Not Nackal, Nurul!
Finding out the Truth (revised)

Nurul told Ustadz Beni and Nurul's father that Mr. Sudarsono had blackmailed him by bringing the matter of Nurul's mother's death.  “You agree to their offer?” ask Nurul's father in a loud voice.  “You agree to lie?” continued.

“Tuan Sudarsono did not give Nurul a choice, sir,” said Nurul swallowed saliva.  “Pak, there is something you do not know about how mom died,” continued Nurul.  When Nurul finished telling his father about his concoction and found his dead mother witnessed by the owner of the foundation, his father's face was as pale as a corpse.

His father threw his body into the chair, his eyes glaring.  To Nurul's surprise, his father began to laugh, which was tinged with bitterness and anger.  “Mr!” nurul said, rushing to him.  “Bapak should be able to hold back.  Nurul knows this sounds terrible, but. “ Nurul said.

“Force Mr, Nurul.”  His father's voice was stained with pain.  “Bapak is just angry at himself.  You have distanced yourself from you all this time and therefore you have been under the influence of the evil Mr. Sudarsono.  Though actually all this time you can prevent it from happening,” said Nurul's father.

“Meanour?” ask Nurul.  Nurul's father looked at Nurul with a sad look, then grabbed Nurul's hand.  “Nurul, dear daughter of Mr. Father, we have been saving this problem for too long.  It's time for you to tell you what you know about your mother's death,” Nurul's father said.

*

While from Tommy's side, he had to make a decision.  Tommy immediately returned to Jakarta by leaving his car and driver.  He flew because there was no Nurul by his side.  There was no reason for him to take a long trip, because there was nothing to enjoy on this trip.

Tommy still doesn't know what to do.  It would have been much easier if he could have found a confidant in East Java who was assigned to find information about Nurul's life in his village.  His confidant may be able to tell him something that explains Nurul's despair, but that information has not been obtained.

Tommy has arrived in Jakarta again.  Now he had to decide whether he should immediately go to Mr. Sudarsono's residence and confront him in his house.  Or should he wait until he hears from his confidant?

Tommy explores the familiar places he once passed with Nurul. Tommy seems to still remember the moment with Nurul.  How amazing how lust can give a pleasant color to its environment, not as usual.

Tommy groaning.  For God's sake, he spoke poetic words.  It was the impact he experienced because of the words of love Nurul said.  He felt it again, a strong heartbeat.  Love's.  Nurul.  But, Nurul is not willing to marry her if Tommy asks Mr. Sudarsono a question.

Over the course of a few days listening to Nurul's theories about what built a marriage so firmly, Tommy knew that Nurul was serious about his threats.  Nurul threatens there will never be a marriage without love.

Tommy was very upset.  He could have ransacked Mr. Sudarsono's house to find out what secret the old man was holding.  Or else he kept his mouth shut and let Nurul face Mr. Sudarsono alone.

Nurul is not a worthy opponent for Mr. Sudarsono.  Nurul has no power, no wealth, no title, nothing to use against Mr. Sudarsono.  Nurul should be grateful that Tommy was willing to get involved for his sake.

But Nurul didn't do it.  In Nurul's complicated mind, Tommy's intervention only shows how unconcerned Tommy is about Nurul's whereabouts.

In fact, Tommy cares too much about Nurul, so much so that the thought that Mr. Sudarsono knew bad things about Nurul had made his blood freeze. What Nurul does is likely not what matters.  Nurul her lover never did anything truly evil.  Tommy was sure of that.

Satan has mastered Nurul's very strange logic and his pleas and rejection of Tommy are said to be the reason for Nurul's survival.  “What gives you the right to decide what's best for me when you don't know the whole story?”  Nurul's words were ringing in Tommy's mind.

Tommy groaning.  Nurul won't tell him the whole story.  How could Nurul make him just stand by and watch Mr. Sudarsono destroy Nurul's life?

Tommy decides to discover the truth from Mr. Sudarsono and Nurul will marry him, no matter what Nurul thinks.  Nurul can never threaten Tommy.  Tommy is a conglomerate, Nurul's father would have gone mad if he had allowed Nurul to reject such a lucrative proposal.

What if the chairman of the pesantren foundation rejects Tommy as his son-in-law?  What if Nurul's father is as principled as his daughter insists?  What if Nurul's father supported Nurul and refused to support Tommy's lawsuit?

Tommy grunting.  So let Nurul be destroyed.  Let Nurul live his life with shame.  It's not Tommy's fault that Nurul acted so foolishly.  Tommy has done more than anyone could have imagined.  He does not want a wife.  He did not need a wife at all and he better live his own life without a wife.

Tommy almost believed his selfish thoughts.  Tommy is still circling along the wheels of a taxi car that has not stopped at its destination.  The truth is that Tommy couldn't stand the thought of him not being able to marry Nurul.  He could not if he could never have Nurul in his life.  The truth almost believed his whole body.

Consider it fate, but since the time Nurul was wrongly picked up while in Jember, Nurul has been bound to him forever.  A destiny.  The thought of the possibility that he would lose Nurul as this matter had gnawed at him like a gaping wound.

Tommy's upset.  This is what happens when a man lets his emotions affect him.  It was not his thoughts of reason, it was precisely incongruity that controlled his fate.

Nurul thinks of using a seductive embodiment of love to make Tommy want himself so much that Tommy will do anything for him.  Tommy's father made that mistake first.

Tommy straightened his body.  That's not true.  Tommy's father never heard the words of love from Tommy's mother.  His mother always treated his father with hatred.  Her mother ignored the incredible precious gift her father offered her.  His mother regarded the gift as something ordinary and never returned the favor by handing the same to her father.

“Not love is devastating, but due to lack of love,” words belonging to Nurul fill Tommy's head.

A terrifying awareness surrounded Tommy.  All this time he considered himself a wiser version of his father.  A man who has learned from his father's example that emotions are dangerous.  However, it was not his father that Tommy had emulated, but his mother.

Whatever Tommy told him, he craved love as Nurul said.  He liked Nurul's confession, stating that Nurul was in love with him.  He absorbed that love like a sponge.  Just like his mother, Tommy wants everything without being willing to reciprocate.  All just fun and no responsibility.

Tommy finally decided to just go home, not to the house of Mr. Sudarsono or elsewhere.