Not Nackal, Nurul!
Like the Mother of the Bladder

The air-cooled taxi made Nurul's sweaty hot skin cool down.  Thus with the contents of his head that burst into a nearly irregular heartbeat.  “Quiet, Maria... Quiet, Maria.. Lu great,” Inner Nurul.  He was trying to change his mind which was actually just lying to himself.

Nurul got off the taxi with a mediocre face like nothing happened.  But, behind that his lips still trembled.  Nurul hopes that no one will demand that he speak at this time.

Nurul got into the house by speeding up his steps.  Sometimes he dips.  As soon as he arrived in his room, closed it and locked it.  Nurul slammed her body into a super soft bed and then drowned her face on a pillow.

“Nurul... how dirty you are, Nurul!” he murmured while squeezing the sheets firmly.  Nurul was in the shadows with what he had just done.  He was never this sorry after making out with men. In contrast to doing so with Tommy, he does all the embarrassing things without deep regret because he loves Tommy.

TOK. TOK…

NURUL…

Nurul knew the voice of the person knocking on the door of his room.  He was not expecting it at this moment.  But, if Nurul did not let her in and meet him, there might be other repercussions that were more undesirable to her.  It was the voice of Aunt Lupita, of course.

Nurul got up from his bed and wiped away his tears.  He looked in the mirror and examined his face.  He wiped away the rest of his tears, inhaled a deep breath and exhaled slowly.  Nurul then tried to smile, but his smile was excessive and he repeated it with the intensity of a more relaxed smile.  Everything he did in front of the mirror.

After that, Nurul opened the door to his room and faced Aunt Lupita with her usual expression.  “You're home, honey?  How did Mama not hear you coming?” said Aunt Lupita in front of Nurul's room.

“You're all right, sweetheart?” aunty Lupita asked as she continued to look into Nurul's eyes.  Nurul's face was ordinary, but the eyes were the windows of a heart that could never lie.  Nurul smile.  “Alright, Ma,” said Nurul avoid the eyes of Aunt Lupita.

“Actually Mama saw you coming home by taxi.  What's going on, honey?  Why didn't Brian take you home?” questions that undermined Nurul's emotions.  He doesn't want to talk about it.  Her lips twitched, and Nurul pretended to cough to cover up her sad expression.

Aunt Lupita wiped the hair that fell on Nurul's temple, hooking it behind Nurul's ears.  “Cream the same Mama what happened, Darling..Mama never let you down to be your listener, did not?” said Aunt Lupita.

Nurul's crying broke. Aunt Lupita was like her own biological parents to her.  Moreover, Nurul's mother has died.  Aunty Lupita's concern makes Nurul miss the figure of the mother and Aunt Lupita always be kind to him.

“Nurul... Nurul fought with Brian, Ma,” said Nurul held back the rest of her tears that had not been spilled.  “Attributable?  Why fight?” ask Aunt Lupita.  He suspected the problem was not that simple.  For Nurul, Brian was the guy he used to work with, but maybe Nurul shed tears just because he was struggling with Brian.  Nurul is a smart woman, she can leave Brian at any time without this kind of melancholy.

“Ma, but Nurul almost met Icha.  What if we go to the park tomorrow?  So there it is.. “ said Nurul trying to divert the conversation, trying to toughen up in his current sadness.  Aunt Lupita then held both cheeks Nurul, she pointed her face towards the eyes of Aunt Lupita.

“Do not talk about Icha again.  Mama wants to hear about you, dear,” said Aunt Lupita with a piercing look.  “Nurul... Nurul has not been able to meet Kak Brian, Ma,” said Nurul.  “What happened, Honey?” tanya Aunt Lupita is curious.

Nurul told me what happened.  All the stories he did half-heartedly because of reluctance and shame towards Aunt Lupita.  But, Aunt Lupita kept encouraging him to tell the whole story of what had happened.  Certainly not on the part with Tommy.  Everything he said was about him and Brian.

Tears of Aunt Lupita dripping.  “Very not worth it, dear.  Your sacrifice has been so far not worth it.  Mama will end this soon, dear,” said Aunt Lupita.  “Don't, Ma... Nurul please don't!  Nurul will finish this.  Nurul beg,” Nurul said.

“Nurul!  What exactly has Sudarsono done to you that you are so eager to finish to the end?  Mama knows you're doing this all with compulsion, Mama knows!” aunty Lupita.  Nurul did not open his voice.  He just wants this mission to not stop here alone, without any results.

“Just Mama will stop this!  Mama will talk to Sudarsono.. “ said Aunt Lupita.  “Ma, Nurul please!” nurul said whining very pitifully.  “Good.  If that's what you want.  But Mama will never let you act alone again!  Mama doesn't want you to be a victim.  Something like that happened with Brian can't happen again.  Understand?” said Aunt Lupita.

“Nurul understood, Ma,” replied Nurul.  Nurul also felt relieved because he had spilled some of the burden of his mind.  Aunt Lupita is really felt as her own biological mother who can make Nurul comfortable in times of need.  

Aunt Lupita hugged Nurul back.  He loved and cared for Nurul.  Her tears showed how much she regretted what had happened to Nurul.  He did not want Nurul to be the months of brash men like Brian. He cares so much because he already considers Nurul like his own biological child.

Nurul told me what Brian said about Icha.  However, for Aunt Lupita is not the time to believe Brian's words.  “From now on, we will rely on Rudi's help.  Rudi was once close to Icha.  He is also a polite man.  What happened between you and Brian is unlikely to happen again, dear.  From now on befriend Nak Rudi.  Now just focus the information on him, huh?  Brian's words do not think again,” said Aunt Lupita.

“If Icha is found later, Mama will make a calculation with Brian.  Let him know the taste.  Mama believes Brian must also dare to be insolent to Icha.  We're gonna get Brian in jail for almost desecrating you two.  Mama will also convince Sudarsono if all this time Brian has made Icha escape.  We'll do it with the help of Icha.  So, now we focus on Icha first through Rudi.  Okay, Honey?” said Aunt Lupita.

“Iya, Mother.  Nurul understood,” answered Nurul according to.