My First Night With My Boss
44. Lying for Your Goodness

When she woke up, Lyra again did not find Rigel lying next to her. All he saw was a pillow and a waker clock placed not far from his bed. The time is still at 05:30, but Rigel is no longer there beside him. Lyra came down from the bed.

Likewise with the bathroom, whose door was open but Rigel also did not see there. Lyra came out of the room and heard the person cooking in the kitchen. Rigel's second house is not as big as his main house, so people who are cooking in the kitchen can be heard clearly when Lyra comes out of the room.

Lyra also stepped into the kitchen, because the waiter who was cooking it would probably know with Rigel's whereabouts. But when the step was already in the kitchen, which was thought Lyra the waiter who was cooking but it turned out to be Rigel.

"It's too early, but you've been cooking. Since when did you wake up?" Tanya Lyra approached.

Rigel smiled as Lyra approached him. "Maybe since then."

Kitchen counters are very messy, seasonings and ingredients for cooking are splattered on the table. Rigel is really very trying to process food, even though the kitchen counter is not tasty in view.

Lyra looked at him. "Looks like you need help, do I need help?"

"No need, after all I deliberately cooked just to prepare breakfast for you. If you help me, this food will not be my own food. So, you just have to sit and wait for me."

"Hm, okay." Lyra sat down at the dinner table.

Rigel seemed so focused on cooking that his gaze was only on the cell phone and the food he was processing. He cooks only with knowledge from videos on his phone, you could say Rigel is not good at cooking. Maybe cooking is not a habit for Rigel, because it's unusual that Rigel cooks so messy.

Many leftovers are wasted, such as vegetables that are cut in half and the rest he threw away. Or like materials that fall on the floor until they are finally disposed of as well. Lyra to the point of laughing looking at Rigel who was cooking was so unprofessional.

Even twice Rigel repeated his cooking. He used it twice to empty the food. Lyra also shook her head to see Rigel who panicked when the food he made was always burnt.

"What are you doing, to the point that you empty your food twice" Lyra said with a laugh.

"I'm making a burrito. I was gonna make you an American breakfast. It's possible that by making you a burrito, it could remind you of your college days there. But it looks like this really failed, really" Rigel said in an annoyed bend staring at the charred burrito on the table.

"When I'm good at making it, but you don't want to be helped. Because you wanted to make me breakfast. What if you made the food you could" Lyra suggested.

Instantly Rigel scratched his nape even though it did not feel itchy. "I'm just good at cooking eggs and fries. Even if it's just a clipped egg and fries, but it tastes good, even Jayden likes it so much."

"If that's all you can do, why not just do it. If Jayden likes it, I'd love it, too."

Although disappointed can not make Lyra burrito, but at least Rigel can make Lyra breakfast. The breakfast he made was simple.

But when they start breakfast, Rigel seems to have no appetite. Just a few mouthfuls he devoured his breakfast, the rest he used only to play with his fork. The food he made was very simple, just a half-cooked egg accompanied by fries. But the food he made was a special meal that could remind him of Jayden.

His heart was really made sick when he saw the food he made could not be eaten together with Jayden. Rigel was only one day at Jayden's house, but it felt like he had been living for months. In his heart and mind he always wondered what he was doing there or what he was crying when he remembered it. Moreover, Jayden was taken by force, and carried by him not directly by his own grandfather but by his grandfather's men. Until now Rigel's heart and mind were very chaotic because he could not stop thinking about his nephew.

Sontak Lyra was made worried when staring at Rigel let out her tears. "Are you okay? Looks like you don't have appetite, is it because you're thinking too much about Jayden."

And again Rigel always smiled to cover his sadness like last night. "I'm just thinking about my work piling up."

"If it's a job you're thinking about, then why are you crying?"

Rigel instead of answering honestly, he lied to cover up his grief from Lyra. "My eyes hurt a little because I slept too late last night. Looks like I'll have to take a shower so I won't be late for the office." Rigel then shuffled from his seat. "If you're done with breakfast, you can take a shower right away because the waiter's already prepared your clothes for you."

Rigel does not want to be honest, he just does not want to make Lyra sad because of it. Moreover, Rigel was saddened by thinking too late about Jayden. He was only afraid that if he told the truth, Lyra would probably say the word split like yesterday. Rigel also chose to cover his sadness from Lyra and silence when asked about his condition.

But even though Rigel covered his sadness, but Lyra knew very well when his sad look was clearly visible in his eyes. Lyra could do nothing and could not calm Rigel's heart, if Rigel continued to avoid it when asked.

**

At seven o'clock in the morning Lyra and Rigel went to the office. During his journey, Rigel's face looked pale like a sick person in general. His eyes also looked like a sleep-deprived person, even his body to the point of sweating like an exhausted person.

"It looks like you don't look okay. We better go to the doctor" said Lyra.

"I'm very healthy and well, why would I go to the doctor."

Rigel always says fine, but Lyra knows that Rigel is not doing well. Everything Rigel has can Lyra feel. Starting from the look of his face until when he said Lyra can feel if Rigel is not okay. When compared to Rigel's haughty attitude, Lyra preferred the attitude of Rigel that covered his condition from Lyra. If Rigel is Lyra's lover, Rigel should be able to pour out all of his heart on Lyra. And there's no need to cover everything up, just because it's for Lyra's sake or her relationship. Lyra until she sighed annoyed with Rigel's attitude.

By covering everything from Lyra, maybe for Rigel is the best way for Lyra also not to feel it. But the way is wrong, it is precisely this way Lyra even more sad.

"Nothing needs to be covered up. I know you're not okay, I know that you're devastated by Jay's passing. And I also know that your body is not okay. Can you be frank about your situation," Lyra joked.

Rigel let out a rough sigh. "I told you I was okay, Lyra. Can you trust me" he said raising his voice.

Lyra was furious with Rigel who raised her voice. He also reflexes his voice. "I can't trust you, if what I'm seeing is all so obvious." Lyra then sighed. "Did you cover it all up because of my kindness. For me this is not a good thing for me. Precisely because of this, I became more and more worried about you. I'm your lover but like no one else needs to know about you."

"Yes it's true that I'm still really devastated by Jay's passing, and it's true that my body is in pain. But, what after I tell you, you won't offend like yesterday. I lied on purpose when I was okay because I was afraid that you'd want to split with me just because of my kindness."

"I've tried all night to convince myself to stay by your side. And also I'll try to be your leaning spot. Butwhat? You're making me like everyone else. I don't like it when you don't come out like this. If you're sad I should know and if you're sick I should know."

At once Lyra cried while looking away at the window beside her.