The Struggle of the Sick Wife
The Beginning of Ayu's Life
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Tati ayu wulandari (29 years old), commonly called Ayu was born from a very simple family, both Ayu's parents were plantation farmers. Ayu has two sisters and three brothers, the five Ayu brothers are half brothers. Ayu also has two brothers.
When Ayu was six years old, Ayu's parents had to separate, arguing that there was no longer a match between the two. Mama had to be forced to leave, but she was forced to leave, because he felt himself was no longer able to live a household life with his husband. Ayu's father was famous very hard, but he was very hard, even his self is not reluctant to hurt mama Ayu when the quarrel between the two happened. Ayu's father also likes to play gambling, and lazy tendrung to be back.
Six-year-old Ayu, who was sitting in a religious court, had to choose who she would live with. really an inner pressure and metal that must be faced is very large, so that his self is determined if he gets married later, so any way his self must survive so that what he felt at that time, will not be felt by his children later.
It is still clear in his memory at that time, how the judge asked himself.
" Ade Ayu .. ade Ayu who would you like to live with ? same mom or same dad?." said the judge asked Ayu.
" Want to be the same father as mama." plain answer from the little girl who was sitting with a candy in her right hand.
" Ade .. If asked to choose one, who would it be the same?." again the judge asked the little girl in front of him.
" Don't want ... later if Ayu comes with dad, how mom ? keep going with Ayu, mom, how's dad?." That's what's in the innocent little girl's mind.
Hearing that, the judge was confused to decide, Ayu, who will stay with ? however, given the age of Ayu who was only six years old, and for various considerations, Ayu was finally advised to stay with the mother.
Since then Ayu lived with her mother.since she lived with her mother, the life of the little girl was really tested.with economic conditions that are very concerned right, right, Ayu and her mother and grandmother Ayu, had to live in a hut of bamboo.
The three of them had to live hitchhiking on land owned by someone familiar mama, mama also became a farm worker on the plantation of the landowner. in addition, Ayu also had to walk as far as 25km from where she lived to where she went to school.The streets passed by Ayu were already paved, indeed, however, on the right and left side of the road is still forest and plantation.self must walk when leaving and going home to school alone.no one delivered Ayu while attending school, but, because indeed mama does not have a vehicle and also mama is busy with her work as a garden worker.only once Ayu is given a ride if there are people who invite themselves to join.
The two Ayu seibu brothers did not always live with the three, they chose to wander out of the village, because the second was not married. when you filed for divorce to the religious court, Mama Ayu had to wander out of the area with her brother, for the cost that you have to spend on the lawsuit to the court.
" Yes ma .." There was nothing the little girl could say, but say the words, even with tears in her eyes, which indicates that his self does not want to be lived by the mother.
Ayu is a jolly and cheerful little girl, herself also has many friends, but for the moment her self really must be forced to be independent. if the other little girl is still spoiled with both parents, but not for Ayu.
For one month the mother left, then during that time Ayu also lived alone with the grandmother in the bamboo hut.if asked about the family, Ayu did have her, Ayu did have her, it's just that they don't live close to Ayu and Ayu's grandmother.
The time changed did not feel a month already the mother died herself with the grandmother.and finally the mother was mulanh, by bringing the results of wandering for a full month.be it money, rice, and so on, and sembako and do not forget the mother also bought by - by the form of snacks for Ayu.
" Hore, mama came home .. mama came home .. mama came home .. "cries from the little girl, when she saw her mother and sister coming.
Seeing that the mama just smiled, maybe the mama also missed her daughter. it's just that mama is the type of mother who never reveals her affection with words - words to her daughter's son. if asked why, then the answer was only ' I don't know '.
Days change days, months change months and years change.It does not feel three years already after the divorce of the mother and father, the father, and for three years also Ayu had to struggle with walking to his school to study.
And when Ayu sat in the 3rd grade, the mother was now remarried, with a man whose age gap was far adrift.because the man who will be the father continued for Ayu, Ayu, have many children and grandchildren.the age of the grandchildren of the father continued Ayu, Ayu's age and even his oldest grandson was already a teenager. unlike the mother who only has three people and the youngest daughter is Ayu.
Maybe for mama Ayu age is not a problem to re-establish the household life, which before her had been destroyed in the middle of the road. for mama Ayu, the important husband is not only dear to himself, but his husband also wants to love the children of the mother.
Similarly with mama, mama Ayu will not distinguish - different children, either the child of the mother or the child of her husband. For Mama Ayu all children are the same, there is nothing different, which distinguishes it just how we love them.
And here Ayu also feels how the affection of a father is connected to himself.self does have a real father.but since his self lives with the mother, his mother, ayu's real father never once visited Ayu. what else to give pocket money to Ayu, never did the father.really really sad the fate of an Ayu. what is the next life of Ayu ? and what was her life as a stepdaughter of her father ?.
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