pancason
Part 45 The Past

The atmosphere of the office this morning was rather sluggish. Maybe it was because me and Vishnu were leaving rather early in the morning, not as usual.

"Mas reza when are you back?" I asked as we walked into the office lobby to the elevator.

"Maybe the day after tomorrow" said vishnu casually.

"Oh that.. "

We entered the elevator, in the elevator there was an office boy wearing a mask, his posture was like vishnu. She clapped once at me as I looked at her.

I don't know why, I feel like I've seen it. His face was no stranger to me. Ups,ralate. Not face. But eyes.

His eyes !!!

I remember this eye sight. Even though she wears a mask, I feel like I've known her for a long time. But I dare not speculate any further. I am afraid of misrecognizing people.

"Let's have a meeting, nay. You're the other one. Tell them too. "

I did not focus on Vishnu's words, and always glanced at the man.

Ting.

The elevator opened, Visnu took my hand and we got out of the elevator. When I turned to the elevator, he was still standing there staring at us.

No way that's him!

Vishnu went into his room, while I went into my room.

As I was going to my desk, I saw a white rose there.

"Vi-why naroh?" ask me to via who is having breakfast at the office.

"Huh? " he's looking up his head,"oh--that? Don't know 'nay. I came there. Kirain from vishnu?"

"Vishnu? Where's possible?"

"Yes, nay. Or .... Secret mayyer's? Cie nayla." ledeknya.

I looked at this bouquet of flowers and searched for the name of the sender.

Nah--meet!

I took a piece of paper that was wrapped between the flowers.

' i miss you, very much.'

Deggs!

My heart rippled through the message. I don't know why my mind is on him. Even though my heart says it's impossible.

" dooor!!" rani patted my back and made me drop the bouquet of flowers. As a result, her flowers and vase fell scattered on the floor.

"Eh-I'm sorry, nay. Duh--so messy that.." I crouched down and picked up some flowers that were still good in my opinion. Rani squats like me.

" squeals.. Again on what? Playing on the ground in the morning?" mega chirps that just came.

"I call OB only ya." exclaimed via then raised the phone handle in front of him and contact OB.

Soon came the OB I met in the elevator. Still with the same appearance, he brought a broom and tools that are usually carried OB to clean the room.

"It's mas. Bersihin ya" pinta via while pointing at the dirty floor.

"Yes, mom. Sorry, sorry.."

Deggs!

My heart rippled to hear him speak like that.

Why is the sound similar?

As he swept the floor, my eyes did not turn to him. The movement kept me watching.

"Mbak. I'm sorry." she went out of my room.

I still sit still. When he got a little bit away, I started to realize. And I'm after him.

"Day!! Nayla!!!" call rani.

I don't care about Rani who keeps shouting my name.

When I got out, the man rushed into the elevator. While pulling the trash.

I chased. Even I was willing to run down the stairs, when the elevator was too long open.

Up downstairs, I saw her walking out of the office with that garbage basket.

" oooooooooo!!!!" I shouted loudly - loudly. No matter what around me I keep seeing me weird.

The man stopped and looked at me. He took off the mask that had covered his face, smiling.

The deg!!

That hero!! No way!!

I even shut my mouth because I couldn't believe what I saw in front of me. Although we were far away, but I clearly saw his face.

He--hero.

At first I doubted. But after I saw it with my own eyes, I was sure.

He kept walking out. And I chased him too. When I get to the terrace of the office lobby. I saw the hero walking continuously across the street.

" hero!!!" yell loudly.

I ran back after him. However, when it was almost to the highway, someone caught me and grabbed me tightly.

"What are you doing anyway???'' ask by raising the tone of his speech because in our place now is very noisy the sound of vehicles passing by.

" hero!! It's hero!!"

He looked in the direction I was pointing, "impossible!! He's not a hero!! I'm sure ,nay!! The hero had died. "he was like yelling at me because I was starting to get out of control.

"Aryan!!! Pleases.. Trust me the same.. He's hero!! I saw his face.. I can't be mistaken." I tried to convince Arya.

Arya was silent even though she still held me tightly.

" has. We go back. I'm sure, he's not a hero" said arya more slowly.

I nodded and cried hysterically.

" no! I'm sure he's a hero!! It's hero!!" my crying became more and more. And made arya embrace me even more tightly.

"Denger,nay. I know, you're still losing heroes. But you have to accept the truth. The hero is dead. So he's not a hero.ngerti?" he said it was full of emphasis in every sentence.

I didn't answer anything just to keep crying in Arya's arms.

Arya kisses my forehead, drops again into both balls of my eyes alternately while wiping my tears.

"Please.. You have to be strong, Jay. You believe me, right? He's not a hero.. I'm certain. Had the hero been alive, the first person he met, I would have been. I'm sure!!"

I tried to stop my crying and start thinking more clearly. It is true what Aria said. But, his face was very similar to a hero. The look in his eyes, his smile, all reminded me of the hero.

Arya took my hand back inside. In the lobby we met Vishnu who kept seeing us.

He approached and looked at me in wonder.

"Nay, why?"ask vishnu curious.

"Later I'll tell you a story, nu.we take nayla in first. Let her calm down." pinta arya.

I could only keep my head down with tears I couldn't contain.

Memories of heroes continue to stick to my heart and mind. Even now, I'm not sure if anyone else can get into my heart after the hero. Even if there is a vishnu that is very similar to heroes, but the feeling I feel for him is not the same as when I was with heroes. Although arya... I'm not so sure about him either.

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The three of us are in Vishnu's room. Rani arrived - suddenly barged in here and was excited to see me silent with her eyes moist.

"Why the hell are you, Jay? Why were you kayaking earlier? You see what?" ask rani to investigate.

I just shook my head slowly with empty eyes.

Arya and Vishnu could only keep quiet while continuing to look at me pity.

"You just go home yes, nay" pinta vishnu while approaching me.

"Huh? Going home? Where's where?" I'm like a dazed person.

"Ran-- anterin nayla return yes"ask vishnu on rani.

Rani just nodded.

Finally I went back to our rented house with arya and rani.

Arya opened the car door for me, and then continued to lead me to enter the house.

Our rented house has been repaired, some of the furniture has been replaced. And the paint is new. The color is brighter now.

Even the smell of the new paint was still clearly smelled in my heart.

"Nay, you take a break, we go to the room."rani took me to the room. But I held his hand.

"I'm going to the front yard, please."I'm a little woozy.

I really want to enjoy the fresh air right now.

Rani looked at the arya behind me and soon nodded.

"Yes, let me go." said Arya and took my hand and took me out.

Arriving in the courtyard, Arya and I sat in the gazebo near the fish pond. That's the spot I like best here. Seeing the fish swimming freely, made my mind calm.

"Nay.." call arya.

"Hmmm.."

"Do you want to drink or eat something?" bargain her.

"Eum.. Cold milk." I asked a little spoiled.

"Okay, just a second." she ran a little inside the house and soon brought back a glass of milk I asked for .

"Diminished first.."

I took the glass and I gulped it down to half a glass.

"Would you like to eat something?"

"Yes" I replied flatly.

" what do you want to eat?"

"Eat people" I replied.

"Ih-nay. Are you human or a zombie? Horrified ah" said arya while shuddering in horror. I know he was deliberately funny to make me laugh. Though his jokes are crisp sometimes.

I pinched Arya's arm in a tubi while smiling to see her in pain.

"Nrp .. Nay-geez. I'm donk." whine it.

I giggled at Arya's reaction like this.

Arya looked me in the eyes with a smile, "well donk, nay. Smile. I'm sad to know, you're like that."

I stopped pinching him and remembered the incident.

Seeing my reaction change a little, the work drew closer,

"Nayla's.. Terrified me. If he is a hero.. I'm sure the first person he met was me. So he-is not a hero. Understood?" arya spoke very close to my face.

Also true. If it is a hero, surely he will meet arya first. Not even like that. He was also strange, not that he stopped when I called, but instead he kept running away.

I cried again and Arya hugged me.

"I know. You still miss the hero. But you must be aware. If the sudh hero dies. You have to continue your life without him. I-I'm always here, nay. There are still many who love you. Inget it."

I let go of my embrace and looked at arya in wonder.

Sometimes I don't understand what he's thinking.

He can sometimes be gentle sometimes immediately turned fierce. As it is now.

Arya kissed my forehead, then came down again to my two eyeballs.

"Don't be sad anymore.I beg you. "

I hugged him again. And arya held me tighter.

I feel, comfortable...

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