Behind the Eyes of INDIGO
The invisible pain

Alia was still silent while sitting and looking at Irfan, the atmosphere of the room became very quiet because there was no one to make a sound.

"Assynogaic"

"Milkahmur"

Shortly after, Ibu Yani went back into the room and broke the silence that had gripped everyone in it.

"Cock on silence, why is this?" ask this Mother Yani.

"No papa kok ma'am, oh yeah, Abis mother met the doctor right? how did it go, ma'am? are there any serious injuries?" alia.

"Oh yes, I've got X-rays of her chest, because she had complained of pain so I immediately asked on X-ray to be clear"

"How successful is Mom?"

"Alhamdulillah everything is fine, maybe it was because of a motorbike hit so his chest hurts" explained Bu Yani.

About an hour had passed since Alia and Afi had arrived there, but there was no conversation at all between them, Alia kept trying to take her eyes off Irfan by talking to Mother Yani.

It was getting late and Alia felt that she had been in the hospital for quite a while. He said goodbye to Mother Yani to come home soon.

"Cock rush son?"

"Sorry Mom, I'm the same Afi still there is an event, insyaallah tomorrow I come here again" replied Alia.

"Yes, be careful on the road well, thank you for bothering here"

"Sama-sama" Ma'am"

Alia and Afi leave the hospital, and they both head to Afi's house.

Along the way Alia was still silent and made no sound at all.

Without feeling they had reached Afi's house, Alia immediately entered without being allowed to leave, she walked quickly to Afi's room and lay on Afi's bed.

Afi approached Alia to her room, but she took a glass of warm tea first and gave the tea to Alia.

"Drink first Al" while offering a glass of warm tea.

"Thank you Fi"

Alia grabbed the glass of tea and drank it slowly, after which she went back to lying down and did not speak.

"Patient Al.." said Afi slowly while patting Alia on the shoulder.

"I'm patient with Fi, the proof is that I'm not angry"

Afi just fell silent and sat down beside Alia, she hugged Afi and tried to understand about her feelings.

"Why Fi, why??"

Unknowingly Alia's tears began to flow profusely, she hugged Afi tightly and vented her emotions. Afi kept trying to calm Alia down and give her some encouragement.

*****

Meanwhile, in the hospital, Irfan still lies quietly with his best friend, Lana, because his mother is still busy taking care of the administration.

"Crazy you Fan! I don't swear it!" said Lana.

"Yes how dong Lan, now Alia knows everything"

"Fan, you're not supposed to hurt him, you didn't see that, his heart was like an anchor! crazy, she's not even mad at all and still cares about you!"

Lana spoke at length and continued to advise Irfan about the mistakes he had made. Lana even felt sorry for Alia because Irfan was so willing to lie.

"I don't know ah, I'm dizzy Lan!"

"You, you've always been like that, you love to play with girl feelings!"

"Kok you're mad at me?, you're not me?"

"It's not Fan, but Alia is also my friend, don't have the heart to see his expression earlier"

*****

"Fi I'm home first yeah"

"Be careful, Al, don't think about Irfan yet"

Alia nodded and immediately came out of Afi's room. He rushed to his home. When we got home, there was no one at home because everyone was going to an event.

Alia was sitting on the front porch of the house, suddenly her eyes were distracted at something. Alia immediately got up and approached something that caught her attention.

He drew closer to a red rose that had just burst open. Slowly Alia reached out her hand and tried to pluck the Rose flower.

"Aw sick!"

Alia's hand was accidentally pierced by a thorn that was on the Rose flower stem, but she still tried to return and could get a red Rose sprig.

Alia pulled one by one the crown of the flower and began to devour it.

"Have I not eaten this for a long time, it's so sweet!" alia said slowly.

For a moment he forgot about Irfan, but soon he remembered the reality.

"Is my mouth poisonous? why does every oath I make when I'm angry actually happen?"

Alia muttered to herself as she continued to devour the crown of the still very fresh red Rose flower. Without the taste of the rose was already eaten by Alia.

The next day Alia left the house early in the morning, actually the schedule of today's lecture was noon, but Alia deliberately left early in the morning because she wanted to go to the hospital first to return to see Irfan. Although his heart was in pain but somehow he still could not ignore Irfan.

When Alia reached the ward, it turned out that there was no one but Irfan himself.

"Assynogaic"

"Milkahmur"

Alia walked into Irfan's room and sat beside him, she looked around and asked where his mother was.

"Mom took a bath the same as washing clothes that had blood yesterday" Irfan replied.

"Owhh, how'd it go?"

"Yes, I can sit down"

Alia kept trying to show some attention and pretended like nothing had happened. He looked towards the table and it turned out that Irfan's breakfast was still intact.

Alia grabs him and tries to feed Irfan.

"So... was it true yesterday that you went with girls?"

Slowly Alia began to talk and discuss it, but her speech was still very slow and gentle, because she did not want to make Irfan's pain worse.

Irfan just lowered his head, he was speechless even though Alia kept asking.

"I already knew, even before Mom said I already knew, but I still want to hear from you directly" Alia said as she continued to feed Irfan

"You know everything, so now it's up to you"

Irfan spoke in a very weak tone, because he had just felt better.

Alia was silent for a moment while looking at Irfan, she felt very sorry to see his condition that could not even get out of bed, but her heart also felt very sick because it had been lied to.

"I love you!"

"Yes I know, but I'm sorry I hurt your feelings"

"Continue?"

"I accept that for example you would break up with me"

Suddenly Alia was speechless and speechless when she heard Irfan's statement, she felt very confused, annoyed, angry, but also pity.

He really could not bear to see Irfan who was lying helplessly on the bed, but he also could not ignore his mistake just like that.