RUSTING BOAT
Chapters. 93

Deck, I'm gonna talk.. "

I turned to look at the man. For a moment I saw doubt in his eyes.

" What did Haris say? " many more.

" Deck, let's get married..! "

Huh.......

I just woke up from my sleep. I don't mind the dizziness that still hits my head. My mouth was wide open so surprised to hear Mas Haris's unexpected invitation. He wants to take me home? Jesus... I pinched at a glance my arm. It hurts. So this really happens. Mas Haris actually proposed to me.

" Mak...What do you mean, Mas?" i stammered. I don't know why I was nervous. Damn it. This heart feels like it's not because of taste. I'm surprised the doctor's diagnosis of typhoid symptoms, but why my heart is having problems.

Mas Haris chuckled at my question. I patted the jidat. It feels so stupid. Why do I ask like this. I look like an idiot.....

All right..all right.I finally took a breath and then went back to speaking.

" Goodoo, why did Mas ask like that? Am I seriously getting married? " i repeated Mas Haris' question so he wouldn't misunderstand.

"I mean it's obvious, Dek. Mas seriously want to invite you to marry and sail the household ark alone with you. Are you willing to accept it, Dek? " ask Mas Haris.

I stared at the clean face of the man before me with an expression that somehow. Shocked, confused and in disbelief.

Inexhaustible how could this man submit his application to me at the age of our introduction who just turned three days old.

I want to laugh out loud - bahak but it is not done because I saw the facial expression of Mas Haris who looks serious - really.

I shook my head because I thought Mas Haris was just a joke. " The funny thing is not funny. "I said later.

" Mum not kidding, deck. Mas was already saying that Mas seriously want to ngajakin adek marriage. "

" But did you forget? Yesterday Mas said, he said our relationship is just pretend."

Mas Haris was silent at my words. He looked at me for a moment and said.

" Would you believe me if I told you that I'm starting to like you now? "

Now change, I am silent to hear Mas Haris expressing his feelings.

" I don't know when exactly these feelings are present. But I don't like it when another guy looks at you in admiration. I also have a sense of always being around you and protecting you. I don't know what his name is. But all I know is I want to have you and not lose you, Dek."

I gawked at the words of Mas Haris who was long and wide about his feelings. Whether fascinated or confused, I don't know which one.

" Deck.". "I felt Mas Haris' hand touching the back of my hand.

I became a wave. Especially when Mas Haris kissed her. My face became red as a tomato.

It was the first time I was kissed by a man even though the kiss was not on the lips but on the hands.

Hearing Mas Haris words earlier I became worried. Whether I should accept his love or not.

Jubair's presence makes me feel in danger. The man who had been present in my past was not impossible to come back again dragging me into the dark circles of our past. I know for sure, he certainly did not want to lose face in front of his mother's father and also the people in our village by letting alone our divorce. I doubt if he would be willing to face that.

My residence made Mas Haris sigh. I feel guilty. Maybe he thought I would reject him. I don't know what to say right now either.

" God is scared, Mas.. "

Mas Haris sighed. "What are you afraid of? " tanyanya riled. There was a great fear that would fill her face if I refused her wish.

I was silent and did not answer his question directly. I thought about what words I should say so as not to offend this good man in front of me.

" I'm a widow, Mom! " in the end those words are what came out of my lips.

Mas Haris's face changed. There was shock there. Maybe he didn't expect me to be as good as eleven twelve as Asthma. The status I was holding was also purple.

No more words came out of Mas Haris' lips after that. We just kept quiet for a long time. Me and Mas Haris were both immersed in our thoughts.

Meanwhile, the day has gone late in the afternoon. The sun has just entered the contest and the night is starting to come in place of the position of the scorching and burning daylight making the dark and dark atmosphere that exists.

I have long since returned to lying down because of the tightness that somehow came back to burst out. Shadow after shadow of the past comes back to me. Bringing back memories of the past that I buried close. As hard as I tried to throw it away, still the shadow did not want to go away from the eye. I closed my eyes hoping it would all go away. But instead of disappearing, the shadow grew stronger like a movie slide playing in my brain

I glanced at Mas Haris who was leaving the room. I don't know where to go. I am powerless even to say just ask the purpose. Ego and shame overcame everything. At the end of the day I just lay with my eyes closed as the last weapon hoping that Mas Haris would think I was asleep.

Maybe because I was tired, I finally fell asleep. Until finally a touch in my hand woke me who was sleeping.

I blinked my eyes adjusting my eyes to the lights that blinded my eyes

" Dad...." It was the only word that could be spoken when my netra managed to catch its shadow.

" I'm sorry, I woke you up. You have not eaten from earlier. "he said while thrusting a hospital food plate filled with porridge complete with chicken dishes and vegetables towards me.

I shook my head in an attempt to eat. I really don't have a taste for food. My mind is still haunted by the incident earlier this afternoon and also the shadow of Jubair's presence that emerged from the past.

" No, you can't refuse to eat. How can you recover quickly if you do not want to eat. Mas bribe, well. "the bargain.

" Hah." I gawked at Mas Haris' sweet demeanor. After one fact I revealed to him, but why did his attitude remain unchanged? Is Mas Haris pretending to be sweet or is there some other purpose. I don't think about all this.

I'm getting no taste for food.

" Open your mouth, Deck..! " the order is firm.

I lazily opened my mouth. Mas Haris then fed me painfully. Up to the third mouthful, I raised my hand sign that I was full.

Mas Haris thrusting drinking water at me which I immediately gulped greedily. I'm so thirsty.

After finishing Mas Haris again intended to bribe me but I refused by shaking my head.

" That's enough, Mom. Adek is full. "

" Spend, Deck. You eat it a little.. "

" Dad, I want to talk.... " I shifted the focus of Mas Haris who was still trying to continue bribing me.

His hand stopped when he heard my request. His gaze straightened the bead of my eyes.

" Whatever you say, Deck. That won't change my decision. "

" But, Mas... Do you not regret later. And... --⁴⁴

besides, I'm afraid that Mas Haris's family won't be able to accept my presence at Mas Haris' side."

" Your fears are overrated, Deck. My family won't have a problem who will be with me. After all, my age has grown to make my own choices. "he said with certainty. There was a decisiveness that was caught through his words just now. It makes me feel unable to speak anymore.

" This is the cure, Dek. Drink...!" this time he gave me medicine and drinking water.

I took the medicine from his hand and put it in my mouth and took the drinking water in his hand to drink it with the medicine in my mouth. It tastes so bitter. I shuddered after taking the medicine. Indeed, I hate it when asked to swallow drugs especially drugs that taste bitter. Because it was forced and for the sake of prestige I finally swallowed the medicine that Mas Haris had given me.

" Sleep.it's easy - hopefully tomorrow you're home. " Mas Haris told me to go back to sleep while fixing the location of my blanket.

I followed and began to close my eyes. I eventually fell asleep until the next morning.

I woke up and opened my eyes and found a sleeping Mas Haris sitting next to my bed with his head on my bed.

I was moved by the care and sincerity of the man's sacrifice. Even though his status is not officially my lover, he is willing to sacrifice so much for me. For a moment I felt bad. Do I accept this man's proposal and let go of solitude or keep maintaining that solitude.

" You're up... " Mas Haris was awake by the touch of my hand on his head.

" It's morning, Mas. "my mouth. He got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face.

" Dek, Mas look for breakfast first, yes. "the prestige of Mas Haris who I immediately knew. " I'll drop the fruit if there is, Mas. "

" Ok... What fruit? "

" Pears or apples if any... " I really like both types of fruit.

" Oh..." Mas Haris smiled as he winked and then stepped out after that.

After Mas Haris died, I tried to get off the bed intending to go to the bathroom not far from my bed. Mas Haris put me in the VIP room until this room was occupied by me only.

I was just about to step into the bathroom, the pain came back to my head. I was staggered to feel my limpid body as if it was about to fall.

Luckily a burly hand caught my body, so I didn't fall to the floor.

I was shocked when I realized that it wasn't Mas Haris' hand. When I look up.

"You.......... "