about we go to the spa." Dwi.

"I can't indulge myself yet, if I haven't found an investor. I hope you can find the right investor sooner for me. Because my time is running low."

"Of course Akira. I'll find it for you. Now all you have to do is relax. Don't be too burdened. You really look skinny and poorly groomed. Oh yeah how's your relationship with Dimas after your trip to S town yesterday?"

"Here you go, don't talk about him anymore, I'm dizzy. Better get out of this room now." Akira said as he walked carrying a bag and a map in his hand.