RUSTING BOAT
Chapters. 68

I stood while staring at the highway. My eyes fell on the lights from the PT oil refinery. A rhinoceros that looks flickering from a distance. Why does my heart feel.

" Why, daydreaming? " Saniah asked me. I exhaled an annoyed breath. " Old shafrie, really..!!

" Oh....Syafrie, he just called, said he was a little late to pick you up, because there was troublehooting at work" Saniah said explaining why Syafrie had not yet revealed her nose.

I smiled, then chuckled little to laugh at myself. Made Saniah furrow his brows in astonishment.

" Why...? Persambet, lu? "

I shook my head slowly. " No, I'm just thinking about the two of us."

" What's wrong with the two of us? " Saniah asked with a face that did not understand.

" Well, we're both stuck with two assholes."

Now Saniah shook his head.

" It's not really a jerk. Just haven't gotten any guidance yet." he answered quickly while patting my shoulder. " Syafrie is a loyal man. Remember Asma, for ten years she has been waiting for you. He betrayed you, but he had to. It was also because of her in-laws she respected who asked."

I was silent to Saniah's words.

"Let's go. But right now I still can't accept and forget all that past. The betrayal of Syafrie is like a wound, even though it has healed, but it still causes unsightly scars."

" Asthma, everyone has a past. Everyone has their own reasons for something. We cannot judge something by its outer skin alone. Like Syafrie, he has his own reasons for never wanting to replace you with Marina. Did you ever ask Syafrie why she couldn't accept Marina as his wife in place of you who ran away for years? "

I shook weakly. Lazy to argue with my best friend when it comes to the issue of Syafrie. Like my family, he will also defend the dead - the dead Syafrie.

" I don't want to ask you about it. Right now what's on my mind is how to get that Kunyuk out of my life."

" You'll regret doing that. Right now, maybe for Syafrie you are a dead love for her. Loving you is happiness for him. And parting again with yourself is a great tragedy for the second time in his life, even though you never return his love and all his attention. However, do you not think if someday he is tired of you and looking for a new home that can accept all his shortcomings and advantages. Asthma. Look at me. I try desperately to hope for the love and care of Brother Jubair, while you have Syafrie who loves and bestows all her affection on you, but you refuse her outright."

I'm speechless. Can't say or dwell on Saniah's words anymore. Outside, the rain was already starting to fall. The noise above the house Ammak Barre because the roof of the house made of zinc makes the atmosphere of the house sound noisy. The rain fell very hard with the storm. Ammak house curtains move - motion blown by the wind. I close the sweater on my body because the air entering through the cracks of the wall feels cold piercing my skin.

I looked back at Saniah. My best friend is currently resting her calf on a long sofa in the living room of Ammak's house. " If Syafrie wants to go, then go. Please leave if he wants that. I love other people. Having him back makes me unable to forget that wound, Saniah. You know what not? A few hours before you came, I was thinking about ending my life... " I gulped because my throat was suddenly dry. "my mind was at war with my feelings and ego. Feeling myself thrown away again makes me feel completely useless and unable to accept all of this. Why love always hurts in the end. How can anyone say that love is beautiful? "

I cast a long look out the glass window of Ammak's house. Avoiding the pain in the chest that suddenly appears to burst out uninvited.

" I finally realized one thing. Why would I want to end my life for a person who obviously didn't want me to be in his heart. Stupid, huh? " Saniah looked at me with a nelangsa look.

" I did lose Mas Haris' love. But I got another love. I got the love of Fadil, the love of my mom, the love of my sisters and the love of my whole family. Parting and losing my life doesn't mean I can't be happy. I also don't have to be back with Syafrie to live happily. So I thought that once this kid was born, we might split up." I stroked my increasingly distended stomach weakly.

" Asthma. Is there no other way? "

" Did you go berserk knowing that Haris was getting married because of the invitation? "

" Yes, I was angry and disappointed in him. Until I almost hurt Fadil and intend to end my life. Gravely.... " I grimaced, regretting how weak my faith as His servant was.

" Asthma, Asthma. It's really sad to see you like this. Hurting yourself and your child is not wise. Haris has decided to marry another woman. Then what can you do. Is it worth expecting it again? "

I nodded - nodding as if understanding something, then.. " I can actually take it back. That's not hard for me. I think I can do it." I said, nodding my head.

Saniah's eyes were perfectly rounded when he heard my words. " Crazy you, Asthma.! "

" Love is crazy, Niah." I said as I took a seat next to Saniah. Kicking my best friend's leg slowly until he fell to the floor.

" Your sadist, phisikopat... There is no heart. Just like the queen of devils. "

I pointed Saniah's head slowly. " Hey, if I had a heart, maybe since ten years ago, I'd only have a name, Niah. Thankfully, my heart has been shed for a long time. So, don't blame Asthma now. Suddenly I felt a cramp in my stomach so subconsciously I bent down and held my stomach.

Saniah panicked and stood up immediately." Asthma..... Why are you? Does your stomach hurt. Well, surely this was because - because of the fight earlier. Ouch..... How is this...? where it's raining outside, again." Saniah went back in a panic.

" It must have been the female blouse kicking your stomach. What did I say too? Don't be served. Yes don't be served. Well... If so, what has happened? Where Syafrie hasn't come yet - come as well... W.... How is this? " Saniah looks increasingly panicked. He opened his phone and called someone.

" Syafrie... Where are you, anyway? Asthma stomach pain. I'm confused how. Hurry.... You're here. " said Saniah on the phone. Her face was really worried seeing me whimpering in pain .

I didn't blink looking at Saniah. His fear and anxiety were truly excessive. " yeah, he,.... Niahs... "

" Yes, Asthma. I'm calling Syafrie. You're patient, aren't you? " he stroked - elus my stomach and then kissed it. I almost laughed seeing her behavior. " Baby grandpa don't be mad, same mom. Dedek baby don't hurt mom. Mama is not wrong, the wrong caterpillar aunt earlier. Later, yes, aunt temurin he let me know the taste. "said Saniah while rubbing - rub my stomach.

" Yeah..! Oh. niah...! " it's my patience. I then snapped at him. " Saniah. You're guessing the guy I've corrupted you. "

" So, why are you grimacing in pain, then? "

" Yes, I just felt a little cramp. But you were so worried. Lebai, know? " said.

" Finally.I'm afraid your why - napa. What should I say to Syafrie, if anything happens to you? "

" Saniah.oh, yes I forgot. We bought a pentol. Well.. Now, where's the pentol. My stomach is hungry." I said without sin.

Saniah patted her head. " God.... Asthma, food, you never forget. I'm here almost dead because the hangers think of your stomach, well. Asthma.. Asthma..! "

I'm speechless. We looked at each other and then laughed.

" Basic Asthma, sintinggggg....!! " screams.