Not Nackal, Nurul!
About Suicide (revised)

Any anger that Nurul should have felt was muted by the fact that Tommy had been willing to make the greatest sacrifice for her, even though Tommy thought that Nurul had taken her mother's life.  The overflowing pleasure had filled Nurul's heart.  “Not a problem anymore, Tom,” Nurul repeated his words calmly.  “But I didn't kill my mother,” he continued.

Nurul's father frowned when he saw Nurul's out-of-place joke, then stared angrily at Mr. Sudarsono.  “No, Nurul did not kill him, my wife committed suicide,” Nurul's father said.

The words surprised everyone, but Nurul fell silent, more because of who said the words than the words.  Now that feeling confident that he has gotten the attention of everyone, Nurul's father added, “And more importantly, I can prove it.”

Grabbing into his pocket, Nurul's father quickly picked up a folded piece of paper.  “You see, my wife left a note about her suicide,” Nurul's father said.

Once again, Nurul felt a relief coming at him.  He still felt guilty because the artificial ingredients he gave had killed his mother.  But, this story makes a difference when it finds out that her mother not only succumbs to the pain that suddenly strikes her and takes too much of the medicine that Nurul carelessly leaves nearby.

The thorough explanation in the message about the reasons her mother decided to commit suicide proves that her mother had planned her own death.  He planned and committed suicide.  Nurul can't blame her mother or herself for that.

“What does Ustadz mean?” mr. Sudarsono said suspiciously.  “Nobody ever knew about this kind of letter,”.

Nurul's father blushed.  “I know.  It proves not only about sin, but also a terrible mistake,” said Nurul's father.  He hesitated for a moment, as if reluctant to reveal so much he did in front of so many strangers.  Then, he sighed, seemingly realizing that he had no other choice.

“On the day the deceased died, when I went home and found the owner of the foundation with Nurul, it can be said I was very disappointed and shaken.  I locked myself in my room for a while and I found this letter.

Nurul rushed to accompany his father, feeling all his suffering again.  His father leaned on Nurul for support.  “My first reaction was horror.  My wife has committed a great sin.  Maybe the late house is not well received on his side,” said Nurul's father.

Nurul's father paused for a moment, overcoming his emotions.  “And even worse was the understanding that his illness was so painful that he thought of doing such an impossible act,”.

Nurul's father looked at his daughter's face.  “Then, I started thinking about other things, selfish things.  If the suicide was widespread, I would lose the trust of people in me to lead the foundation.  Then how does it affect my daughter?  It is certain that it will be impossible for him to marry or have a kind of pleasant life with a family predicate like this,” said Nurul's father.

Nurul's father fell silent, then raised his head with a stubborn expression.  “I'm not proud to do it, but I don't think it's wrong to do these kinds of things.  No matter what the circumstances, that was when I decided to keep it a secret, even from Nurul.  I don't think he knew anything about this suicide.  To be honest, none of us are willing to talk about his death,” Nurul's father said.

“Nurul should have also told the truth to Mr.” interrupted Nurul, not wanting to let his father shoulder all the blame himself.  “Nurul just want you to be okay,” said Nurul.

“Bapak also wants to protect you, Nurul.”  His father laughed bitterly.  “So, we were both punished for choosing to be quiet.  I deserve to be punished.”  Nurul's father's voice was cut off.  “But not with my dear daughter.  Had I ever imagined, had I ever thought that Nurul and Mr. Sudarsono did not know or if Mr. Sudarsono would use it to accuse Nurul.”.

“Father will never know,” Nurul assured his father, tears streaming down his cheeks.  Nurul still can't believe when he finds out his father has kept his own dark secret all this time.  No wonder his father could never forget his pain.  His father did it for Nurul.

*

“Nurul dear Mr,” said Nurul.  “Father also love you, Nurul,” reply father Nurul.  “What a touching scene,” said Mr. Sudarsono in a loud voice.  “But such a letter cannot be proof at all.  How do I know that it wasn't Ustadz who wrote?  Or could it have just been written at Nurul's request?” said Mr. Sudarsono.

Nurul's father turned to Mr. Sudarsono.  “You may have power and wealth, Mr. Sudarsono, but even you can't ignore a self-written letter with the hand of a deceased woman.  Anyone who compares it to any other writing will see that this letter was actually written by him,” denied Nurul's father.

“Look, this letter is marked by the date when he left the world and it explains in detail that he plans to end his own life.  That's all solid evidence,” continued Nurul's father.

Mr. Sudarsono may be an asshole, but he's not really stupid.  He shook his head for a moment as he stared through his glasses at all the witnesses to this argument.  “Ustadz thinks that Ustadz has won, including all of you.  Well, maybe I can't prove this murder.  But, that won't stop me from destroying Ustadz and Nurul's lives.  The world will know that Ustadz's wife has committed suicide and Ustadz will not lead the foundation again trying to find work anywhere, ” Sudarsono said.

“I doubt it,” Tommy interrupted.  “Here are three people who are more than willing to give work to Ustadz, emh, I mean Mr.”.  Tommy approached Mr. Sudarsono, lowering his voice while threatening.  “And regarding the scandal, I am sure the world would prefer to know how the daughter of a Mr. Sudarsono has escaped, even reportedly will elope,” Tommy said.

Mr. Sudarsono paled.  “Or maybe,” continued Tommy more fiercely, “I should have told the world how you had taken advantage of the suicide of a foundation chairman to force his daughter into an unwanted disguise.  It will be a very entertaining gossip material in all business and political world dinners,” Tommy said.

What a smart young man.  With a shrewd Tommy can turn things around in Mr. Sudarsono's eyes.  Now Tommy made Mr. Sudarsono think again to continue his short-sightedness.