The Struggle of the Sick Wife
Apologizing

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Still at the Ayu residence, at this time the entire Ayu family has gathered in the living room at Ayu's house. whether Ayu himself is actually made to be confused and upset by what is happening now. what else is now Ayu was in the midst of the arrival of a guest, certainly as the current host Ayu felt embarrassed by the events that occurred in her house.

" I'm sorry mba Ayu, as good as I say go home. Maybe mba Ayu also needs time to think clearly, about what decision will mba Ayu will take. and for now, Ayu will take, I better resign, and sorry if my arrival this time makes mba Ayu and family feel disturbed" Rifky told Ayu.

Actually Rifky felt uncomfortable with the events that happened in Ayu's house at this time.what's more, accidentally his self heard a fact about Ayu and about Ayu's household life. it really makes him feel sad and ashamed as a man.

Whether it is made of what the heart of a man, who a few minutes ago was exposed to raw bogem from the older brother of Ayu, a man who holds the title of a husband and a father, who was a father, who could leave his wife and children even when the wife is pregnant with her second child.

Is it appropriate if an irresponsible man still comes and easily apologizes just like that. what else Rifky can not imagine how Ayu had to struggle in the midst of her slump with the condition of pregnancy, even Ayu almost lost her life.

Her self also can not imagine how Ayu's situation at that time, really Ayu is a strong and tough woman.It can be ascertained Ayu's condition is not good - it's fine at that time, really Ayu is a strong and tough woman, and the same thing as this time.

" I'm sorry Rifky, if the current events make Rifky mas uncomfortable.and please give this to ustadz Ahmad, because for now Ayu can not decide what - what. let alone buyu decide, because buyu has the right to know about the mandate of the late ummi Khadijah.and please convey Ayu's apology to Ustadz Ahmad." with a very soft voice Ayu said to Rifky, by presenting a letter containing the mandate of Ummi Khadijah. Because at this time Ayu was very embarrassed and like having no face on his guest.

" God willing, I will say later and then Ayu just relax, do not feel hesitant like that because everything that happens is the will of God, so this is all out of our control as ordinary humans. be patient and reliable enough, God willing all will be beautiful at his time." with a smile Rifky said to Ayu.

While the other residents of the house just fell silent and enough to be a listener, with all the words of Ayu and her guests were.whether what the entire Ayu family thought at this time, the, what was clear was that a tense atmosphere still enveloped the room.

While now in one corner of the house, bang Lutfi only able to bow.self like her can not expect much to Ayu. especially after seeing a man who came in Ayu's house at this time.

From the appearance alone bang Lutfi already feel inferior, if you have to compete to get Ayu back.what else in addition to the anger of the Ayu family, making his hopes dashed before being declared.

Bang Lutfi admitted, the aura on Ayu today is completely different.The figure of the wife who was hurt was transformed into a true Muslim woman. even bang Lutfi alone to feel disinclined if staring at his ex-wife.

The face that he used to be able to see himself at any time with all his heart, but this time, the face had been covered with cloth to block his view.if it was, then, her self can touch Ayu with all her content, but not for now, because it must be very unlikely.

" Well please excuse me Ayu first, Assalamulaikum ..."

" Wa'alaikumus salutations."

After shaking hands with Ayu's brother, Rifky finally passed away from the Ayu residence.

After the departure of Rifky, now the entire view of the residents of the house, directly looking towards the bang Lutfi who is now sitting with his head bowed.

" Now tell me there is a need why did you come here again?" said Ayu's sister opening her voice and asking bang Lutfi.

" Sit on the chair bang, and this, the copres used to bruise on the brother's face.so as not to swell." by giving a small towel that Ayu had soaked with ice water, and, to compress the bruise on the face of her ex-husband.

" Thank you Yu .." bang Lutfi said to Ayu, by taking a small towel that Ayu put on her. and with a bang Lutfi pressed his own face.

The situation is still quiet, no family Ayu who open her voice.except Ayu's older brother, who did give a blow to the face of bang Lutfi.

Seeing the state of silence, now bang Lutfi also began to change his sitting position to kneel on the floor.by facing the Ayu family who had now gathered in the room.

" Sssaya knew my actions one year ago were very painful, and maybe even very difficult to forgive.it's just that I want to beg forgiveness and forgiveness of all her especially Ayu. Yu .. brother knows brother is wrong, brother knows maybe brother's fault can not Ayu forgive. however, please allow brother to rest at Ayu's feet as brother's apology." by approaching Ayu and now sitting at Ayu's feet.

" Asstagfirullah .. what do you do .. ! standing bang, it is not worth the brother to rest at the feet of Ayu. brother can only rest at the feet of both parents brother, and prostrate to the owner of life.not to Ayu." said Ayu, Ayu, which immediately rewinds its steps backwards.

" Yu .. let brother do his Yu. brother will not force Ayu to forgive brother's fault on Ayu. however, at least his brother has made a brother's request on Ayu and family." still trying to get closer to Ayu's feet.

" But bang ..." Ayu had not yet continued his words, bang Lutfi again interrupted.

" Yu .. don't make this jerk lose his self-esteem Yu. if the husband's brother is a jerk and has no heart for hurting Ayu, but please don't make brother also be a father jerk also for both sons brother. let brother beg for forgiveness as the father of both brothers' children, brother, begging forgiveness to the mother who has given birth to children brother." said bang Lutfi to Ayu.

Now destroyed already the defense bang Lutfi who had been trying to hold him back. somehow his chest was too tight when he recalled what he had done to Ayu one year ago. with the melt of tears flowing profusely from both corners of his eyes, even his two shoulders went up and down which signified that there was great regret within.

Seeing what happened to bang Lutfi, there was no sympathy shown by the Ayu family.just the look of disappointment and anger was still visible on the look on the face of the Ayu family.

Seeing that Ayu let out her breath that felt heavy.

" Bang wake up bang, it's not good brother did this to Ayu. was not before his Ayu ever said to brother. that Ayu had forgiven brother's mistake long before brother came and rested at Ayu's feet at this time. Ayu was sincere with what happened to Ayu, because Ayu knew, that this was all God's plan because it would not be possible for something to happen in this world if not by God's will. and Ayu was sure that this was the best path that God had chosen for Ayu, because God loved Ayu. And behind God's trials there must be happiness that Ayu would obtain." with a little explanation Ayu said to bang Lutfi.

Hearing Ayu's words, it was like a hard slap for bang Lutfi. a word that was able to make him bowed because of shame, and pain in his heart at once.

Truly, a word that does not judge, but feels judged.a soft, yet very sharp word that is capable of making deep wounds. and a word of remembrance that at this time his self was a sinful servant.

So many words 'andai' to start each regret, and once you start to regret, then at that time you will feel lost. there is his regret is to realize that time cannot be repeated.

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