The Struggle of the Sick Wife
Struggling to rise

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Since Ayu's return from the hospital, Ayu's condition is now slightly better than before. with the spirit and support of family and people closest to Ayu, Ayu, now her self began to rise from the slump she felt. where Ayu had to experience the slump, abandoned, as well as the betrayal of her husband.

Although still in a weak condition due to her pregnancy hormones, at least Ayu will try to be strong and patient.His self really has realized all the mistakes he did at that time, he said, it was a very stupid act.

How not, if only at that time his self really lost his life. will the problem be solved ? do not be finished, it is precisely Ayu will get the wrath of God. Even in the presence of the creator, Ayu must account for all his actions that have dared to kill the life that God has given, especially the fetus in her womb.

Not only that, his family and his first son will certainly lose the figure of Ayu as a child, sister, and mother figure for his child, of course her husband will feel happy.her self will feel, that Ayu is not able to live without her self, and surely her self will think Ayu always depends on her life.

Ayu is determined in her, will fight to stand firm on her own two feet, because Ayu is sure behind all the tests God gives there must be happiness that God has prepared.

" Yu .. Your brother Usep who was in R city called my mother just now" said the mother told about her first son, who now lives in R city following her wife.

" What did you say ?." Ayu asked my mother.

" Sister Usep you said, would Ayu want if brother Usep pick up ? and stay there for a while until Ayu's condition is calmer.ak Usep also said Ayu can deepen the science of religion there." said mama explained about Ayu's first brother calling himself.

" Huh ... " Ayu sighed.

" Where does Mama Ayu think she should be ?." Ayu asked for the opinion of her mother.

" According to mama what you said, brother Usep you right, if Ayu stays here, Ayu will definitely still think about what Ayu should not think. what else the memories in this house must be many, and Ayu must be difficult to calm down." by fondly stroking Ayu's head.

" Mama's right, until now Ayu still can not calm down. Ayu sometimes still feels depressed ma, Ayu still feels Ayu's burden is very heavy." this time Ayu tries to say what she feels at this time.not like before - before her, before her, Ayu more often muffle her feelings itself.

" Therefore, how if we move first follow your brother there, until Ayu's condition is better and calmer, and after that, we can come back here again. and if Ayu agrees your brother will pick us up in two days.how ?" said mama asked Ayu for approval.

" Keep a'a Ilham like where ma ?." Ayu is still thinking about her son who is currently studying at the boarding school in the city of B.

" Later let me tell your brother Son who visited a'a Ilham in ponpes, as long as we are in town R." this time mama gave a proposal to Ayu, so that Ayu does not have too much mind

" Okay ma .. Ayu agrees, at least let Ayu look for a new atmosphere, so that Ayu is a little calmer in undergoing the process of Ayu's pregnancy." said Ayu agreed.

After thinking about all the words of his mother, Ayu finally agreed to the opinions and suggestions of his mother and sister.

Exactly two days after Ayu agreed to follow the brother, at this time his brother Usep has arrived at Ayu's house.his self deliberately came from the city of R to pick up the sister and the mother.

" God willing, Ayu is ready brother." said Ayu steady.

" Good if so, later there Ayu can deepen religious knowledge.following the studies held in pesantren, let Ayu more calm. do not let the current situation adversely affect the growth of the nephew of your brother in your womb "sister Usep said to Ayu.

After conducting deliberation with the other Ayu family, then the end of the family was agreed. that Ayu indeed had to go from home to calm down, to calm down, in order not to be too influential on the load of mind as well as mental Ayu. at least until Ayu is calm or until the baby in the womb Ayu born.

The Ayu family just does not want the memories that are in the house of Ayu, will be a burden on Ayu's mind. Like any ordinary human Ayu, who could have done wrong and ended in sin. the family also does not want the actions of Ayu who wants to end her life will be repeated again.

' O Allah, if this is the best path for the servant, give it smoothness and ease and give it to the servant of infinite strength and patience, in the face of your trials, O Allah, I surrender the future that I have not known only to You, O Allah, both life and death.'

Ayu said a strand of prayer in the heart just before the car that Ayu was riding drove towards the city of R. and in his view of the house that for almost eleven years became a place for his small family.

Now Ayu has to die the house that has given her a thousand memories with her husband and son, as well as witness the journey of Ayu's household life, including witness to the betrayal of the husband.

After taking almost six hours of his final journey Ayu arrived in the city of R. the city that will bear witness to the struggle of an Ayu, as well as the city that will be the beginning of a new life for Ayu. in his gaze a simple house that was in front of Ayu at this time.

" Ayu sure you want to stay here ? does not stay one house with brother?." said brother Usep to Ayu, after seeing Ayu who was looking at the house that Ayu will occupy with mom.

" God willing Ayu sure brother, here is good anyway also the same house sister too far away. I'm more comfortable here with my mom." Ayu also said to the brother, because it was clearly visible on the look of the face of brother Usep. that he was worried if Ayu and mama were just alone, just alone, even though the distance of his house and the house that will be in Ayu is not too far away.

Actually, Kak Usep has advised Ayu and mama to stay at home with her self.but Ayu refused, her self does not want her presence to make the burden of the family's sister. because Ayu was quite understanding of the condition of her brother, and Ayu wanted to stand on her own two feet.

" Well if it wants Ayu, later if there is anything - did Ayu directly call sister." after hearing Ayu Kak Usep's words finally obey Ayu's wishes.

" Hhhmmm .. " said Ayu cleared her throat while nodding her head, a sign Ayu understood by the request of the brother.

Ayu's current residence is still included in the pesantren area, because from the house where Ayu currently lives to the pesantren mosque is only about 200M. and the distance to the house of the brother was about 100M.

The pesantren mosque always conducts religious studies two to three times a week.And his plan at the mosque was that Ayu would gain knowledge by following the studies conducted by the managers and babysitter boarding school.

This time Ayu's determination was very round, her self wanted to be closer to God. and Ayu will re-improve himself and fight to rise from his fall and start his new life just because of God. For to Allah, Ayu rests all his life.

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