Trapped By The Devil
I’m So Lost
It's our last flashback day.
Tomorrow do not forget to read first Chapter 47 to remind the story before the flashback yes.
Double up again today. Aja 🙂 awaited
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There is nothing more gracing Davina's soul than two things.
Ballet and Raka.
And if those two things disappear from her life, what else is left for Davina?
Raka is the love of her life. Although the man was a half-dead jerk, he could not deny at all that it was indeed only Rakalah who could love him so greatly. All his stubbornness, his ego, his selfishness, his own feelings are always comparable to the happiness Raka gave to Davina. Because he was well aware of which human being had no flaws?
Davina is not perfect either. He can sort out all the ugliness in himself. So, that was how he wanted to understand his friend.
Elraka Adity.
The man she had loved since she was a teenager. He was with her through a lot. Who used to hold tightly to his hand as his family's circumstances deteriorated. Who wanted to wait for him to linger in Nararya's waiting room. Who was willing to sit for hours on the bench of economic aviation just to fight for Davina.
However, where was Raka when all these successive problems occurred? If Davina can temper her ego to meet Raka once again, and try to help when she knows what the man is up against, why would Raka still refuse? Why would Raka throw Davina out of her apartment?
Davina doesn't understand. I am tired of trying to understand.
Because at this time he did not have such a big heart to accept Raka's rejection. He has his own sadness and anger. His life is not okay either.
The fact…
Davina is done with all her physiotherapeutic schedules. However, his legs did not return to how they were.
He tried to practice. Even today he borrowed a private room in Nararya specifically for him. However, after five minutes of dancing, his legs were already in excruciating pain.
Davina's frustrated. He stared at the reflection of himself in front of the various mirrors before him.
His eyes warmed up for a moment.
She was a ballerina who could not dance…
The entire feeling he had been trying to endure all this time slowly decayed with his tears. Davina couldn't take it anymore. Everything he had, the happiness he had, now felt forcibly taken from his hands.
Davina sat down on the floor and cried in silence. He drowned his face in his knees.
When he first lost Raka, at least he still had a ballet to keep him moving forward.
If only he hadn't been that stupid to accept Raka again…
If only he hadn't opened his heart to Raka…
Sure do…
Sure oes…
Davina's heart instead blocked every further sentence in her mind. Her heart instead forced her to venture into every one of her happy memories with Raka. All the little things she did to make Davina feel loved.
So ridiculous…
How silly Davina feels…
Even after being hurt many times, rejected and ignored, it turns out Davina is still so much in love…
“Dav...” Someone's voice shocked Davina.
The woman raised her face and found Nikolas already in front of her.
“Ke-why are you here?” Davina stuttered, immediately wiping her tears.
“Tadi Yuni called. Said you needed temen.”
Davina cursed Yuni inwardly.
His heart has not healed yet! What did Yuni really expect from him?
“Gue again want to own, Nik.”
Nikolas just mute. His eyes followed Davina's every move. It turned out that he was collecting his belongings, wanting to get home from Nararya immediately.
He was unable to dance, why else would he linger here?
“Gue first, Nik...” Davina moves out of the room.
“Dav..”
Davina's steps stopped.
Davina clutched the rope of her bag tightly. The tears almost flowed again.
Davina chose not to answer Nikolas's sentence, just kept walking out, leaving the man alone.
Everyone can offer Davina any drug. However, he knew for sure who could actually ease any pain in his heart.
And that man is definitely not Nicholas.
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Someone opened the curtains of Davina's room in the morning, letting the sunlight slip through her eyelids. Wake him up instantly.
As Davina got used to the light, she realized who was now shaking her waist in front of her.
“Mau bye when do you sleep?” Rara nags.
“Lo when to go home, Brother?” asked Davina, rubbing her eyes.
“Newly nyampe. I cape with Mom Papa Dave complaining about you. So I'm sentusin to go home.”
“Keysha where?” Davina tried to shift the subject.
“Sama Mom. No, you don't have to talk. Lo diapain again the same Raka?”
“A-apain skirt, Kak.”
“Udah two weeks you do not control to the doctor, not to Nararya too, just eat sleep eat sleep. What's wrong?”
Davina bit her lip.
Rara sat down next to Davina. His nose automatically frowned as he approached his sister.
“Lo haven't washed your hair how long?” maki Rara's.
“Two weeks.”
“ASLI!” Rara immediately pulled Davina into the bathroom. He immediately filled Davina's bath tub with warm water, mixing it with bath salts, a soap full of foam and oil aroma therapy. Finished with the ingredients, Rara pointed to the bath tub, telling Davina to come in.
“Yes already, you came out dong, brother, if you tell me to shower!” Davina protest.
“Lo don't be ashamed! Buru!”
Finally Davina chose to obey because Rara's face looked very full of anger.
As soon as Davina got into the bath tub, Rara immediately took her place near her sister's head. He took the shampoo and started massaging Davina's head.
“Enaaaak really, Kaaak. Why not be a masseuse anyway?” Davina.
“Diam lo!”
Davina chuckles.
Rara was silent for a while. It's been a long time since he's spoiled Davina like this. Since having Keysha, he has rarely paid attention to his younger siblings. He always felt guilty about it. Distance is also one of the problems. Sometimes any news gets too late to his ears. And now his two sisters are in a mess. One deals with legal issues. One deals with health issues.
“Gue asked once again, lo why the same Raka?”
Davina sighed, “You will never let this go huh, sister?”
“No, until you answer me!”
“Once upon my shoulder dong, Brother. Pake essential oil aja,” said Davina while moving her shoulders, brash.
“So chance lo ya!”
Davina chuckles. And Rara granted Davina's request. His hands started to go down to massage Davina's shoulders.
“Lo don't have to be strong in front of me, Dav.”
Davina laughed softly again. However, strangely enough, his tears slowly melted along with that feeble laughter.
Defense's collapsed. His strong feigned attitude disappeared instantly.
“I’m. so.. lost.. Kak" Davina whispered.
Rara was filled to hear Davina who was starting to sob. Her sister had now covered her face with both hands.
“Gue no longer knows who to hold onto. I'm confused what's left for my life now.”
Davina's body shook violently.
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