Assalamualaikum Ustadz Ku
164. Honest
Firman was silent as a child, listening to Laila's question about her relationship with Ayana in the past. Various thoughts are raging in the brain of the Word today. Whether he should be honest or be keling to Laila.
But if she does, she worries that Ayana will act up and reveal about her past relationship with Ayana. It would be much more dangerous for her marriage to Laila.
"Mas, in asked why even dumbass anyway? What has Ayana had in the past?" laila asked again because she was really curious.
The Word took his breath deep. It seemed very difficult for him to be able to answer Laila's question. Because it was like a simalakama fruit that all the answers he gave would be at risk for his marriage together with Laila.
Laila stared fixedly at the face of the Word. The Word remained silent for a while. Various thoughts are still raging in the mind of the Word today.
'If I'm honest, maybe Laila will leave me soon. But if I were to lie, the effect would be much more severe when Ayana revealed the events of that night. Oh. everything is really high risk. What am I supposed to do right now, my God?' the Inner Word was completely frustrated with the problems Ayana was giving her in her current life.
Firman took a deep breath then he got up from the bathtub and asked Laila to get up as well. Because it had been too long for the two of them to soak so he wanted to talk about it in a much more conducive place.
"Let's finish our bath. So that we can talk better and also you can listen to all the explanations Mas more detailed!" say Firman while pulling Laila's hand to get up from the bathtub and then they finish the shower with them that night.
After getting dressed, they sat on the sofa in the room. While Yuke is still asleep in his sleep. After that suckle with Laila until full.
"Sit down! Mas will tell you all the curious things in your heart! I hope you can think with logic and not with emotion. Can you promise me that?" ask Laila for the Word, before she decides to be honest about her relationship with Ayana in the past.
Laila who was very curious wanted to know the relationship between the Word and Ayana. She could only nod and then smile at her husband.
"We used to be schoolmates. But our relationship then ended after one incident that we had not planned at all!" Word then lowered his head very heavily to reveal Aib in his life with Ayana to Laila.
"Then?" ask Laila curious.
"Yes, we never see each other again. Until a few months ago. He suddenly just came to the office and filed for cooperation with Mas company!" word has trouble swallowing his saliva he is actually experiencing the Dilemma of the moment to tell the true events to Laila the wife he loves so much.
"What happened that made you part so long?" ask Laila.
Firman stared intently at Laila's face and then Firman momentarily stood towards the window of the room and looked at the stars that were currently shining so beautifully over the dark night sky.
"On the time you left Mas all of a sudden. I experienced some kind of unacceptable. I'm not willing because you left me for no apparent reason. So that many do things that are wrong and also beyond logic. Unyuk vented all the heartache and anger that Mas felt!" say Word.
"Have I given you so much pain? When I left you? I'm sorry that you've been through so much pain and suffering because of my selfishness!" laila said while embracing the Word with love and also a deep sense of regret in her heart.
"It's okay, baby! You do that also must have your own reasons and have your own difficulties. Mas who is immature, because it can not control yourself not to do negative things so that gives a lot of regrets in the present!" speak the Word in a weak voice. Because she had caught fire, afraid Laila asked about the incident she had with Ayana.
"Did Mas ever do such a thing together with Ayana? Is that what you split up from and never saw again until now?" ask Laila with the frontal.
Word is surprised not playing. So as to make the Word look intently at Laila. The Word questions exactly what Ayana has told her about herself?
"You mean, baby? Can you explain more details? Because I don't understand!" the lie of the Word while he continues to wipe the sweat that has been pouring on his forehead at this time. Because he was really very nervous to see Laila's eyes that kept on shining sharply at him.
"Has Mas ever had sex with Ayana?" ask Laila frontal.
"Oh God!" word is swollen mouth was so surprised by Laila's question that was so to the point.
"Did Ayana tell you something, baby? Say the same! Let me balance the story you want to know. Tell me the same, what do you know?" tanya Firman tried to confirm whatever Laila already knew about herself along with Ayana.
"Ayana didn't say anything. He just said that Mas and He had a relationship in the past. That's all it is. My question was, just my guess. Is that true?" laila asked while looking intently at the Word who was now looking back at the night ceiling.
"Ayanna invited us, her friends were in class. To a night club. To celebrate his 17th birthday." The Word stopped from the story. It looks like we're looking at what happened 10 years ago.
"All the friends had gone home, but Mas who was upset and upset at that time, was still busy drinking alcohol with Ayana. So we ended up both drunk and finally the cursed night happened between us. Who took away Ayana's chastity that night!" say the Word while bowing his head. Because he really felt guilty about what had happened in the past between him and Ayana.
Firmam took a quick glance at Laila who was currently still staring at him fixedly. The Word was absolutely terrified by the reaction Laila would give to him. After she tells all of her past with Ayana honestly with nothing she is hiding.
But the Word frowned. Because it turns out Laila's reaction is normal. Laila did not seem angry or emotional. Laila's face was so flat. So that resulted in so many questions that arise in the heart of the Word today.