The Struggle of the Sick Wife
Abandoned

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After Ayu learned of the betrayal of the husband, now all Ayu did was complain to the divine. Above the peace in his last prostration Ayu begged God for strength, begging that he be given patience and clairvoyance in the face of his current test, because Ayu is sure God will not test himself beyond the limits of His own servant.

And since then, Ayu no longer contact the husband.this time the self is only resigned to the return of her husband, at this time Ayu just tried to calm the heart, trying to make a little peace with the situation. however Ayu also realized that her husband was a normal man, and all that happened because of Ayu's mistake that could not carry out her duties as a wife.

Right at 02:00 in the morning, the day after Ayu contacted the husband at that time.

" Tok .. tok ..tok .." a knock on Ayu's door.

Ayu who was asleep at that time was shocked when she heard a knock on the door of her house.So Ayu slowly got up from the bed, and a little bit of the glass curtain that is next to the door of the house. When Ayu looked outside, Ayu was surprised that the husband was now outside with a backpack on his back.

" Cklek "the sound of an open door.

When the door of the house was open, bang Lutfi also went straight in. No greetings were given, no warm hugs that Ayu received, he said, there was not even a kiss on his forehead as usual.

Seeing that, Ayu was only able to be silent rigidly in her place. let alone greetings, hugs, kisses, even smiles as if something expensive for bang Lutfi to give to Ayu.

After entering the house, bang Lutfi just let go of his bag alone, and immediately threw himself in the middle room.no words came out from the lips of bang Lutfi at this time, and, just a word of greeting to the wife who was three months not found her, which there is only silence between the two.

While Ayu who was still staring at the door was now starting to move and follow the husband shortly after closing the door of the house. Ayu saw the husband who was closing his eyes, still wearing the same clothes, then Ayu moved to take the husband's casual clothes in the closet.

" Bang, wake up first bang. brother change clothes first." said Ayu to her husband, by shaking the body bang Lutfi berlahan.

" Sister cape Yu .." still closing both eyes bang Lutfi said to Ayu.

" Yes, Ayu knows, but change clothes first, let your brother sleep comfortably, anyways here cold." said Ayu who thrust the clothes she took on her husband.

Without a word bang Lutfi opened his eyes, and immediately took the clothes in Ayu's hands and changed the clothes he was wearing at this time. and again want to lay himself in the same place.

" Bang, sleep in the room, it's cold in here" when he saw the husband who wanted to go back to sleep in the living room.

" Baby Yu .."

" Yes Ayu knows, but sleeping in the room just to be more comfortable.if you feel disturbed by Ayu, let Ayu sleep in the front room." said Ayu while walking to her son's room.

Just a few steps Ayu walked, Ayu's hand was in bothered by the Lutfi bang and without talking to herself immediately pulled Ayu into her second room.

" Sleep here" said bang Lutfi who tidied up his body and the wife's body.

Ayu is only able to be privileged in the heart, and continues to invoke the power of the divine for her current self.If Ayu is not pregnant, Ayu may not feel this much pain.at least, Ayu, his self will survive for himself.but at this time, his self in force must be strong and survive for one life that is currently growing in his womb.

The time has now passed, now almost a week has bang Lutfi was at home.and during that time, the attitude of bang Lutfi and his words always make Ayu hurt.even today, even now, Ayu, not only did Ayu feel the attitude and harsh words of her husband, but, Ayu's family also felt it. Even what made Ayu destroyed, her husband easily dismantled her disgrace on the entire Ayu family.

" O Allah bang ..why do you disassemble brother. Ayu shy bang ..hik .. hik .. do not be ashamed of the contemptible act hik .. hik .." said Ayu who is currently crying a hiccup and sitting in front of the husband.when Ayu knows that the husband has exposed his own disgrace to the Ayu family.

" If Ayu is embarrassed, yes it is better to just leave this house. Brother has also cape Yu, brother cape with all the behavior of Ayu so far. brother cape nanggung the burden that is on the brother." really lost already the sense of compassion bang Lutfi on the wife.if his self no longer love or love Ayu, he was lost, but at least look at the child in Ayu's womb at this time.

A child who had longed for himself, and a child who always wanted himself.Even almost five years old his second waiting for his presence.but at this time, but now, as if - if the presence of the baby is no longer visible in the eyes of the husband and father of the child in Ayu's womb.

" What is your mind at the moment ? brother could leave Ayu in this condition, where the feeling of brother.just because brother no longer loves Ayu, then brother throw Ayu just like that. not that my brother also feels like we grew up without a father beside us. then that's how our brothers will be children - our children experience the same thing with both of us." with the roar of tears that continued outward from both corners of Ayu's eyes.

" Yu .. brother feels that it is appropriate again with Ayu. brother has made Ayu hurt a lot, so let brother go. Ayu does not have to worry about the children, brother will be responsible for both of them, and as long as Ayu herself, brother will always give money to Ayu, Ayu, even though later Ayu is not the wife of his brother anymore." said bang Lutfi to Ayu.

Ayu, who heard the words of her husband, now began to understand that at this time her position has been lost and has been replaced from the heart and mind of her husband. for almost a week, Ayu chose to keep silent about all the feelings she felt. Ayu tries to fight so that her household can return intact as before, even though she must be injured.

During this week not once Ayu brought up about the actions of the husband, Ayu only tried to be better in front of the husband. because Ayu thought the husband still had a heart on him. but now, Ayu's struggle was never seen by bang Lutfi. because it was always thrown from his lips, that bang Lutfi tired of undergoing his marriage with Ayu.

" This is not a matter of brother who is not worthy of Ayu. but rather, Ayu who is like her does not deserve anymore for brother. is that woman much better than Ayu ?." this time Ayu asked Bang Lutfi, though with a broken heart. I just want to hear it straight from my husband's lips.

After hearing Ayu's question, bang Lutfi was now back silent.no words came out of his lips, and precisely his inertia had been able to Ayu knot right.

" Well bang, if you want to go. then go, not Ayu who left brother.but brother who left Ayu, not Ayu did not want brother, but brother who did not want Ayu. pursue your freedom, pursue your lust, may your brother be happy by leaving your family today. " said Ayu by taking the hand of the husband, and greet him with reverence.

" I'm sorry that Ayu has been wrong with my brother so far, sorry that Ayu is always a burden for my brother, and sorry for the lack of Ayu who can not be a good wife for my brother. so Ayu begs forgiveness from the brother of the world to the Hereafter." after saying that, Ayu passed from the presence of the husband and without looking back again, Ayu went into the son's room.

Lutfi was just silent to see the departure of Ayu who entered and locked himself in the room. seeing that bang Lutfi without any feeling immediately packed all his clothes in the closet and prepared to leave.

" Tok . tok .. brother go Yu, take care of Ayu and take care of brother. Ayu take it easy, brother left will not bring anything and all the treasures that brother obtained so far brother stay for children. please forgive my brother's mistakes to Ayu. Assalamualaikum ..." after saying his greetings, bang Lutfi really went to leave Ayu.

While Ayu who was in the room was just crying without sound by tightly hugging the Quran on his chest.al-quran that every day in his read, his, and as well as the prayer beads held tightly by his right hand.

So great is the love of God on him, that Allah tested Ayu with a test that was so heavy on his shoulders.as a man who is still indigent in religion, and who is, I think he wants to give up on his current life.

Since childhood Ayu exam is not easy, but this time, Ayu is at the lowest point in her life. Betrayed even in living the husband in a state of pregnancy, but this time, Ayu is at the lowest point in her life, it was a very tough test for Ayu.

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